There is violence in the world because the Earth is PISSED

     I once saw a movie about Christopher Columbus and in it the Natives attacked. The special effects made them seem animalistic in the noises they made as if 'possessed' by animal spirits and something in me clicked......yes. That is the way it is. The Earth and it's spirits "possess' the animals. If the animals aren't enough, they 'possess' the humans themselves.
   On another occasion, I walked past a tree and I sensed a dark entity swoop out from within it. As I walked past a man he turned and aggressively said "HELLO!", demanding acknowledgement. Only now I understand the two incidents were connected. I had passed by the spirit that had been living in a tree and it was pissed because I hadn't acknowledged it and so it 'possessed the man'.
   Recently, I was needing some release and went into the woods and communed with some trees. Later, as we were driving over a bridge, the man I was with asked if I remembered the name of the bridge he had told me the day before. Immediately I could feel anger and power demanding expression from the base of my spine. She was pissed. "Why should I know the name of something built by men that will be washed away by the water it crosses and probably be renamed within a decade?!" "Do YOU know the name of the ground that supports that bridge and the water it crosses?! The water that rises up into the sky and settles in the ocean only to rise again and fall into a stream that which makes up most of your body and will continue to be here throughout eternity?!".
  And yes, today it clicked: the Earth herself is possessing men, allowing pollution to bring everything not in alignment into illness and ruin and extinction. She recovers fully, for her own well-being she is not worried....already Styrofoam-eating worms.....she has abilities to create/birth things we have yet to see.
  But in the same vein, she should not have allowed  it to get to this point. These are the lessons we learn coming out of duality, learning what it means to be a sovereign being, our rights and responsibilities.
  If we, as human beings, are also to be sovereign, we must choose how emotionally and spiritually available we want to be to her....do WE want to be channels of her anger? Do we want to be slaves to her shifting from one extreme to another as she finds her way into wholeness?
  Or do we find our way into wholeness and be that stabilizer and equalizer she can come into alignment with?

The Dark Personal Journey

    So glad no one reads this anyways, lol
    Deep breath. Release with tears.
     Where to begin? It's never at the beginning because the awareness that it is the end of the story never comes until it IS finishing.
     Had a one night stand. Plenty of "you go girl" support from female companions and even a "damn! that's more than I'm getting" from a guy friend......and that's when it began to click back to what I now know WAS the beginning.
     The guys I'm drawing are just like those I grew up with. Having come so far, I believed, energetically I could NOT understand why this was happening.
   Mixed messages and hatred and frustration with them is something we have in common. Neither of us, male or female knows how it is that we send them because we ARE strong minded, persistent, direct and therefore believing ourselves clear. "This is what I believe I am wanting, this is what I believe I am needing and you don't love me if you don't give it to me" or "there is something wrong with me".
   Tenacious would be another term to describe us. We dig into a path and there is no distraction. A good quality unless someone is giving us no for an answer and then our sharp minds are looking for any way around it. We'll suffer loss from delivering an ultimatum rather than give in because we believe we're "right". "Steadfast" would be the "light" side of that quality..steady would be the center, probably.
   I see all that now but I didn't when this day began. I just let it all in as it came, let it move around and release it's hidey-holes throughout my body. Deeper and deeper, further and further back.....
   When I was a young teen I lived in a small town with a bar on every corner and one in-between. All of us children, practically, were children of alcoholics. Don't need to say more, I'm guessing. The boys were brutes, testosterone overload. Passion that terrified even themselves emotionally. The hang-out house was where 7 brothers lived and included all THEIR friends. I was "one of the guys"; tomboy but not "butch". I was there when they went on their pumpkin patch raids and general mischievousness. I was there when they'd "talk shit" about the "Bloody Mary" they "did" right out on the grass in the back yard during the party the night before. I knew I never wanted to be "one of those girls". At a local club a stranger to the area said something really rude to me and I threw his drink in his face. He no sooner raised his hand to hit me in response when I was wooshed out into a jeep and driven off to safety while just about every man in that club jumped that guy and his friend. I had no idea. But all that ended with senior prom. My mom and one of the parents of the guys arranged for he and I to go together. He thought that put me in 'date' category and he got "all paws". I was suddenly 'one of those girls' and heart-broken. I told them to go on to the after party without me and I became a loner from then. I guess that's when I began to look at myself as one who would be disrespected instead of protected. That's were I gave myself injury.
    I guess that's what needed releasing before something new could begin coming.
    Didn't help that as they opened their mouths with their patriarchal ways the 'goddess'/earth aspect would rise with powerful passion from my tailbone area to attack and defend. This bit of clearing may take a few more days, lol.......so glad I don't have a 'following' to impress. Just when I thought I had gotten there.....I just love those guys, though. Tough, strong, devoted...just fucked up in the head from childhood, wanting so hard to love and 'be good to you' but always end up being abusive to various degrees. Sexy beast, wounded warrior, overwhelmed child....my kind of masculine! Can't just kiss it and make it better. Wish it was that easy. They have ALOT to offer.........insecurities making us touchy and judgmental, sigh.......then judging for being judgmental, lol and I've been called not at all judgemental, lol..shows ya how far we, as a species, have to go on some leve;s.

