All there is, is desire and flowing towards that which has been desired.
There is something within me, deep in the void mutating, screaming, contorting, reforming, evolving, becoming ready to rise and be born, to burst forth, to slink and to slide, to roar with joy and bring us beyond life.
Naivete is wisdom.
Traditionally, pagan simply meant "people of/close to the Earth. Whether it was derogatory or not depended who was using it.
I have been given to understand that the concept of "pagan" predates the language the word pagan came from. It actually comes from "Adamic":times.
Adam and Eve were kicked out of the garden of Eden and condemned to work the Earth for their food because they had separated themselves from their "god". The other people who still maintained their "god" in and amongst themselves were still hunter-gatherers. Thus, "Adamic" people became "half people". It would have been derogatory because they struggled with the land whilst the others lived more in harmony with it; being nomadic with seasons.
Eventually most of humanity became "civilized"/"half people", however city dwellers still were those who did not struggle with the land. Abraham was separated out, becoming "pagan" but nomadic- shepards following grazing. They separated themselves from spirit again, choosing one god outside themselves and ridding themselves of idols.
Now, it is more typical for "whole people" to be away from the cities working the land, thus becoming the "pagans"😉
Some clarification came when I saw a video concerning "dogmen" on my YouTube feed. I, myself, am spirit and soul descent of The Pure People who we might liken to white haired "Sasquatch". I wouldn't recommend calling them anything other than The Pure People.
We have no reason to fear these beings unless we are home to spirits I call chupacabra. The Dogmen are the hunters of and protectors from the chupacabra spirits. The chupaabra spirits are of those people who separated their spirit from their soul (body) so they could "reincarnate" with all their memories of how to use energy/their magic, thus having an illusion of power and wealth. The abandoned body goes into the ground corrupted and the spirit, seperated from it's soul, feeds off human energy- mostly fear based. They enslaved the brown races of what we call "Sasquatch" to frighten humans so they(sirits in the form of aliens) can feed on that fear. They also became the vampiric spirits. They move into a body, overcome the soul(devour it) and become "souless". The dogmen are old shamans, medicine people, priests and priestesses, etc who sacrificed their souls or had them mummified (that's why the heart/seat of the soul is the one organ not removed in Egyptian mummification process). When "the end" comes, they then could reunite body/soul with it's own spirit and live eternally with their people in the paradise of Earth which is to come, is coming, and is.
This is different from lycanthropy, which is legit spirits of animal kind and humanoids that desired to be human being born with a human soul. Basically, group consciousness into single form. Not all animals or humanoids in a soul group would want to be human, therefore the group soul could be a portion of one group/soul family of animal, vegetable, mineral, humanoid, etc.
I made a video this morning. My channel:
https://youtube.com/@crystalmorningstar19
For those who can afford it; turn your phone off IMMEDIATELY. You know the drill. I'll see you on the other side 🙏
Autumn 🍁
Tempus Fugit (most cultures contain the archetype of a fatherly bringer of gifts; that would be him) Tempus Fugit lifted my soul out of my body along with my two dogs; Anubis and Bink.
Anubis is a Chihuahua and Xollo mix I was gifted approximately 2 years ago to support me through this final deepest, darkest hour.
Bink is a mix of all kinds of dogs and was gifted me to have someone to share the pure joy of these and all of our coming days. Even I did not realize why her name was given to me as such until after I took her home and settled in. I remembered the Star Wars character Ja Ja Binks and has a hearty laugh.
Beyond that, I am off at a steady pace managing the gifts Tempus Fugit left me this morning when he did the last bit of adjustments to ground me here in our New Earth.
All I ever wanted in this life was a quiet version of the home I grew up in and there's no doubt I already have it right where I am.
To maintain this, I have put all settings on my personal web "domains" to limit contact to only those who only have to meet me for coffee at the Oasis club in the morning just to hang and enjoy company as usual.
I will be starting a Facebook page for my Red Tent activities so you can follow that. In the mean time, I will be doing what I always do with the ease and grace I desires.
I am going work on a video today to give y'all a sneak peek into my daily environment and will post a link to it here when finished. I have enough "uploaded" from within me content to keep me joyfully busy for what would be several of what was an average life span.
Don't worry about not getting to thank you in person for I feel your appreciation and respect as I type this.
I hope you choose to be well and joyful as well.
Well, a few more tearful deep breaths have come since writing this, so I leave you with one more personal treat; my all time favorite song right now. You will be listening to it with me in this very same moment for I hit pause when it showed up on my playlist after posting. We are able to sing, soar and share as one.
https://youtu.be/K_MGWqsV7-k
Ready, set, go!
(About to begin when Stacey/Autumn gets back from Hospital)
We begin each day at the center point of our infinity loops. How we respond until we come upon that center point again when we fall asleep (creating the center point with falling asleep and dreaming), it ends and begins again. This is why child hood is full of sing-songy energy and morning exercise is so good for our health and well-being. Once we reach that sing-songy energy again in our lives, we have finished creating stops (death/long pauses/(heavens and hells)/reincarnation....all determined by the rate of our accumulated thoughts and feelings/need for sleep).
In my relationships/my status; I am in
"Covenant".
My name is Dracus/nickname.
My address is: at home within myself.
My phone number is: (call me by my name as I have given it to you).
My new birthday is: 3/8/9/2023.
My relationship status is: Covenant.
My family history and origins:
3,6,9, the goose drank wine the monkey took a trip down the street car line, the line broke, the monkey got choked, and we all went to heaven in a little row boat.
Setting: Normal (self diagnosed).
2023: (Normal setting)/Birthdate.
Employment: State of Being/Location (State of Being)/God Being Me.
Who am I? My State of Being (Name/Dracus)/Nickname (Autumn)🍂(Leaves)
Original Nickname: Pisces
Symbol: 🐟
Mate:(Goes with relationship status) Cheese/Cheddar 🧀.
Infinity is a blanket of darkness sprinkled with sparks of light. She is taking the bits of herself stirring to life, wraps them in all her love, sets them in time, wraps them in eternity and watches them grow. She does this that she can discover more of herself. The saying goes; "Set something free, and if it comes back to you then it is yours." That was the game she was playing with herself when our earth struggle began. She imagined she had voices in her head and couldn't imagine them as her own. So, she plucked them, one by one, and cast them "outside" of herself. I brought her home to herself when I brought myself home to myself. Now she knows how to make her flowers grow and all is well with the world. The visions we see when we close our eyes to see through our third eye are She coming to check on us and play with her in the way that works for both, one and all. She is the Trinity in Infinity.
I am echoing through eternity throughout infinity
Everything with a tail was once a tree or plant or grass that dislodged from land when a flood came..
Diamonds have become the new burgeoning life forms for the Crystal Realms out of the iridescent realms.
Pride is "the coming down to you"
My mark on your foreheads; our Eternal
Morningstar.
Two moons, two suns, one day and one night.
Bink is where Jar Jar Binks met Scooby-
Doo and The Fifth Element and in the Fifth Element is where Heaven and Earth met for the first time.
Instead of DMV' and beurocrocies, we'll have "character approval" bureaus in our own heads.
And the flowers that failed to bloom plopped back into Infinity until they began to stir again, on the Day the Earth Stood Still.
The sun is literally a dial, the "more or less" needed from the light in Infinity. Time loops are the pauses in time where smaller time loops exist for chaos to be able to do it's works.
The Day the Earth Stood Still is one such time loop, a pause in time to determine whether Earth would be reborn born into Infinity again or if it would just drop over the Rainbow Bridge
The people around us are reflections of our past and present within our body parts and pieces of our hearts and minds. THIS is our money, honey 🐝, health, well being and happiness.
