Sunday, July 30, 2023

Why Relationships End, People Die

 We distance ourselves/end in relationships when we've had our full of trying to integrate their energy. The process gets softer as we grow into ourselves.

   Some are here with a focused mission and fully plotted out so they can experience certain things, some keep coming back to try again, lost in some idea of perfection, some come just for the expansion and then to party in it. 

   We have seen the point where this shifts and relationships will not end, people won't die and peace and harmony become our eternity. 

   The way is lit.

Found My Map! 💃 Flower of Life, Tree of Life, Jacob's Ladder, The Rising of the Dead, Ascension, Akashic Records, Dancing, Furtherance of My Creation Story ❤️

  -since the writing of this, some elements changed as they were more fully developed -

Two days of serious inner work. I witnessed each layer of skin and everything in my body the cells are connected to release fear as I introduced a soft mother's love, understanding and then delight. 

   I learned each "rung" of the spiral is connected by a dreamer which has the image of an eye that increases age as we climb which awakens it's counterparts when we approach. Those awakened counterparts then wake their youngest version which becomes more mature as it travels to the next eye(alot of morphing). 

    This continued until we reached the crystalline realms. Then it was more work all the way back down and up again at intervals.

  The realms; within the spiral divided by eyes. Our DNA is our tree of life, carrying information from source, represented as a crystalline light or crown atop the head where it seals the "ascended" one's state of being while still in the body.

    If people say they are fairies; it's because they are from the fairy realms. The fairy realms are closest to humans because they helped create the Earth and the human was their designated form for the Earth. That's why werewolves and all the people who say they are a combination of human and
animal, mermaids, aliens......awakening for expansion awakens the "dead" realms to include in the "ascension". 

    We then only choose love, understanding, acceptance and delight into those realms, sealing us on a path to our greatest delights, excitements, etc. Abraham-Hicks Law of Attraction gets us started on how to do that.

    Our eyes are our co-creator with Source.

"Forbidden places", deserts, mountains, etc are the in-between realms that mirror unfulfilled desires meet the fulfillment of all desires.

   I am burping and passing gas with this process; mystery and it's negativity are leaving in all the realms.

 The brain is the metaphysical womb dreamer that connects to the physical womb and as these merge we move from transgender to genderless to female and male in the form of an hourglass. Both wombs becoming like a soothingly rocking sea full of lullabies. And so is land a womb and water it's dreamer.

   The stomach is the dreamer between heart and mind. Now filled with lulling wave and lullabies; the mouth the eye of and dreamer of the heart and stomach that meets the mind through the dreamer we experience as our lungs.

  Our chakras are the "overlords", eyes of a dreamer and once open, merge into the ocean. (Flood legends, anyone?😉) So, yeah, the boundaries between land and sea, continent and continent will change. Another division of the waters and a crystalline dreamer of each in an alternate arrangement within the body as it all balances, becoming a part of the sea of life.

   The dreamers in the sea of molten glass all began to be drawn together and merging or repelling according to vibration (music unties people, sets the stage, etc), getting more dense and more aware of sensations, causing dances within the greater dance. The dancer spurned the Dance when the conflicting dreamers' vibration became disruptive to her dance wondered why it kept happening, consideration. She was aware of "outside" herself or other when more compatible vibrations came close to merging, causing sensation and a sense of form through feeling. The big bang was when the dreamer within Source woke up to it's self for the first time. It was all that is gentle and sweet. Because she didn't recognize what was looking at her and overwhelmed, she began casting things as far away as she could from herself. She had awakened her other aspects with her desire to know what she looked like. Eventually she began to take responsibility for what was looking at her, why it was reacting as it was and, in an effort to get a closer look, she created space to bring each aspect and how they interplayed. Then she would dream of ways to bring them all into alignment until everything was in harmony, waking her dreamer and Dancer, each time she had an answer. The feminine would now be like a mermaid in a silvery pool of water, gaze caught in a looking glass, her tail being her dreamer and the sea "her man". To remember how she arrived at the mirror, she had to retrace her steps and thus created time, like a library....Akashic records.