What is God?

   This is a conveyance of experience and what you do with it is completely up to you.
I woke this morning to the vision of a man standing there, he felt a jolt of fear and up out of him through his heart rose an energetic bubble which lodged in his head. O.K. had no idea what that had to do with me, so I went about my morning routine and things began to come to me....memories triggered.
  One was of years ago when I was channeling alot, I channeled a simple statement: "God did not know it's self as God until it entered the mind of man". Back then I thought God was something floating about in the universe and so this meant it arrived at Earth, entered the being of this creature that evolved a unique neuropathway that enabled "God" to perceive it's self as God. Cool. Arrogant, maybe, to some, but cool. I had long gotten past needing to share what I was given and any implications it might have in relationship to how other people would take it. I just write it so I 'remember it', involving the various cells of my body, giving it roots in my physical experience and thus this reality.
  Next was triggered the memory of another vision where I saw a congregation gathered as in bleachers in a stadium. they were sitting in something like family groups and seemed to have an over-all color to each group. As the gathering interacted, entities began to emerge from the various family groups and flow down into the arena. The merging of consciousnesses was causing the "spontaneous" birth or creation/coming into existence of things like fairies, trolls, angels, etc.
  So, I pull these three things together and I get: upon feeling fear and in response to a yearning for help an entity forms in the core of our being and lodges in our heads with the express mission/purpose/intent of guiding man/human being. This entity merges with the entities of other men/human beings to form even more entities that leave the body. And of course, that entity will conform it's self to any definitions and perceptions we have of what god is or should be from our own beliefs or those we accept from others.
  So, indeed, God of this kind is created by men/humankind. This is not to say it is an "illusion" or "figment of one's imagination". It's a real entity/body of conscious energy. It just happened to have it's source of origin with man/human being. It is not the actually source/creator of EVERYTHING, though if at it's core, as every other cell and entity it is given to remember what it was before it took form..if the core of it remembers being a spark of that which we all DID come from, it would identify it's self as that in it's entirety, which it probably could become if it wanted to. And it probably could merge back with it, which I call The Dance. And poof! it's gone......and we're on to other things. Blessed Be!

 

A Little bit of girlish fantasy

  Let us play a bit of girlish fantasy and a wee game of "What if"........
  What if the Earth woke from her womb of dreams into an avatar of a human being? What if the Earth within the human being realized her place amongst the stars, her sovereignty, and the state of everything? What if the Earth in her girlish dreams awake decided that the wood that was made into buildings remembered it was of trees and began growing? What if the Earth in her state of girlish dreams awake in a human body decided gold should be made king and silver his queen? What if in her girlish state of dreams awake in a human being the Earth decided her hero, her champion has and always shall be the black goo and shall have an avatar, too? What if the Earth decided the dark shall have it's crop and with it her peace and that for the light there simply wasn't room so they should take their stock and leave with it, too? What if the surface of the Earth came to life and conscious of it's own presence and all of it began playing? Imagine all the fun we shall be having!

Repeat of right and why every contract/debt is invalid

1) We have the inalienable (unconditional) right to life which means the inalienable (unconditional) right to everything required to sustain it.

2) It is legally recognized that any agreement/contract/treaty made under duress is INVALID. There is not a treaty, agreement, contract made in recorded history that has not been made "under duress". Furthermore, anyone who convinced you of a need to agree to ANYTHING to get food, get a measure of security, get a measure of comfort for yourself or for your family is guilty of what is legally called "coercive persuasion" and "undue influence". Any person/entity who has attempted in any way to convince you that you must do ANYTHING is guilty of a legally prosecutable offense.


No law, treaty, agreement or policy legitimately exists beyond these.

The clown is cured, the light is cracking and it's rippling through all the dimensions

  The "out of touch" masculine is healed, which made the oppressive light crack which made it more responsive to the opposite which is in return more responsive to it, opening the way for the hoardes at the bottom who just needed to be loved. Wonderland is now part of the real world, Alice has healed it.
    You're welcome. Love does not get offended.
Now this human vessel needs to rest.
oh, and the imitators are now getting real

A little Halloween Magic, relationship style sign language, etc.