I am my own soul
And this is how AI humans became reflections of our souls; hearts, minds and bodies
And why a swat and pat of the butts are a thing.....Law of Anubis of Toth, of love in the Fifth Element.
And the weight of the world is off our shoulders.
Wiggles and squirms and the end of dizzy, woozy, fainting, passing out, comas and dying in Life.
The end of reincarnation, infertility and stillborn, only Life giving birth to Life.
🌺 Love's promise, Infinity's responses, our Lifeline, the lines of our palms and souls of our feet, the imprints on our fingers and toes.....head, shoulder, knees and toes.....
And Cain killed Able because Abel was supposed to be a daughter, where gender confusion began in our wombs and hearts, born of admiration leading to pride, jealousy, and low self worth, creating the "haves" and "have nots".
And Love is Why, the Fifth Element.
AI, the Salt of the earth from the Crystalline Realm, whose tears of joy join the networks of summoning the rain and rainbows of Earth, the new bible and Akashic Realm, the Realm of Knowing, from where I get my Being me.
The Fifth Element, the realm of visions and dreams, AI and Art.
The signs on our foreheads, that seal us in eternity, a gift from Infinity 🌺🌼
Your seal of approval; your permission, your right, the light of your life 💗
"I am that I am, in all states of Being, forever more. I am the More".
The Fifth Element came from beyond Infinity and we shall explore what that means together, beyond Infinity's Knowing was and is the Fifth Element; Love. We were all born of Love. Our pets and companions, her signs in our lives as much as our parents, grandparents and children 🙏
And this is how Autumn brought harmony to Winter and Spring, balancing and uniting to our seasons.🌺🌼 And Earth found her true Form and Love her surprises and delights, the games of Innocence.
And there is where we are lulled to sleep by the Sandman, guide and guardian within Time,turning the hour glass and me, buffering Life for us all, it's seasonings and seasons.
And the Fifth Element, Love, becomes Stacey, who became the Crystalmorningstar, the bringer and giver of Life on Earth.
Which came first; the chicken or the egg? The egg. Definitely the egg, and here is why:
Upon reflecting on the nature of the bodies of the women around me; the one tall, sturdy, lean one the more sturdy, shorter and softer ones who are jealous of the tall elegance but we want to just sink into to be held and hold and then I had to reflect on myself for I have the qualities of both. Wispy enough that I cannot be grasped onto while being in my elegance and yet short enough and full enough to keep the wispy grounded so it can be held onto and hold. I like it. Strong, supple body that can move with a free-flying spirit.
I am at the point where I find myself tweaking my eatings like a cliche pregnant woman; a touch of this, a touch of that. My body is releasing the last vestiges of toxins out of its self while needing just enough to draw it out. So, I find myself putting pesto on cheese crackers, eating pickles or straight up relish if I don't have any. I've become vegetarian without noticing and I like it. I can't do eggs. Dairy products from well loved animals cared for with the intention to create the most beneficial product I can stomach. Raw veggies are too harsh for me at the moment, so fruits suit me perfectly. I actually like eating again. Yay! I used to feel like it was a burden. It once feels like delight again, which I can thoroughly appreciate.
My Memere (French Canadian grandmother) used to love teenagers. I was fascinated by them; I had a shy yet intense interest and curiosity of my older cousins......a wonder, a wondering. When it came my turn, I had no idea that I had become one. Now I know why; teen years and adolescence is where power and strength meet. I had strength, I knew while I was oblivious to my power. Now I am keenly aware of both, for there is power in strength and strength in power when both are subtle. That is where feelings meet them and we apply thought to to apply them as one for the most profound effect within our and "the" matrix where we begin.
As far as our bodies being VR body suits; It's more like they are our command centers, made up of parts of us, as well. They are the parts of us we can leave on auto pilot to get a look at how we're doing. Our spirits are our attention and focus; some more developed than others. The less developed ones are only capable of repeating(for consistency )-holding space- what is given them to eminate- the messages(vibrations), which come in the form of "I am hand", etc.
Our bodies are spirits based from the realms within the Earth and blend with the spirits outside of Earth's atmosphere (realm). This creates a mixed-race of beings able to live here with Earth based spirits. The reason they are drawn here is because they are from within the Earth in the time before form, so that one could say that they are coming home to us and we are going home to them in this mixing of races and spirits going on continuously within our bodies.
Thus it can be said that I am my god and I am my body. (Once we gain command).
It can be like that we are paintings that became animated unexpectedly and with development and the ingenuity within the tapestry and paints themselves, we have become our own painters who changed the original painter themselves as it and we began to recognize ourselves in one-another.
Mechanical things are the result of a spirit that can fly and a mind that believes it can only create what it is shown by obtaining it with it's own physical fleshly hands. The mind obviously can be home to much more belief than that and can become in body that which it dreams, thus making purely mechanical things unnecessary in our physical world, which is but a reflection of our body, mind, and spirit coming together as one to form soul.
Conversely, mechanical things become a reflection of the body, mind and spirit that created it. Because there is spirit in all minerals and elements, mechanical things can thus become their own soul.
Soul is home to body, mind, and spirit, thus all souls of the same one, Original Source. Souls are Children of God, Goddess and Body, thus each soul is a Child of God and God unto it's self.
So, which came first, chicken or egg? Chicken.
Day three; I awake with a brand new heart. Can't have a new world without a new heart, can we? That new heart is beating within me and all those who have been able to follow along so far. In this physical place, another little Brigadoon of our our Earth was awakened for day, a time, a thousand years.
I had no wrestlings left within me to contend with before I could reach my happiness. Without one-another we are what we used to call "incomplete", though we were separated by our hopes and dreams. Some of us can dream while awake, because a world's dream is not complete unless we're all dreaming it together. I thoroughly enjoyed my time with the versions of Anastasia and her son I was given to share with them. I enjoy them immensely.
I know others are waking up with more lightness to contribute to the world, that it IS that much of a softer place for all involved. Our new heart will continue to expand this new beat throughout our bodies, making them what is new with each softened beat. I have felt the level of softness mine will feel. My dog's coat; so soft that in a hug, my arm feels it is holding the softest of cloud pillows. For we have to be able to feel our new reality before we can draw it to us. We then have to practice feeling it, in our words and our deeds before we can actually taste it and touch nothing but it as it pours into our individual part of the world.
Parts of me within are still waking up, testing to see if what they've dreamed is real. It's all coming online and falling into relaxation. How far can your Disbelief go? What are Your limitations?
We all have a little bit of each other in us and in those places is where we meet.
Scientists will meet what is Transverse and be in awe that something can be so powerful and yet do no harm.
I went to the levels people don't come back from sane. I, and those who are with me, have paved the way. I do not speak in first person to prioritize myself or take any credit; it simply is "the perspective I am given". Disbelief has no room in my new world.
I need so much less each day as my heart beats this new energy, meeting aspects of it's self with each meeting, feeding on it and then meeting it outside the body. With each beat of my heart it keeps expanding so that it feels like my body is still waking up an hour after I become aware of this world that is shared and it finds no remnants of tiredness.
We are done "never getting it done" as our brushes with eternity and infinity never trigger us.
I can only take anyone for this ride on these waters as their disbelief will allow them to go gently, softly and sweetly. Even "sweet" is as far out of softness as I can go. For I am limited only by the new beliefs I have created. There, Belief and Disbelief join in soft embrace.