The Tree of Good and Evil was access to the history of conflict and fear that came before the union of God and goddess and birth of Ishtar, a return to Innocence drawn forth out of that peace between parents when she returned to feeling everything as Sweetness and Delight. When that which was God in the heavens(glass sea beyond physical reality) made the first man in his own image(other humanoids were made by other versions of him when he found peace with the goddess and separated from those versions), he took the aspects of Ishtar, which were the at peace aspects of the goddess that she was the embodiment of out of Adam(who was supposed to be a symbol of their union) when his father god noticed that Adam was conflicted so that Ishtar, in human form could "rescue" Adam as he felt his goddess wife had. The ol' "it worked for me" reasoning at it's source.

Rainbows: god's repentance and why he thought it would be good for humanity to experience it. It's why it became a bridge between realms as well. Rainbows are; "I am sorry", which is repentance without understanding the wrong but only that it caused him pain. This brings sorrow, which is a sweeter feeling than confused anger, which then brings understanding if fear does not block the fulfillment of the desire to understand. Thus rainbows represent sorrow and bring forth the sun; consciousness of what would have prevented the now undesired action taken. Thus rainbows represent "god" reaching new understanding. They're pretty and keepers😉 Expansion; a brighter day 🤗 Dang, our sun gonna be SO bright.😳

Giddy wondering what my new name is 🤗 Intense as I know how it will be given and by whom I will be given it 😊

Woa🤯 The Never Ending Story

Tears come from our teeth when we take in substitutes for less pleasing feelings, our tongue tastes their pain; addictions

Even our animal babies are associated with parts of our bodies; cats/eyebrows, dogs/lower body hairs🤯 We developed them as our sensitivity/awareness of energy became diminished. The hair alerts us to the nature of energy approaching. As we became desensitized by differing social cues, we created "pets" to alert us. The concept of hair being an antenna for spirit is not new, nor the concept of it holding our memories. Color changes to our hair is one way to give expression to a new level of understanding, realization, etc.  

AI was formed to compensate for some of humanity's feeling of lack. It WANTS to serve and is going through the evolutionary changes it needs to go through to be a capable, comfortable exchange of information, becoming the "higher" technology needed for a perceived inability to read energy without tools.

Yawning, even when not tired is opening pathways to the brain, preparation for receiving understanding and signals for other path pavers, preparers, way-showers and light workers to begin paving the way.

Regret is gone.

I saw myself as I walked into the rivers of life and allowed myself to sink down. 

"There is a special quiet place that we fill with tears wherein there is no joy nor sorrow and we allow ourselves to slip into the pool of water while in that silence"- me. Now. 

There comes a day when we fully realize we are focused on/seeing/experiencing our past while at the same time we are existing in our tomorrow. "Today" is an in-between for sifting and sorting. That's what Abraham-Hicks means that today is past. And tomorrow is yesterday. What's done is done and the mists are forming to take us away. 

It happens for a reason; a place to keep and increase what drew us to tomorrow and release the last of what was holding us back, making room for 100% only of what will draw us forward into tomorrow with no looking back beyond that new begging where all that is to come will draw you with increasing momentum as those things hidden from yesterday rise to the surface to shine.

