The divine child's gift

     So what does one do when the divine child who has been content playing with her play dough and dolls, crayons and paper, getting everything she wants reaches the cognitive moment of "none of these things I have been pretending to interact with can really interact with me on their own?". I have been making play dough presents for dummies/mannequins who do not need nor want or are even capable of liking or not liking them?
    If you create a world for her where everything is capable of receiving and feeling joy at receiving her gifts, she will still be stuck in her last thought that the responses are not real, they're her imagination imagining and she will feel her imagination if deceiving her because it has 'taken over' and won't let her see "the truth"-that they are all just dummies/mannequins that never move.
   But if first you put her in a world where nothing agrees with her, nothing that used to work-like her imagination-doesn't work for her where she can feel real pain and real healing..well, then she can believe something outside of her is real, alive and acting of it's own accord THEN you can give her a world that gives her all she is wanting and she will be able to recognize that the something outside of her CAN be as 'real' as she is, play with real appreciation or just enough disagreement to remind her of the reality of her present circumstances.
   So, yes, she does have to travel through the world of "the whole world is against me" before she is able to grasp the reality of a world that DOES lover her and is giving her everything she is wanting.
   That is what we are doing here in this moment on this day: dumping the hurt, confusion, disbelief of the divine child's discovery her world was mannequins decorated by her imagination. We are realizing the world we are experiencing was created to shock us out of THAT realization, dumping the self-recrimination for an imagination we believe created it, and grasping the understanding that what comes next is a world where we get what we want for real combined with a working imagination and authentically real "other beings" to interact with---other divine children who also underwent this process. Because that is what the divine child wanted. NOW the divine child is ready to receive it.
 The collective consciousness became mother and father for the sake of the child and this process, they are the child's creation in that it agreed to be an answer to her desire for guidance, but always remaining it's self:the collective consciousness.
  In summation, at this pint of experience, this world was created to awaken the divine child from the belief that it is all an illusion so it can beyond the realization that it was all an illusion until the desire for it not to be "just" an illusion was born while at the same time waking the collective consciousness that makes up this world to the fact that what it believes it is IS just an illusion.

Over coming death

  The urge to kill, the desire to kill, the imagining of someone else's death requires the belief in death it's self. If one believes in death, their own death is inevitable.

No limitations: the stories

Driving from Ohio to Montana and back again unlicensed, speeding and child jum[ping around unbuckled......guy who was riding asked how I did not see state troupers every few miles and how did they not see me and when we returned the rental van the guy who wrote down the mileage and gas usage asked how it was possible we used so little gas.
Back and forth across the country several times in camper with no title,license or registration, no money with two small children. Cops would be directly behind us at stop lights and never even look to notice the expired temporary registration Once ran out of gas and went to the police station and knowing we were unregistered, etc he paid for our gas to get us out of town. Flying sign on street corner for first time, wouldn't you know I would get on that corner after several others just when an officer with a particular grudge against beggars shows up and insists on giving me ticket, so I signed it "under duress" and he had no idea what my name was because I had no I.D. As we would pass through state check points, etc out west like California border, etc, the border patrols would just happen to be looking the other way while waving us through. Staying in state and federal parks, etc they'd come to investigate everyone for weed and well, I don't smoke it so not even noticing our illegal vehicle and lack of I.D. they'd leave.
The funniest one was a truck load of us heading to northern New Hampshire to check out a tree truck a couple of the guys wanted to buy. We stopped to see if we were in the right place only to be told we went too far and were in Canada...uh how'd we get across the border?
I was hospitalized and then had to stay in a nursing home for 6 months before and after a 5 hour surgery. With no family to take my two youngest in, they went into foster care. By some miracle they not only ended up in a home where the mother did not immunize her own children, but the state never pushed too hard to immunize mine despite having put them in public schools.
There was always a $100 given by a complete stranger when we needed gas money, food unrequested when hungry, etc.
I spent more than 10 years with no I.D. of any kind far away from family and friends and the universe delivered constantly. It was not always by means agreeable with me, but I got over much of it, letting go judgement about receiving and overcoming "implied" strings, conditions, 'contracts'.

Two more things come to mind: we are not here to introduce 'limitations,' 'boundaries', map out the hows, about creation, we have already exceeded them. We are here to live beyond them.

Number two: many of us have lived life 'outside the system' with hardship, feeling homeless, unwelcome, outsiders, etc. We have been moved back into the system and been rewarded when we 'follow the rules'/become 'good citizens'. That is NOT the intention of that period of our lives: to become 'cooperative components within the system'. The goal was the feeling of 'I am legal', 'I am welcome', 'I belong', 'I am accepted', 'I am loved', 'my needs are always met'...most of all 'I am legitimate'. So now we know that feeling in this body. We can summon that feeling in any given moment, radiate it constantly without thinking of it and THEN hardship comes again, plans of working within the system appear to fail, no matter what rules we follow, we loose our circumstance's security. That means it's time to go out again but this time in this new-to-this-body energy of belonging, legitimacy, watched over, blessed, grace-given being.