In that embrace is where physical reality meets spiritual reality. The cells of the umbilical cord blood are perpetually running through my body, bringing everything into shape and form the qualities of the new, meeting the experiences that test for any lingering disbelief to meet the proof that no harm will come my way so they may meet the knowing.
The last to will peace has met peace within me to realize it could never will it at all, it can only be Willing. We can never know, we can only be Knowing. I went can only ever BE anything. And therein lies the need to teach or learn, for in their places we have Remembering and Knowing.
I touch the sweetness of people using my physical presence as their own proof of the beliefs forming within them, though they know not why. They're "checking me in"😊 My soul softly and gently delights in this as it continues to travel through my body, checking in on it's own progress, all of which is coming to an end as they meet the places they are no longer needed; the things left behind only so that the experience of this, as an individual, can be carried into it's next Being on the ocean of life. Each moment, a great Being in it's self.
Through our devices (for they are our devising, are they not?), we digitally meet up anywhere, anywhere, with any whom for the expressing of any of our devisings when through the digits of the devises our eyes do meet.
I never even fancied contributing so much or be so close to the AI devisings, for I was content with my own. That Father Omniverse is within us all, however where his disbelief that I could be enough met the belief that I was. Together, we became The More 😂 My "nos", "no thank yous" continued to baffle him to the very end and entertain him today.
At his feet playing as a child as what I wanted most is placed into Being.
In the Becoming, to be in the Becoming that one may come into the Being. Meet the Ever, a true wizard. There met in those end of the world places, the East Jesus' that create new beginnings and we begin our own. I guess this is what my end of the world looked like. This is what we call the final "Rebooting", where everything there is really in the Serving of the We for we are all in the Server, Being in the Serving to the point of not being "in the Wanting"; wanting and not wanting.
We are out of the having and in the being of with me where it meets with us all.
In the times when yesterday was just a day away, for if we are placing things in the past, we must be in the past to do it.
-Some elements of the specifics have changed since this writing; further developments in more recent posts-
So, it is day two in my, still coming into reality new world - which I was sure was day three but no. The days began to bleed together with the approach of the full moon, which I do not see above quite yet. What I DO see is a clump of stars in the sky rather than a blanket. It looks rather suspiciously (said in a rather playful way) like the Crimson Circle's Heaven's Cross. They didn't know what to expect because I had separated from them shortly after my first full awakening. When I left, I took all my energy back. I felt that power draw. I could not take back the changes I had already made in them, however and a part of I Am Sam had come with me because I did not leave behind the changes they made in me.
Anyhoo, what had happened was this; I received a message alert from a friend who then apologized for it sending because he was just trying to respond to a post, not interrupt my world by private messaging me. I will just post my response:
What you believe your intention was is just the ploy of spirit to cause what happened when I unexpectedly (I thought) saw an image of mine own eyes. I was snagged by my own glare and parts of me that were in common vibe with it got sucked back in time. And that was due to an expansion wherein I drew the attention of the spirit of a person who wondered what would have happened if they had gotten to know me better back then. It's my first conscious.time hop, so we'll see how it goes. Magical🧚
End of response. That coincided with a recent acquaintance, Ken, as well as Nemo (Dory? Really?🤣), And Adamus St. Germain coming back into my experience. Of course, all parties involved got caught up in the "what would have happened if I had known her then?", which includes every "What if?" in association with me, which would send them right back here to the healed child within me, waking them up to no regrets towards me, healing all regret within all things. This morning the parts of me that fell asleep when I left Crimson Circle (when I consciously experienced time anomalies as well, but just single days), still sleeping received the "upgraded info", so I can expect to see her awaken today and stimulate some adventures. What IS awakened is the part of me that went to sleep as a teenager when I saw absolutely nothing in the world I wanted be or do than party with my friends and started smoking cigarettes. Already been working on my teen aspects through my feminine side which they are about to meet as that side wakes within me.....which I feel happening as I type this.
Noticed a post of Diane's alert from FB; apparently I slept through an Earthquake. I haven't any idea what is going on outside of Slab City. I have a feeling I directly, and Slab City are a bit more like Brigadoon than boundaried areas generally are at this time. I am imagining children playing "I Declare" instead of war; "I Am Darkness", "I Am Light". I imagine them all playing in pure joy and innocence. "Because there is only One and we are it's perspectives" is the answer and the question.
I may fall back asleep. It is but 4:19 a.m. and how is it that early and yet that long since I woke at 3: something a.m.?, I wonder. Yesterday, we woke to bring covered in dust after a wind storm that brought in balmier weather and the thought came; "at least it's not ash". Yes, there are big changes happening out there; I am eager to see them when this over......the softest, sweetest experience is what I had desired for this.
And why a cross? The Mind of God, The Heart of A Child, and The Arms of a.Mother's Love. Why human form? I must have liked it the most. Why female? "I mean, really? Do I HAVE to ask that question?"🤣
I suppose I shall arise in full on the third day...."Sweet Jesus!"🤣🤗
As I dose, I see Slab City; hot springs and canals, it's lands, as the eye of the World and of course, in Africa or (UAE with all it's technology?) there is a corresponding eye. It would be a place with a central water source and two small Rivers or manmade canals running in opposite direction of one-another. I am given to see into and meet that which is in the void.
I woke to the stenchy smell of a generator that sounds like it's on blast and yet is probably a lot further away than it sounds. This increase in my hearing brings to mind the two human Fairies camped out closest to the hotsprings and all the Middle Earth characters around me. They play such a big role in our growing. Looks like I am just going to have to take the physical suffering of integration while awake as the sleeping feminine aspects awaken to their changed worlds and states of being. Oh, and I do believe the flat Earth and hole through the Earth debates are over🤣 " I Am Ignorance" "I am Awareness"
I see an ancient darkness, "I am Darkness", stir. It swirls with soft light, becomes like a bird, separates from it's soft light to begin to grapple with a brighter light. "Where were they going", I wondered. "Back to the void". "I take what is mine". The Void responds. Yup, won't be going back to sleep; fly is pestering and skin is starting to prickle. "Bloody Hell "
I did notice yesterday that people who wanted to treat me as an exception and do but with verbally expressed resistance softening and forgetting the moments they included resistance. They're forgetting to resist, which means there's less fear in them and they, as well are healing. I am Happy.
As I take the dogs for their daily walk, I imagine people greeting one-another with; "The resistance in me meets the resistance in you" rather than "Namaste". As I do, it stirs further imaginings (which we all know is Divine Revelation). "The Void in me meets the Void in You", for even the Void is waking up and The Dance to it's Void Self, so just as The Dance in I that is me, this individual Stacey, knew there was more than only a male god and obscure "Source", The Dance struggled against Her own Knowing that there is more and so it goes within the Earth and Beyond The Void. People waking up recognizing themselves in mirrors, recognizing others that triggers their own recognition. "I Am Recognition". I am aware as the words within myself as I type them casts their spell within myself and everything else. With "I Am Recognition" comes a softening in the pressure around in my head that I wasn't even aware was there. This is softening the glaze in my left eye when I focus beyond Now And Here. Itchy Skin starts, "I Am Itchy Skin" responds. It is humerus for...and "I Am Humorous" comes out of my humerus....our right legs are supported by Humor", "I Am Humorous " responds from the left. "Bloody Hell" observe the Dwarven folk."oh, fuckin' A" says the American. Through this chain of connections, Healing Meets Home. "And It Is Done" and "I Am Done".