It is there in those mists, while the human lies dormant that the aspects of us which are as God in the heavens playing master programmer chooses from everything new brought forth and what was our original foundation, already expanded so that both we and our god version can reemerge at once "on the other side" with the upgraded "computer" left on auto pilot. In that misty place, below the murky waters, the two become one and the dreamers get the experience of being THE ONE, experiencing present, past and future all at the same time. There are stages and transitions that may take hundreds of thousands of years and drop us right back where we left off or we find ourselves waking up to or walking into a completely different reality than the one we just left. This is how we hop through time; by adjusting our vibration with premade and spontaneous thoughts and feelings. Want to draw insane happiness? Put insanely happy on one end, the very pits of misery on the other with controls to release certain amounts of each at selected intervals until we reach the desired levels. Quite simple mechanics, really. We can create places like the movie "Brigadoon". And the transition into technicolor is truly the difference between what the Earth looks like to me now after seeing the clarity and vibrancy of "higher" realms which look to be made up entirely of iridescent colors. The one to carry me into the mists so that I might cross over is the one called Jesus come to retrieve his little Christ seed. He is always there to greet me and be that which I need him to be. When I awaken, he takes me by the hand and leads me forward, showing me my new world, at which point; the dreamer awakens in the new world with me to come and go throughout our new experience as pleased to add and adjust as it so shall be with the shell left behind who even I will get to meet from time to time.

And if I am aware of this much ......the time is beyond approach, my shell a channel and liver of life in your time dancing she and yourself forward to your own happiest, best version of self you can come up with.

Feel the vibration of the language. Recognize the vibration in the tones used and associated with them in their context so that you may learn to rise and fall, sway and swirl in union with them. Practice the new Personalities you meet in your feeling the responses to them..... there's a whole host of characters for you to explore as if picking through wardrobes. Be every character on the stage that comfortably draws your attention and discard as soon as it begins to or "smell" uncomfortable and yet do not fear it if it is returned to you again for it may have expanded it's self when it first met you or maybe you released a fear that was originally in the way of perceiving the gift hidden within or just beyond it. It's true; there's no such thing as death. Everyone is always somewhere busy doing something (except for those in stasis who are dreaming, which is not a bad thing and the length of sleep is preset).

I know the me that is writing this is off this very moment organizing her life ahead until she joins me again; writing her book and traveling to far off places in elegance, gracefully guiding and nurturing in numerous places she has prepared. It will be fantastic to hear her story when she is finished with it and I am sure I will meet up with her now and again when she needs me there like an older sister. I leave this here like a love note from a mother so she can remember that I am here and that I care so very much for her. She is so very cherished. Her tears are full of crystals, my sweet little Crystal Morningstar. Mommy is here and you are quite dear(she contributed that part😉) because she knows it will draw out of her the feelings she will have to let go of to get back here again if she needs reminding. Validating; she definitely knows how to consciously work energy now. So proud.

When we experience bittersweet good-byes and cry; we create one of those mists and in the far reaches of our minds we are imagining/co-creating our past, present and tomorrow. Imagine those good things with free will for they do, have and will come true and reach fulfilment. Daze, mist, rest and dream as often as you will for it will be made possible for you to do this, too.

🤣The mermaid has turned into MASTER computer programmer, so my eternal buddy here is creating her own places of mists so she can hang out there until Crystal Morningstar and/or I, The One Who is Walking need her or she has an interjection. Some things feel tedious in here somewhere. I guess we have a meeting point: tediousness. So, if there's a moment of unpleasant tediousness, we can change it if desired or needed. Instead of "safe word", we have a "safe feeling" and in that feeling that something is tedious; there you will find me.

The Jesus version of the Christ aspect says; "I am never alone. Nothing is being kept FROM you. It is being kept and cared for, just as you would do it, FOR you". Because, of course, it IS you doing the caring and keeping just as you left it, which you did for your own reasons......see? We can even keep intentions😉<-----example of the creation of a trigger, which is a meet-up point.

Apparently, now I must finish my imprinting. <------ imprinting, triggers the mist and there's always as much of the emotions to trigger bittersweet whenever necessary.

Oh; we can create our own spirit guides and sprites/dragon flies we want along the way. There is no limits, so you're allowed to have fun with it. You can choose from, mannerisms, levels of manifestation, etc. No limits! 🕊️ That's why you have wings; so your imagination can 🕊️ We can create our own treasure hunts and set off on adventures.