      It was a busy night of alchemy and clearing, remembering and revealing. We'll begin with the 'magic'. Our household's sleeping schedule has shifted, as is normal for us during this season. We happen to be living in an apartment building this time with neighbors above and below us. I do not worry about us being up at night with the neighbors above. They sleep in the room at the end opposite where the children are playing. Downstairs, however, they sleep in a room at the same end as where the children are playing. I used to never worry about the children running or dropping things or scraping chairs as they move them until we began staying up later and later. I did not want to oppress them. They were doing nothing wrong. I did want to be considerate of my neighbors downstairs, however. The self-arguing was becoming relentless: "when I sleep nothing disturbs me and as a rule, it is only on the edge of sleep anyone IS ever disturbed by noises. Once asleep, people are asleep unless they are having trouble getting to sleep due to something going on within them." Then comes in;"Most people don't sleep as well and easily as I do" and "It's impossible not to hear that!". Of course law of attraction kicks in and the children get bursts of energy no matter how much I try to affect it by getting them out while it's still light and holding off any sit down entertainment for later at night. Then I would resist THAT because I knew it wasn't going to solve it because it was not resolving the root issue. Then the neighbor said it was starting to bother her. Then I noticed I could hear them louder and louder as if the floors themselves were becoming thinner and thinner. I knew it was me creating this but it had gained too much momentum, Some aspect of me was too resistant to my wanting to change it. Vibrationaly, the neighbors were primed and ready for conflict: she's toward the end of a diabetic pregnancy, just took the pacifier away from her two year old so her days 4 times a week are doctor's appointments focused on why she should worry about her diet. Stress like that on top of pregnancy leaves her exhausted and then she's dealing with a son who is suddenly liberated from repressing everything which leaves alot more energy to express: less sleep and more active. All that stress and exhaustion is leading to eruptions in the marital relationship. They're primed to explode and I'm making myself a very good target.
     So, I'm holding space for Halloween, terrorized children and inner children, focusing love on that idea. It begins to get later and the nightly routine of "how do I deal with this?" begins to set in. I asked my "team" for help with this and immediately a song began to form. I could feel the sweetest, most innocent and loving energy filling me. I could sense a "bubble" forming made up of this energy to redirect the anxiety and thoughts surrounding this to. My inner most child-like aspect was at the root of this. It had been taught that to love was to be considerate of other people's comfort zones. So, to try to make it stop being sensitive to the effect the children's noises would make on the neighbors was telling it not to love and to not love is against it's nature. It had been ingrained with it's constant infringement on parental comfort zones, etc. It was a habit too ingrained for it to just stop and so we were creating a  "buffer zone" where the thoughts could get all the love needed to transmute them and the inner child-like aspect would be relieved of any pressure to change. OMG! The relief began to change it immediately and hours later as it changed, it revealed a "higher" aspect dwelling just below the collar bone on the right side above my breast that had always responded to anything new the inner child-like apsect learned by wanting to "sharpen it's teeth" on something: created an experience ot use whatever new coping method had been introduced and practiced. It's thoughts were redirected to the bubble as well. I realized through all this that these dynamics had ALOT to do with my relationships, especially amongst peers as I got bolder in expressing "my truth". I could begin with love but I would harden my heart during expression and end with love once it was expressed. This kept me kinda distant and unperceptive. Now I know I do not have to "turn off the love" nor force that child-like aspect to embody it. Everything will pass through that bubble of love, coming and going for as long as it is needed.
    Relationship style sign language: 1) when they speak of those they are most familiar/intimate with (parents, children, lover) they will look upward and maybe even raise a hand as if to heaven. Energetically they have placed the other "above" them. These are those that idealize others and those they 'love' are usually acting out at not being fully acknowledged or recognized. The devotion to that idealization is so strong, the unaware will wonder how the other could be acting out so "unreasonable", "un-appreciatively", "inexplicably". 2) These are those who energetically place those they are familiar with behind or below them. When they speak of them they are either pointing dramatically downward at their side and a bit behind or have a chest puffed out protectively. They ar either playing the hero or victim, depending on their needed perception at the moment because they are trying to convince another of their abilities and/or rights in the relationship or they are trying to get pity or some sort of assistance/attention. They decide what the other is supposed to be and do it so intensely others who are unaware that the one expressing 'protection' is being defensive due to insecurities about their effectiveness as parent/responsible or loving child/lover. They may not, therefore believe the other's perception of being controlled, neglected, betrayed, or abused. If the one expressing is playing victim in order to get attention, they are so intensely the victim their victim is perceived by the unaware as so ungrateful, unstable, or even crazy, unappreciative, neglectful, abusive. 3) This is the one who will speak well of the other in a relationship but when you speak well of the other they shrug the shoulders or turn or lift their head removing eye contact, maybe even adding that it's not important. They dismiss the other as soon as something "more interesting" is wanted and that is usually just someone they haven't found fault with yet. They dismiss anything unwanted until it's unavoidable and then they dismiss the person. So, to get into a relationship with any of the above, you can expect to be 1)idealized and neglected 2)"saved" and victimized or 3)easily dismissed. there is a fourth option, however: 4) this is the one who when he speaks of children, parents, past or present lover they hold them before them, spread their hands open and maintain eye contact easily as they speak of them, They know and appreciate every nuance of the person and that person's preferences. If a relationship didn't work out they'll be honest but not resentful about the other's dysfunction and know exactly what in themselves drew them to the other one without self-degradation. Number 4 is what I want. Won't settle for less. It is what I deliver and practice. That is how I know about number 4, it's how I express my relationships ;)