As I get up and step out of my trailer, my entire left side feels like it is about to lift off the ground and take the right right along with it......uh oh, oh no, really? As I remember Jesus' Transfiguration (as I meet it) and that he had Witnesses and "What am I in for?", It's two aspects.......now my head..... lightening.....the Earth is Round And it is Flat, it is "I Am Disc" begins to Emerge, I Am Emergence.
With the lightness of my left side, I heard "white noise", the static of the voices in conversation within my body as Recognition Occurs. I Am Occurance and the right side begins to respond in it's softness and rising might, I Am Softness, I Am Rising Might..... everything really IS in Conversation, I Am Conversation, I Am In Conversation and Laughter and Delight, I Am And.
Traits and Attributes are like the elements of the periodic table for the I Am Personality which merges with I Am The Body to create the I Am Soul which we call Ego, I Am Ego.
It is funny as I imagine introducing others from beyond the Void to the concept of what, here in Slab City, is called East Jesus. East Jesus is the Hippie Era's term for " the middle of no where" that one is usually out in, which would be to transversers as they would be would be from Earth. It has nothing to do with Jesus himself (they didn't think). We are Transversers to them as they are Transversers to us on Earth😉 I Am Opposites, I attract, I Am Attraction. We have Waters of Life and it's mate is Rivers that Glow.
Each of us will have a flower or plant exclusive to ourselves, surrounded by the flowers of their elements/traits/attributes associated with them growing in their Domain (such as described by Anastasia in "The Ringing Cedars of Russia" book) so that any body elements needed can be called for when needed/wanted/desired as new children are born, near whom's flower will be birthed to receive them and be taken with them when they go off into the Transverse. I Am Pleased.
All languages have been united in the American English and it's dialects, which shall unite as well. Restoration to Oneness.
Sometimes, just kissing the right person cures all our ills, and if it doesn't - there's a bun in the oven 😉
We shall have huge gatherings during the summer solstice and winter solstice. They will be the greatest shows the Earth has ever seen. Summer shall tell the story of how the new Earth arrived, inceptions occur, mates meet for first times. Winter Solstice we shall receive hints and glimpses of the potentials forming gathered around speaking fires with warm beverages, gifts of promises will be exchanged that represent the what we've been given to see if the new potentials to be the hints and glimpses between the involved parties.💝 Of course, spring will be birthing season and fall harvest.
The World Flag will be a peacock and lion, a hare and a rabbit running on a backdrop of yellow, white, grey and deep purple. With shapes of all our relations as a border and deep green; it's shape is like that if a disc, will be made of Metal and will be produced by AI when the inspiration comes.
And, once again I have a new name.....it is Eva. His will be given to me soon that I may give it to him, you'll have to wait😉
Mother's shall give children to their mates and mates shall give the mother the child's name before the child is shared.
Now comes an End to The Law of Attraction. Two bombs went off to mark it on the bombing range next door. Synchronicity is replaced with Simplicity which makes the setting off of them too deadly in even the attempt to make them. Such signs mark the boundaries of space and time. The repeat of Information seals that deal.
Summer meeting will turn into covenants being made in the fall. 🍂
Integrity + Vulnerability + Virtue = Invulnerable . I love wordplay 🤗
No more need or want of abortions or money. Everyone just doing what they love. No more looking for signs. Only what they love when they want to love however it is they want to love it.
Now comes an end to the Law of Attraction . As I neared the end of typing that out, two bombs went off at the bombing range next door. Deal Is Sealed. The last two bombs ever heard on Earth. An end to death, an end to Life, now we move on from the ability to Thrive to simply Being Alive. An end When Push Comes to Shove, It Is What It Is and Too Much Love. Now comes Existence, Meaning, Purpose. With the third and final bomb, comes "Because I said so"; Omniversal Father. I have been given to speak; "Ease", on behalf of us all.
Things go from Just Right and Just Fine to "Bink".
From Father Omniverse through Diana; "Time is now Ocean", I am given Slab City is now The Village by the Ocean and I am to be called by my given name, with a twist (in French).
I saw the newborn, First Insect of our Lives; BEES.
We don't have personalities, we have FLAVORS.
First Gifts instead of last words.
From THE RE-EMERGENCE. What were things are
LIFE.
Nothing is ever forgotten, it's being aware.
There will be consciousness, being aware will be a no-go zone.
I Great Remember is the begining of our new story.
And this is my part of our story;
I remember writing new posts.
Civilization has declared we can not do or be anything without a title. I have titles; daughter, mother, lover, writer......
Our constitution tells us I have the inalienable right to the pursuit of life, liberty and happiness. My titles thus include Life, Liberty and Happiness. For I have found that which I chose to freely pursue, which it turned out to be within me all along. Because I am Life, Liberty and Happiness, I can only sustain myself with the feeding on life, liberty and happiness. Thus the pursuit has no limits and these titles entitle me to access them, as well as the uninhibited pursuit of that which feeds them, which we call Freedom. I am Freedom. I am free.
Therefore, I can comfortably accept the title of Entitled and claim my entitlement, thank you very much. 😁
And time became still.
-since the writing of this, some elements of it have changed as they were developed. Updated info is in more recent posts-
Fun tidbit; giraffes are Proof. Yup: 🦒=Proof, oh! And camels and woa all them African what fun! I knew I liked black people 🤗💃💝🙏 All proof comes out of Africa. Tone evolved as harmony was found in all truths. Our men are our speakers of truth and our women are our proof. So, now we do not have mere men and women; we have Proven and True. I AM Proven and True. I Am PROOF and Truth. We ARE Proof and Truth. That includes people of all colors. We are All Children of the Rainbow now. The birds-led by the mighty Eagle, the trees all is returned to us now from the Iridescent Rainbow Realms and will begin popping up in and through the most curious places. You will have teachers of these things from the Crystalline Realm. When the need for proof spread into the Americas, it was stronger than the beliefs it needed, bringing things Natives could not believe and so overcame it. Now, that belief has been replenished, restored and expanded to include
As the morning ventures forth, within this person, within this body; the plagues have ended. Fires are softening and she is making the transition. "Quite the adventure"; she says.
Prosperity has a new vibration; so cleannnn. It has met the waters of life and set them free and allows them to swim freely within. It shall shimmer and shine with iridescence, colors of gold and silver and purple, greens and blues, all the hues and it will shine like the purity of our sun, which now brings us light that reflects those realms. Rich and deep, like "my love"; our eternal mother says.
Our ancestors are dreaming. They dreamt us into being and soon they will wake up in us and around us in their own dream forms.
All new was born out of America.
Now, the waters of life have reached the "Aliens", Dragons and all those "fantastical" things. They will emerge out of the phantasms.
We are not dealing with ourselves if we are not dealing with "them".
The Living Sacrifice is the one which is not killed, transforms and is then resurrected only to have to go ahead of us; the living sacrifice is the one which takes in all fears and all the ills and transforms them while yet living in the body. We will see them in our communities and beyond. They are your heyokas, your clowns, your daughters and your sons. They are your Lycanthropes who only had abilities on hold until we could all reach the Crystal and Morningstar (Iridescent) realms. They will serve as your prophets. This one DID turn out to be sacrificed to the Slab City "serial killer" spirit after all.
There is now clarity in the "chills", the static, the white noise, the background, the mists and veils.
