Montauk Chronicles, Nathan Reynolds, my story

Now that I am exposing myself to materials such as this and others such as Nathan Reynold's experiences, after coming to understand the  symbols of the underground while in Slab City.....I understand my childhood. My blood type is Rh-, which naturally makes me more intuitive and energetically  powerful.  The agents from Mensa came to test me in grade school and I was always  placed in advanced classes. I don't remember what  happened on field trips, only that my  other sent  me off with cheap-as lunches and I never had souvenir money like the other children in my  class. She despised thee special treatment I received from anyone and everyone while wanting to gain prestige by encouraging my talents in gymnastics and horseback riding which  I quit to spite her for it. My father only ever told us about his time in the Marine corps that he guarded the President as the President traveled around the world. As a teen I experienced blackouts  when cornered by aggression and would only become aware of myself a few days  later or just after I had violently  and effectively decommissioned my attacker. This frightened me so that  I avoided confrontation at all  cost. At about 20 yrs old, I became aware that my mother knew  the head of the Albanian mafia, taunting me with it. My  father's asking me if I wanted him to have my ex boyfriend's legs broken because of something he had done, made more sense. My father dying at the hands of a black widow  became obvious. 

I was programmed as a breeder; 5 girls for 5 men  who hate women, a son and you're done. Immediately after my son, a strange version of menopause at a young age, a distinct feeling 'they' wouldn't be happy until I had killed somebody,  and when I proved to be too strong willed to be blacked out again to accomplish  that, the suicidal ideations began. I would be of no more use other than against them. I became aware of 4 "brothers", of similar 'assignments'. 

I've gotten rid of 'the dirty old man' who controlled the part of my mind that knew math and sciences as well as my sexuality. I'm slowly confronting entity controlled barriers and reclaiming those fragments. My healing/energy manipulation centers are autistic, ADHD, etc. Every task that would  benefit me is daunting. They controlled my qualities to place me in circumstances that got me into the  relationships they desired for me.

It's a long journey to healing. I am succeeding.