Energetic rundown on the world politics

       I'm only going to do this once because I don't want to mess with any aspect of it except my role, which we'll get to at the end of this.
       I've spent alot of time on the topic of domestic violence, the nature of it, etc. and well, that led me straight to the top for it is evident in all aspects of our world. Comes down to this: when one asks for help and you respond with yes, you make yourself a victim. The abusers are victims. The people with sick amounts of power and influence are victims of the masses by taking control of everything and making the people dependent upon them. Secretly, they've all got death wishes.
      So, we have super dark people in power coming out in the open, flaunting it, begging for somebody, anybody to do something.
      We have a whole generation of indigo's in the prime of youth and passion and vigor and purpose...if one glimpses outside of the love and light circles you will see today's youth all have a street thug mentality. They're warriors and they're ready.
      In between there we have the baby boomers, post war generation when the world was still full of the potential for material gain. They are the love and lighters with a higher consciousness but they chose to be subject to their parent's "tough shit you got to work for it" mentality because they had something to gain: the American dream, political office for change, etc.
     The difference between the baby boomers and indigo's is that the indigo's have nothing to loose. They have nothing left to save: the planet is bankrupt, there is no wealth to gain, no political power to get into because it is all corrupt as well.
     Outburst is inevitable.
      Then there are the keepers of the vision for the future,we hold the vision for peace and freedom and sovereignty for all of humanity. We hold that vision for the indigo's who know the bringing in of that vision is their purpose. So, we hold it for them and following generations. We are the healers who will help them when it comes time to release the inner street thug to join us in that greater vision.
     Power must bait the indigo, the indigo must be the street thug, the baby boomers must give up, and the dreamers must maintain the dreams and the ability to dream.

Fear is nothing but forbidden love

 I got to thinking about how when I first woke fully I was met by someone with a dire warning from their own experience "you better slow down or you'll burn yourself out". Out of respect for the existence of that fear in another, I shut myself back down and awakened more slowly, step by step, aspect by aspect. It has become a painfully slow process at some points until I was given to realize we have all the time in the world...we are, after all, immortal..........and now it is all coming rushing in but again, one aspect by one aspect......and it is DELICIOUS. When I first awoke one could have said that I was decadent or brave or anything and I would have just taken their word for it because I would not have known what that meant. One could have asked me if I was decadent and I would have replied with "I don't know". Now I DO know. So, respecting that fear in loving innocence that put me back to sleep was a wondrous gift to me. In slow motion I have been given to observe and analyze every aspect coming in and every aspect "leaving", to commune with each exclusively with undivided attention, thus loving every aspect of every nuance of every energy making up that which is and always has been love.

Even our 'weaknesses', our fears lend strength to our presence in the experiences of others. For if we are fully awakened and floating about higher than all others, we are not on their radar. We are birds flying above clouds over the heads of those looking down at the ground. So our 'dysfunctions' are loving ties to the ground that they trip over and thus notice and then follow the rope up to see it goes through the clouds and wonder what is tethered up there? and their wonder opens the clouds, the end of tether forcing the imagining of an image that entices and inspires and once that happens, we no longer need the tether tying us to their experience and bringing their attention upwards then trying to strike up their imagination. But none of it is intentional, it simply happens, the natural response to fear-based/'forbidden to love' love. And now that is known, I can see that what was given to be 'dire warning' to prevent that which I was doing was an expression of one LOVING what I was doing. And I can LOVE what I was doing all the more.


    For whatever reason we have been given to perceive many things as "forbidden to love". We perceive ourselves forbidden to love certain levels of heat, we call it "getting burnt" and so we fear intense sensations. We perceive unbridled, uncontrolled leads only to imbalance and so we forbid it in ourselves, in our experiences, our physical activities and even what we are forbidden to love: that feeling of potential unknown consequences, the love of fear it's self. Sometimes "forbidden" makes something more exciting, not because it will shake up anyone or anything but because we like the feeling of "bang" and so we fear resistance in one area, we fear lack of resistance in another when all any of it really is, is
LOVE.

All we need is the perception of unlimited permission to experience unlimited love of all feelings and sensations of energetic experience.

Energetic flavor of the day:DECADENT

      I woke from a dream in which I was interacting delightedly with a man of the most innocent nature. I woke with/bearing the name as/like "Lolita".
      I woke feeling like decadence tastes.
      It is as if the sweetest most innocent of children just took her first bite of the most decadently rich chocolate treat and is carried off in full-body consuming upliftment.
      This energy is short-circuiting my nervous system with it's deliciousness, as my nervous system is reawakened and reconfigured to accommodate it.
     And I luxuriate in it, the "taste" and "smell" of decadence.........

Decadent daydreams

Ecstasy, ecStacey

Once we have life, death is a luxury.............

          
           "What do you think" came the question.
            "Fine by me" came my answer.
            "NO!" screamed the elite, "they MUST repress their emotions and go to work!".
             "I did not ask for your opinion" says me.
  And then it comes in as I agree "You feel free to repress until your heart ceases to live, more room on Earth for those of us who choose to LIVE".
   With ease and graceful whisper, the silence that inspires fear. comes like a breeze and warm breath brushing the skin. The feeling of the satiated vampire drawing in, the ecstasy of the orgasmed woman inviting her lover back in for the pure luxury that exists in it.
   Do you see me as my eyes roll back in my head, my mouth yawns open as I draw in the deepest breath, as I arch my back and play with my wet, oozing sex? That is my response to the idea of your death, oh stubbornly repressed stupidly hateful human. I would have sex with your death, I would drink it in with a heart full of pure clear, divine love which you reject. Hear my whispered screams of ecstasy riding the warmth of my breath in your ear: "YES. YES. YES!"
Now begins the haunting. Now begins the plague. Now begins the death.