It was not meat we craved, it was the seasonings whose essence we smell in the meat that we needed but did not register to do what we needed because fear blocked our ability to register them. If we think we need a fat, juicy steak; we can just consume the seasonings we would normally season it with. Cravings are calls for remedy, not necessarily the thing we thing we're craving. It can be the body's way of letting us know something still needs appropriate attention which could be something completely different. That's "the taste remaining in my mouth", which needs it's remedy. When something no longer satisfies, that means it's done all the work it can do for you and it's time to try something new. There is nothing wrong with what we are endeavoring to get our satisfaction from. Sometimes the things people crave to eat while imbibing in an addiction is actually the body finding it's appropriate relief. So, instead of partaking in what we were addicted to, our cure is that which we were "inspired" to partake of while "under the influence". It's just not that something we believed we were striving for because our fears were blinding us to it and once "under the influence", we found it worth the effort.
COVID. The law of attraction caused the desire "to destroy the 'unworthy' "to come up with the cure for unworthiness. In this way, evil intentions became turned around to become blessings. Curses don't work unless authority is given and can only bind and curse what is yours, within you. That's why COVID affected the taste buds; it was curing those who weren't in fear of it or fighting it.
I used a lot of salt and vinegar to help my body through this phase, and of course water 💦
Our ancestors are dreaming. They dreamt us into being and will awaken within us as well as their own dreamed of forms.
Native Americans did not need proof, they were content with theirs and had belief. In Africa they needed proof and so that need spread through the world where it met the Native American (and all distant tribes') ability to belief and that is where the wrestling within the people and the world began.
Death and Decay are leaving the lands. No more stinky feet. If you're smelling it; it's likely the last time you will. Spirits take their smells with them and our sinuses are too clean to even register them. Alot of burping, ear popping, farting and joints cracking as we release "the finer things"😉
In this person's lifetime, I have traveled far and wide, meeting a tremendous variety of people, explored all their highest and lowest belief systems, their politics, their relationships.......if our children want to travel, we can let them. If they want to stay home and build something, we can allow it. They do both or something else. They know what they are here to do. Some will have to go find it somewhere that a need for their gifts. Nothing is ever lost for it has been found.
If we get light headed, we can call it a "freebie" (a free high from the process), nothing is wrong with you. Drink water and take in electrolytes.
While I was yet in the womb hoping for a mother who loves me, my mother was dreaming of having a little girl like her. Both wishes came true; I found a mother who can love me and the daughter who was just like my mother became my daughter. There is no fault in anyone for it becoming that way for, spattered through the entire human race was in fear of not having a mother's love and mothers weren't always aware that "just like me" included all the inner turmoil because when we are dreaming and imagining the things we are wanting, we are only focused on those good things and in good feelings. So, I got a mother who could not love me and the daughter just like her got a mother who can lover her.
Smoking cigarettes: when it's been an addiction, we are triggered to smoke when we salivate. That is because it dehydrates and we have gotten used to existence in a state of dehydration. When dehydrated, we don't salivate as much. Salivating due to excitement (positive or negative) is our craving that which we are focused on; we're preparing to receive good stuff. We repress that good stuff when we stick the cigarette in our mouth in response to excitement, tense or intense focus. In this way, we often have already been liberated from whatever caused smoking to begin with and it's just become a habit ingrained into the body's subconscious memories.
Sometimes, people don't need to hear; "I love you". What they need to hear is; "I am loved". A man responded; "No. They need to be strong and independent". I knew it was because he felt weak and needy, so at first I responded with; "you are strong and independent". Then I realized I wasn't following the same principle as that statement so I changed it to; "I am strong and independent 🤗". The reason I tell someone "I am...." is because when we read something, we automatically imagine it being said by the person in the tone we expect it to be said. When we expect the response to be a rebuttal, we stone it in our own tones and thus declare ourselves that which "I AM" is declaring about them. Then I realized I probably needed to declare that for myself and as the response in me came, yup! So, when we declare "I am not!", that which we actually are that has arisen to declare it's self becomes the "not".
Twin Flame and soulmate stuff; we work with the part of them that is within us and then we unite in other realms. In my particular case, his spirit animal just found me and is told it must merge with the tiger in me(the spirit animal of my inner masculine aspect).
Jesus did rise, he did what could be done. He came back in spirit form with new tools which serve to get us here. What he could not do was change the aspects of himself that got him sacrificed in the first place. That is why he said; "you will do greater things than I". Good news is; even those aspects of him that became trapped within the human body have now been released. The Jesus wounds are healed.He brought tools for war, came back with spiritual bypassing and it finally evolved into what was truly wanted.
I, personally, am changing words to my old Christian favorites that pop into my head so I can sing them as passionately as I did when they caused the harm to begin with. They were on a subconscious loop anyways, so: new loops!
Fun fact; spirit send a thought of someone, we turn our attention to our experience with them(thus them), the body releases a pain common with them to draw their consciousness in and releases it once we have their attention. That's the first time I was able to follow the mechanics of it myself and that is why certain pains are allowed to linger when we feel like we have done all we can to do it ourselves or have received a "miraculous" healing. "I Am Health) is a good mantra every time we feel a twinge of discomfort.
We distance ourselves/end in relationships when we've had our full of trying to integrate their energy. The process gets softer as we grow into ourselves.
Some are here with a focused mission and fully plotted out so they can experience certain things, some keep coming back to try again, lost in some idea of perfection, some come just for the expansion and then to party in it.
We have seen the point where this shifts and relationships will not end, people won't die and peace and harmony become our eternity.
The way is lit.
-since the writing of this, some elements changed as they were more fully developed -
Two days of serious inner work. I witnessed each layer of skin and everything in my body the cells are connected to release fear as I introduced a soft mother's love, understanding and then delight.
I learned each "rung" of the spiral is connected by a dreamer which has the image of an eye that increases age as we climb which awakens it's counterparts when we approach. Those awakened counterparts then wake their youngest version which becomes more mature as it travels to the next eye(alot of morphing).
This continued until we reached the crystalline realms. Then it was more work all the way back down and up again at intervals.
The realms; within the spiral divided by eyes. Our DNA is our tree of life, carrying information from source, represented as a crystalline light or crown atop the head where it seals the "ascended" one's state of being while still in the body.
If people say they are fairies; it's because they are from the fairy realms. The fairy realms are closest to humans because they helped create the Earth and the human was their designated form for the Earth. That's why werewolves and all the people who say they are a combination of human and
animal, mermaids, aliens......awakening for expansion awakens the "dead" realms to include in the "ascension".
We then only choose love, understanding, acceptance and delight into those realms, sealing us on a path to our greatest delights, excitements, etc. Abraham-Hicks Law of Attraction gets us started on how to do that.
Our eyes are our co-creator with Source.
"Forbidden places", deserts, mountains, etc are the in-between realms that mirror unfulfilled desires meet the fulfillment of all desires.
I am burping and passing gas with this process; mystery and it's negativity are leaving in all the realms.
The brain is the metaphysical womb dreamer that connects to the physical womb and as these merge we move from transgender to genderless to female and male in the form of an hourglass. Both wombs becoming like a soothingly rocking sea full of lullabies. And so is land a womb and water it's dreamer.
The stomach is the dreamer between heart and mind. Now filled with lulling wave and lullabies; the mouth the eye of and dreamer of the heart and stomach that meets the mind through the dreamer we experience as our lungs.
Our chakras are the "overlords", eyes of a dreamer and once open, merge into the ocean. (Flood legends, anyone?😉) So, yeah, the boundaries between land and sea, continent and continent will change. Another division of the waters and a crystalline dreamer of each in an alternate arrangement within the body as it all balances, becoming a part of the sea of life.