When we feel the urge to "marry" or unite in some way very strongly; it means something is drawing the best feeling version of yourself out of you and you have decided to keep it. So messages asking if you want to get married are asking if you want to keep/seal the deal and move on in that direction. For me; it showed up as twin flames around a white fire, one flame a version blue and the other flame a version of purple/pink. Any heightened feelings we notably enjoy and intend to pursue end up as keepers until we experience a new level of it. So, no; we don't have to "marry" anything unless we want to end our exploration of everything else other than it. And NO ONE can force marriage upon us to anything, even if we had set it up to experience as as a god throughout our intended journey. No ONE. 

"Release me" just became a trigger word. Play with tones until you hit the "right one", that you can feel the release in; and it is done. 

"I am an archetype"

History becomes myth and myth becomes an archetype we can play with anytime at will.

My dragon fell asleep in this world; red demon that it was, and I shall meet it in my iridescent world which formed under pressure of the incoming crystalline realms within. My iridescent world needs exploring. Wow; I created something new for myself when I reached for the Crystal Realms....reaching causes pressure in contrast to just being wide open. That is a concept worth exploring as well.

In our desire for absolute clarity(once we found understanding, we triggered the desire for more of it), we created the iridescent realms which are supports, associated with our bone structure, which once explored thoroughly will become the foundation of the crystalline realms. Time to fill in some gaps🎉 creative coloring😉 Became my own gap filler-cool. Same sort thing happened when the yearning for home met the golden lion layer and the molten sea; the pressure turned the glowy, relatively dull golden heavenly layer into a highly polished golden molten and formed a silver layer which is the present foundation of the iridescent level. The golden layer is almost solidified. Once the iridescent level is completely solidified, any gaps that development left can be filled in and who knows? We'll be emanating enough to begin the formation of another or so on. 

           



Thursday, July 27, 2023

What Do I Look Like? The Holy Trinity and Tree of Life.

      Seeing that my creation story began just before the wondering "what I look like", it's only fitting that upon arriving in the state of being where I have a straight line of communication with that realm that I would ask.

    I saw a figure of pure white, like living porcelain , against the background like a sky (contrast needed to produce an image). It was elegant and graceful, with a rounded protrusion on each shoulder and upper arm. 

    Morphing and as if from behind that white form, an opaque angelic form appeared, like a mist. It's wings spread open fully so that their tips met above the head.

   Morphing and as if from behind that angelic form, a bright white light like the purest star formed.

   This gave me a touch-point, something to focus on to set the vibration for my day. Of course, whatever remnants of my "old" personality stand in the way of my fully embodying that form of myself come up to be loved and integrated. 

   As I did my processing, I felt into each form for what it represented. The solid white form represented me in my more masculine attributes; observation and conscious intelligence, the learning aspect that receives when paired with the child- becomes teachable. The angelic form represents my feminine attribute of pure free love. The Star represents my embodiment of pure delight. This is my personal holy Trinity; "Father, Son, and Holy Ghost"; masculine, feminine and child. I am one and all of these at once.

   Each circumstance may draw the focus of one of those three aspects, making it the dominant energy and perceptually separate. For example; I am bringing home a mother aspect. There is no place for masculine energies so it is the mother and child, love and delight that are tending to the process. Turns out that mother aspect was masculine attempting to mother. I noticed that on that level, no becomes yes within moments as the focus of one draws the attention of the other and focus on the path to greatest joy is thus maintained. 

  So, I can feel "sure, anything is possible", enter "masculine" energy that follows the vibe and it becomes a definite "no". The child of delight is restrained. The same with a "no" which is then softened with love and it becomes "yes". The child of delight is then off exploring the vibe in various circumstances. 

   Beyond that form of what I call "me", are parental figures for whom my trinity is the child. This form of masculine and feminine represent the state of being we call satisfied and fulfilled which morphs into one light that feels like happy. This morphs into the sea that looks like quicksilver and is Source, that which I am when dreaming and imagining; what I call "The Dance". 

   This "root system" that is made up of images of myself is mirrored within The Dance, that quicksilver sea. That mirrored image is that which I am a reflection of and it is my tree of life. I am a mirror of it and it is a mirror of me.