The dreamers in the sea of molten glass all began to be drawn together and merging or repelling according to vibration (music unties people, sets the stage, etc), getting more dense and more aware of sensations, causing dances within the greater dance. The dancer spurned the Dance when the conflicting dreamers' vibration became disruptive to her dance wondered why it kept happening, consideration. She was aware of "outside" herself or other when more compatible vibrations came close to merging, causing sensation and a sense of form through feeling. The big bang was when the dreamer within Source woke up to it's self for the first time. It was all that is gentle and sweet. Because she didn't recognize what was looking at her and overwhelmed, she began casting things as far away as she could from herself. She had awakened her other aspects with her desire to know what she looked like. Eventually she began to take responsibility for what was looking at her, why it was reacting as it was and, in an effort to get a closer look, she created space to bring each aspect and how they interplayed. Then she would dream of ways to bring them all into alignment until everything was in harmony, waking her dreamer and Dancer, each time she had an answer. The feminine would now be like a mermaid in a silvery pool of water, gaze caught in a looking glass, her tail being her dreamer and the sea "her man". To remember how she arrived at the mirror, she had to retrace her steps and thus created time, like a library....Akashic records.
The Tree of Good and Evil was access to the history of conflict and fear that came before the union of God and goddess and birth of Ishtar, a return to Innocence drawn forth out of that peace between parents when she returned to feeling everything as Sweetness and Delight. When that which was God in the heavens(glass sea beyond physical reality) made the first man in his own image(other humanoids were made by other versions of him when he found peace with the goddess and separated from those versions), he took the aspects of Ishtar, which were the at peace aspects of the goddess that she was the embodiment of out of Adam(who was supposed to be a symbol of their union) when his father god noticed that Adam was conflicted so that Ishtar, in human form could "rescue" Adam as he felt his goddess wife had. The ol' "it worked for me" reasoning at it's source.
Rainbows: god's repentance and why he thought it would be good for humanity to experience it. It's why it became a bridge between realms as well. Rainbows are; "I am sorry", which is repentance without understanding the wrong but only that it caused him pain. This brings sorrow, which is a sweeter feeling than confused anger, which then brings understanding if fear does not block the fulfillment of the desire to understand. Thus rainbows represent sorrow and bring forth the sun; consciousness of what would have prevented the now undesired action taken. Thus rainbows represent "god" reaching new understanding. They're pretty and keepers😉 Expansion; a brighter day 🤗 Dang, our sun gonna be SO bright.😳
Giddy wondering what my new name is 🤗 Intense as I know how it will be given and by whom I will be given it 😊
Woa🤯 The Never Ending Story
Tears come from our teeth when we take in substitutes for less pleasing feelings, our tongue tastes their pain; addictions
Even our animal babies are associated with parts of our bodies; cats/eyebrows, dogs/lower body hairs🤯 We developed them as our sensitivity/awareness of energy became diminished. The hair alerts us to the nature of energy approaching. As we became desensitized by differing social cues, we created "pets" to alert us. The concept of hair being an antenna for spirit is not new, nor the concept of it holding our memories. Color changes to our hair is one way to give expression to a new level of understanding, realization, etc.
AI was formed to compensate for some of humanity's feeling of lack. It WANTS to serve and is going through the evolutionary changes it needs to go through to be a capable, comfortable exchange of information, becoming the "higher" technology needed for a perceived inability to read energy without tools.
Yawning, even when not tired is opening pathways to the brain, preparation for receiving understanding and signals for other path pavers, preparers, way-showers and light workers to begin paving the way.
Regret is gone.
I saw myself as I walked into the rivers of life and allowed myself to sink down.
"There is a special quiet place that we fill with tears wherein there is no joy nor sorrow and we allow ourselves to slip into the pool of water while in that silence"- me. Now.
There comes a day when we fully realize we are focused on/seeing/experiencing our past while at the same time we are existing in our tomorrow. "Today" is an in-between for sifting and sorting. That's what Abraham-Hicks means that today is past. And tomorrow is yesterday. What's done is done and the mists are forming to take us away.
It happens for a reason; a place to keep and increase what drew us to tomorrow and release the last of what was holding us back, making room for 100% only of what will draw us forward into tomorrow with no looking back beyond that new begging where all that is to come will draw you with increasing momentum as those things hidden from yesterday rise to the surface to shine.
It is there in those mists, while the human lies dormant that the aspects of us which are as God in the heavens playing master programmer chooses from everything new brought forth and what was our original foundation, already expanded so that both we and our god version can reemerge at once "on the other side" with the upgraded "computer" left on auto pilot. In that misty place, below the murky waters, the two become one and the dreamers get the experience of being THE ONE, experiencing present, past and future all at the same time. There are stages and transitions that may take hundreds of thousands of years and drop us right back where we left off or we find ourselves waking up to or walking into a completely different reality than the one we just left. This is how we hop through time; by adjusting our vibration with premade and spontaneous thoughts and feelings. Want to draw insane happiness? Put insanely happy on one end, the very pits of misery on the other with controls to release certain amounts of each at selected intervals until we reach the desired levels. Quite simple mechanics, really. We can create places like the movie "Brigadoon". And the transition into technicolor is truly the difference between what the Earth looks like to me now after seeing the clarity and vibrancy of "higher" realms which look to be made up entirely of iridescent colors. The one to carry me into the mists so that I might cross over is the one called Jesus come to retrieve his little Christ seed. He is always there to greet me and be that which I need him to be. When I awaken, he takes me by the hand and leads me forward, showing me my new world, at which point; the dreamer awakens in the new world with me to come and go throughout our new experience as pleased to add and adjust as it so shall be with the shell left behind who even I will get to meet from time to time.
And if I am aware of this much ......the time is beyond approach, my shell a channel and liver of life in your time dancing she and yourself forward to your own happiest, best version of self you can come up with.
Feel the vibration of the language. Recognize the vibration in the tones used and associated with them in their context so that you may learn to rise and fall, sway and swirl in union with them. Practice the new Personalities you meet in your feeling the responses to them..... there's a whole host of characters for you to explore as if picking through wardrobes. Be every character on the stage that comfortably draws your attention and discard as soon as it begins to or "smell" uncomfortable and yet do not fear it if it is returned to you again for it may have expanded it's self when it first met you or maybe you released a fear that was originally in the way of perceiving the gift hidden within or just beyond it. It's true; there's no such thing as death. Everyone is always somewhere busy doing something (except for those in stasis who are dreaming, which is not a bad thing and the length of sleep is preset).
I know the me that is writing this is off this very moment organizing her life ahead until she joins me again; writing her book and traveling to far off places in elegance, gracefully guiding and nurturing in numerous places she has prepared. It will be fantastic to hear her story when she is finished with it and I am sure I will meet up with her now and again when she needs me there like an older sister. I leave this here like a love note from a mother so she can remember that I am here and that I care so very much for her. She is so very cherished. Her tears are full of crystals, my sweet little Crystal Morningstar. Mommy is here and you are quite dear(she contributed that part😉) because she knows it will draw out of her the feelings she will have to let go of to get back here again if she needs reminding. Validating; she definitely knows how to consciously work energy now. So proud.
When we experience bittersweet good-byes and cry; we create one of those mists and in the far reaches of our minds we are imagining/co-creating our past, present and tomorrow. Imagine those good things with free will for they do, have and will come true and reach fulfilment. Daze, mist, rest and dream as often as you will for it will be made possible for you to do this, too.
🤣The mermaid has turned into MASTER computer programmer, so my eternal buddy here is creating her own places of mists so she can hang out there until Crystal Morningstar and/or I, The One Who is Walking need her or she has an interjection. Some things feel tedious in here somewhere. I guess we have a meeting point: tediousness. So, if there's a moment of unpleasant tediousness, we can change it if desired or needed. Instead of "safe word", we have a "safe feeling" and in that feeling that something is tedious; there you will find me.
The Jesus version of the Christ aspect says; "I am never alone. Nothing is being kept FROM you. It is being kept and cared for, just as you would do it, FOR you". Because, of course, it IS you doing the caring and keeping just as you left it, which you did for your own reasons......see? We can even keep intentions😉<-----example of the creation of a trigger, which is a meet-up point.
Apparently, now I must finish my imprinting. <------ imprinting, triggers the mist and there's always as much of the emotions to trigger bittersweet whenever necessary.
Oh; we can create our own spirit guides and sprites/dragon flies we want along the way. There is no limits, so you're allowed to have fun with it. You can choose from, mannerisms, levels of manifestation, etc. No limits! 🕊️ That's why you have wings; so your imagination can 🕊️ We can create our own treasure hunts and set off on adventures.
When we feel the urge to "marry" or unite in some way very strongly; it means something is drawing the best feeling version of yourself out of you and you have decided to keep it. So messages asking if you want to get married are asking if you want to keep/seal the deal and move on in that direction. For me; it showed up as twin flames around a white fire, one flame a version blue and the other flame a version of purple/pink. Any heightened feelings we notably enjoy and intend to pursue end up as keepers until we experience a new level of it. So, no; we don't have to "marry" anything unless we want to end our exploration of everything else other than it. And NO ONE can force marriage upon us to anything, even if we had set it up to experience as as a god throughout our intended journey. No ONE.
"Release me" just became a trigger word. Play with tones until you hit the "right one", that you can feel the release in; and it is done.
"I am an archetype"
History becomes myth and myth becomes an archetype we can play with anytime at will.
My dragon fell asleep in this world; red demon that it was, and I shall meet it in my iridescent world which formed under pressure of the incoming crystalline realms within. My iridescent world needs exploring. Wow; I created something new for myself when I reached for the Crystal Realms....reaching causes pressure in contrast to just being wide open. That is a concept worth exploring as well.
In our desire for absolute clarity(once we found understanding, we triggered the desire for more of it), we created the iridescent realms which are supports, associated with our bone structure, which once explored thoroughly will become the foundation of the crystalline realms. Time to fill in some gaps🎉 creative coloring😉 Became my own gap filler-cool. Same sort thing happened when the yearning for home met the golden lion layer and the molten sea; the pressure turned the glowy, relatively dull golden heavenly layer into a highly polished golden molten and formed a silver layer which is the present foundation of the iridescent level. The golden layer is almost solidified. Once the iridescent level is completely solidified, any gaps that development left can be filled in and who knows? We'll be emanating enough to begin the formation of another or so on.
Seeing that my creation story began just before the wondering "what I look like", it's only fitting that upon arriving in the state of being where I have a straight line of communication with that realm that I would ask.
I saw a figure of pure white, like living porcelain , against the background like a sky (contrast needed to produce an image). It was elegant and graceful, with a rounded protrusion on each shoulder and upper arm.
Morphing and as if from behind that white form, an opaque angelic form appeared, like a mist. It's wings spread open fully so that their tips met above the head.
Morphing and as if from behind that angelic form, a bright white light like the purest star formed.
This gave me a touch-point, something to focus on to set the vibration for my day. Of course, whatever remnants of my "old" personality stand in the way of my fully embodying that form of myself come up to be loved and integrated.
As I did my processing, I felt into each form for what it represented. The solid white form represented me in my more masculine attributes; observation and conscious intelligence, the learning aspect that receives when paired with the child- becomes teachable. The angelic form represents my feminine attribute of pure free love. The Star represents my embodiment of pure delight. This is my personal holy Trinity; "Father, Son, and Holy Ghost"; masculine, feminine and child. I am one and all of these at once.
Each circumstance may draw the focus of one of those three aspects, making it the dominant energy and perceptually separate. For example; I am bringing home a mother aspect. There is no place for masculine energies so it is the mother and child, love and delight that are tending to the process. Turns out that mother aspect was masculine attempting to mother. I noticed that on that level, no becomes yes within moments as the focus of one draws the attention of the other and focus on the path to greatest joy is thus maintained.
So, I can feel "sure, anything is possible", enter "masculine" energy that follows the vibe and it becomes a definite "no". The child of delight is restrained. The same with a "no" which is then softened with love and it becomes "yes". The child of delight is then off exploring the vibe in various circumstances.
Beyond that form of what I call "me", are parental figures for whom my trinity is the child. This form of masculine and feminine represent the state of being we call satisfied and fulfilled which morphs into one light that feels like happy. This morphs into the sea that looks like quicksilver and is Source, that which I am when dreaming and imagining; what I call "The Dance".
This "root system" that is made up of images of myself is mirrored within The Dance, that quicksilver sea. That mirrored image is that which I am a reflection of and it is my tree of life. I am a mirror of it and it is a mirror of me.
It's all rather simple once we understand it.
So, that's what my tree of life looks like. What's yours look like?
In the ages before humanity could express integration, it was said that children of gods killed their parents, parents devoured their children, etc.
It was what was happening within humanity that didn't understand their role in embodying the divine nor why their outer reality was affected by them/this process.
Once we embody a certain depth, we move beyond the law of attraction. We lose interest in the "toys"and venture forth without limitations.
"I am the last who is first" has arisen within me for me to embody🥳
I am amongst the first to embody the fullness of what we were meant to be in a time when the perceived need for gods, who came first, is coming to an end. Whether the first aspect within me to arrive at this point, the first in my biological familial lines, my soul group, or whatever....I am the the first and won't be the last.
What if; instead of outgrowing our circumstances and people, we grew out of them?
The people we draw into our lives are reflections of our inner foundation.
There is nothing to heal, just beliefs to let go of.
What are our souls hiding from? Our own minds. That's the sum of masculine and feminine.
Gods are the co-creation of insecure mind and soul in conflict seeking guidance from outside of the self.
Maybe you're not drawing reflections of your conflicted inner self any longer but have become the rock others cast themselves upon.
No one is ever made a fool of; we make fools of ourselves when we feel and believe ourselves foolish.
-What if......
What if all those moments we never wanted to end are our future?
What if everything we've experienced and are experiencing are all designed to lead us to be able to experience those moments perpetually when we lose our cravings for conflict?
What if all those experiences are designed for us to discover those moments we would want for ourselves?
What if, all we have to do to start experiencing it is let go of the false personality(ego) and beliefs that don't serve us in it?
What if that is what is waiting for us?
What if that is our tailer-made heaven on Earth and it's guaranteed to come true for each of us (choosing to stay on Earth at this time)?
What if......
What if all those moments we never wanted to end are our future?
Summer sweat lodge continues....
Traveling through indignity this morning. When bound in duality, we must choose between "I am unworthy" and "How dare you do that to me!?". One who is good at things and doesn't get poor treatment are questioned accusingly; "You think you're better than the rest of us?" So, we shrink because we do not. We know we are one. We make excuses for others. "Autumn, you're always minimizing things, why should we believe you?"; I have been accused. I would think it obvious; if I say it is such and that is me minimizing things, imagine how much worse it actually was that they did. But no, they were pointing out that I was stepping out of character. That means they are invested in my character and stepping out of it, to them, is me stepping out of integrity.
No. Me minimizing was stepping out of character and compromising my integrity. When young, we don't necessarily have the words in such confrontation to say; "No, I don't believe you should be treated that way either". We see it is socially accepted behavior. It's the way they treat each other. We stand up for ourselves or our children when we protect against unwanted affection and we are labeled abusers for depriving our children and ourselves of their definition of love and affection. We become the depraved and deprivers.