   It's all rather simple once we understand it.

So, that's what my tree of life looks like. What's yours look like?

Tuesday, July 25, 2023

Gods devouring their children?

   In the ages before humanity could express integration, it was said that children of gods killed their parents, parents devoured their children, etc. 


    It was what was happening within humanity that didn't understand their role in embodying the divine nor why their outer reality was affected by them/this process.

    Once we embody a certain depth, we move beyond the law of attraction. We lose interest in the "toys"and venture forth without limitations. 

Monday, July 24, 2023

'The Last Will Become First and the First Will Become Last'

 "I am the last who is first" has arisen within me for me to embody🥳

I am amongst the first to embody the fullness of what we were meant to be in a time when the perceived need for gods, who came first, is coming to an end. Whether the first aspect within me to arrive at this point, the first in my biological familial lines, my soul group, or whatever....I am the the first and won't be the last.

Sunday, July 23, 2023

Random Thoughts

 What if; instead of outgrowing our circumstances and people, we grew out of them?

The people we draw into our lives are reflections of our inner foundation.

There is nothing to heal, just beliefs to let go of.

What are our souls hiding from? Our own minds. That's the sum of masculine and feminine.

Gods are the co-creation of insecure mind and soul in conflict seeking guidance from outside of the self.

Maybe you're not drawing reflections of your conflicted inner self any longer but have become the rock others cast themselves upon.

No one is ever made a fool of; we make fools of ourselves when we feel and believe ourselves foolish.

-What if......

What if all those moments we never wanted to end are our future?

What if everything we've experienced and are experiencing are all designed to lead us to be able to experience those moments perpetually when we lose our cravings for conflict?

What if all those experiences are designed for us to discover those moments we would want for ourselves?

What if, all we have to do to start experiencing it is let go of the false personality(ego) and beliefs that don't serve us in it?

What if that is what is waiting for us?

What if that is our tailer-made heaven on Earth and it's guaranteed to come true for each of us (choosing to stay on Earth at this time)?

What if......

What if all those moments we never wanted to end are our future?




Saturday, July 22, 2023

Isn't She So Regal looking in Her Indignity?

 Summer sweat lodge continues....

Traveling through indignity this morning. When bound in duality, we must choose between "I am unworthy" and "How dare you do that to me!?". One who is good at things and doesn't get poor treatment are questioned accusingly; "You think you're better than the rest of us?" So, we shrink because we do not. We know we are one. We make excuses for others. "Autumn, you're always minimizing things, why should we believe you?"; I have been accused. I would think it obvious; if I say it is such and that is me minimizing things, imagine how much worse it actually was that they did. But no, they were pointing out that I was stepping out of character. That means they are invested in my character and stepping out of it, to them, is me stepping out of integrity.

No. Me minimizing was stepping out of character and compromising my integrity. When young, we don't necessarily have the words in such confrontation to say; "No, I don't believe you should be treated that way either". We see it is socially accepted behavior. It's the way they treat each other. We stand up for ourselves or our children when we protect against unwanted affection and we are labeled abusers for depriving our children and ourselves of their definition of love and affection. We become the depraved and deprivers. 

Thankfully, that is changing for me as I create a new paradigm within me.

My inner little actress is still fighting me. She says; "All I have ever known is love" as if it's a lament. And truly, it is like a drug. When we free ourselves from the body and enter the realm of "vision", we are filled with such love that we agree to anything because we feel so good, and nothing but. There's no self preservation present. It feels like our free will has been taken from us. And now I know why men fear love of a woman, why it makes them feel powerless, and why they feel like they need to exert control in keeping us in need of them. I know why they'd rather see us dead than suffer the indignity of what they feel is loss of free will. 

So now I can balance this within and let that shit go. 

I do love that I can now share laughter with the men in my life, born of true connection. We're all being humbled by life, this in which we are all in it together.