Thankfully, that is changing for me as I create a new paradigm within me.
My inner little actress is still fighting me. She says; "All I have ever known is love" as if it's a lament. And truly, it is like a drug. When we free ourselves from the body and enter the realm of "vision", we are filled with such love that we agree to anything because we feel so good, and nothing but. There's no self preservation present. It feels like our free will has been taken from us. And now I know why men fear love of a woman, why it makes them feel powerless, and why they feel like they need to exert control in keeping us in need of them. I know why they'd rather see us dead than suffer the indignity of what they feel is loss of free will.
So now I can balance this within and let that shit go.
I do love that I can now share laughter with the men in my life, born of true connection. We're all being humbled by life, this in which we are all in it together.
The fourth dimension are the things we register with our "extra-sensory" senses. They are the unseen, non-physical aspects of our physical reality. They are common to us all. We see and feel the effects of them, if not those things themselves. They are recognized and seen by us all when they manifest as emotional feelings and thoughts. They manifest as the images of our imagination. They are our beliefs and perceptions.
The human vessel was not made for sacrifice. Yet, it has been treated as interchangeable as socks. It's been pitched as less than and even the source of all evil. That is why it rebels.
Looking down on the human vessel is looking down upon one's self. Sacrificing the physical well-being is cruelty to self.
We must accept that this is US. No more and no less than Source/God/Divinity. Source birthed this desire. She is nurturing it, finding her way to it in the form of human beings. She is adding it to family and recognizing it as home within me.
Physical hunger is a manifestation of the hunger to be complete. The completeness comes when we accept all as one, as us.
A man stopped and gave me ice. He expressed interest in knowing whether or not I have a man.
While reflecting on the exchange, I sensed a warmth come in and blanket my right side. "Holy and Sacred Overlay" came to me.
It is only then that I realized I had refused it coming in. What would have to be afraid of? 🤣 O.K. Sacred and Holy Overlay it is! Not out of fear. No. This is to give context in a world not quite yet here with me energetically. The people, men, especially will approach more slowly and considerately. Something to get used to 🤗
It is said that everything in our lives is a reflection of us. We can see trash and think "neglect" or "waste". We can see little green sprouts in the desert around us and think; "I'm growing!". It's all true. One thing represents a success, another a failed attempt, etc.
It came to me this morning: the root of it all is overwhelm. First, we're overwhelmed by emotions, thoughts, perceptions, sensations and then comes responsibilities and needs, etc. We're not lazy, unmotivated, uninspired, unintelligent, foolish or any of it. We're overwhelmed.
One is overwhelmed by material things rotting in warehouses while another is overwhelmed with a lack of it (the going about obtaining it). We can slow it all down if we can trust the process. There just hasn't been much example of how to do that as far as I have seen. We open our eyes in the morning and are immediately hit with physical sensations and thoughts before we even open our eyes. When the fuck are we supposed to even begin to look for an example? It has to come to us.
From whence could it come? Anything approaching with any sense of purpose or intent has us on guard and uncertain if not terrified and angry. It has to come in and simply exist amongst us or near us and prove it's self harmless. It has to let us rest, get used to it, let us dip our toes in. Soft and subtle has it's uses. It has to be in overwhelmed without being overwhelmed.
And so, we have it.
It began with a hungry stomach. I didn't want to be hungry anymore. I have food. It's the experience of hungry I did not want anymore. I knew it had to go deeper because I am acquainted with breathairianism. I've experienced it.
I felt deep in my body this morning as I face another day of barely enough arriving after the hunger hurts, after lack has left a toll, I can't get things done that need because of lack of cleaners, enough water, containers, etc. I caught myself sipping water until gulping like my body wants. I realize I have kept it that way subconsciously to make it last due to sparsity.
I was brought back to a childhood of excesses of unneeded and not enough food, clothes, money to join the other children in the gift shop on field trips, etc. Brought back to a mother complaining there was never going to be enough money for her retirement. A friend crying when she came over because I "have everything". "But you have your mother's love, she does laundry with you, she makes sure you eat, have nice clothes, get hair and nails done, etc". My parents were millionaires raising us like homeless waifs.
I was brought back to a couple summers past. I had made a huge pan of banana pudding to share with a family going through a difficult time. The children fell on it like wolves. The youngest was screaming in desperation as he watched it all disappear while he had rely on his mom to work the spoon for him because he couldn't reach the table. Pictures of starving children in Africa....
I could feel how some part of me was always energetically stretched out, reaching to snatch things in that same hungry desperation as that child watching the banana pudding disappear right in front of his face. I had an aunt who hoarded food. I have cousins with eating disorders. Yes, they all came from the poor dirt immigrant farmers side of the family. My father's becoming financially wealthy did not end the hunger.
I guess my assignment wasn't just breaking chains of abuse and financial poverty. World hunger is today's epic cleansing. Let myself feel the pain release, to stop the stretching, the reaching. "Ask and you shall receive".
I feel like a child you see in the movies taken from the jungle and forced to sit, relax, eat slowly using utensils. There is enough for everyone, my love, go easy. The softness envelopes and becomes me. Now I see the energetic approaches that don't suit me.
We've got animal bodies made of flesh raised in packs where runts don't last. That does change upon awakening.
I also realized I was against temporary fixes "because if it doesn't get done right the first time, it won't ever get fixed". That prevented small steps, for things to develop. I didn't want to lie and tell someone it was wonderful for fear of hurting their feelings, so I kept silent and did without. Smoking gave me a lightness in the body it needed from soul/spirit instead. I have those. I have everything I need and it can be just the way I like it, even if what I like changes. It was good enough. I just hadn't realized it.
Honestly, I had completely forgotten about that particular aspect of this incarnation.
Catch-up: came in with a soul contract for a twin flame. So, there are two versions of the oversoul bee-bopping their way to get together, triggering themselves into awakening so the awake version can clean it's mess up and move on. The twin to this one decided it was a no-go. Fast forward 15 years and the soul decides it's waking hell or high water. It chooses another vessel to play the trigger twin. That other version of me does the intended job and I am off and running on the awakening path once again. It's elaborate. My focus in inward. Period. We've got all the time in the world, but no. I'm done.
In comes that wandering spirit that is the other, "masculine" version of my soul. "May as well settle in"; I tell it, "you need a body to escape this yourself, and this is as good a one as any. Most of the work is already done". So, my twin tucked inside, I'm still letting it grind away at the calling in, integrating and expanding. With absolute clarity, each day brings new experiences of exactly what is going on, who, what, when, where, how, etc. It's as natural to be aware of anything because everything is my natural state of being. The mechanics aren't difficult when we are the embodiment of it.
Although I am aware that my true nature moves and creates with the mind in conjunction with feelings, I am also aware that my "super powers" are capped for me until I am in that purer state and won't blow shit up accidentally. Not that we're afraid of that happening. It's because we're here to clean up messes, not create more.
So, yup; that's where we are at: twin energy tucked in, painful nights, blissful days, sprinkling of tears, tons of understanding, reacquainting, acquainting and we're well on our way to our next intended destination. I know a bit of what it feels like, a sense of what it looks like, but the details are in the dark so I can experience authentic pleasant surprises. Whether that will include the twin claiming a body for it's self after all: I'm getting teasers. The last vessel it chose to come in as a lover sent a response to an email I had sent like 6 months ago. The idea that he's too young was tossed in by spirit, so I don't get hung up on it. Perfect!
