ticking off "the spirits of the air"

This is how it happens: exposing the truth about them. This is where my life got hit hard previously. So, I ask the question: should I instead choose quiet acceptence? or is it not going to bring about my destruction again to have spoken aloud? Is this time different as I bring the sword of truth out and take it openly, publically to the truth about this system? This time I am not projecting fear or judgement out with it, however. It is more an acceptence of things, a public recognition. I see you and I see me. I see we are not compatable, but I have to live with these things. I have to 'play by the rules', bend over and take it. Already the vice is being squeezed in reaction: walk carefully, precisely, by the letter of the law......we won't make allowances, no mercy.
This is what I said:

According to popular psychology, I have a zero % chance of living a life of anything other than abuse, victimhood, and addiction. By 5 years old my way of interacting with the world was decided and cemented in. i could give up and just continue in a life of conflict. i could close my eyes and declare it does not apply to me, I was never THAT broken and that I am a good kind of crazy. But that is not what I have chosen. God willing, I will continue to prove their research and conclusions "incomplete". My children and I will be amongst those "clothed in white", walking in alignment. We will be amongst those for whom this system's rules don't apply and 'natural' law of this system is suspended. THIS is my vision. God willing, we will be amongst those for whom the new world is coming.....

The system declared me unfit and broken. I won't deny it. But well on my way to wholeness I see a major flaw in that system...the pot calling the kettle black as they say. I see a system designed with the sole intent of organizing and legalizing social services for the sole intent of getting people to work, pushing them to choose careers as becoming a "successful" human being. Then they call their programs a success and pat themselves on the back, applauding themselves and eachother for 'generosity'. And sure, it works for a while. We feel better about ourselves for a while. But then the root problems come creaping back in. Sure, we have jobs and can make our own money, but we are still going home to houses tainted by addiction, dysfunction and confusion. A large segment of society is made up of the 'baby boomers' and they are the ones making up policy. They are notoriously selfish and declare their philosophy of dealing with their children "teaching responsibility". It is simply twisting their own parent's philosophy of being hard-working and responsible to their own purposes. They want you paying for your own addictions, they don't really care that you have them, have inherited them from them. They just want their social security and retirements so they can continue their self-indulgence. It is a symptom of their own fears and insecurities due to an indulgent upbringing. Their parents a result of their generation's fears and issues......So, here I come, a whole human being, nearly perfectly healthy trying to figure out how to support myself and children in a corrupt system that has no mercy without violating my own principles of kingdom first, healthy, "whole"some living. How do I make the money without compromising?

I started laughing. Their numbers provided more than enough social security for their parents, two replaced their numbers in the workforce with three or more children. Because they were selfish, their children could only cope with 2.2 children, only replacing themselves in the workforce at best. Abused and neglected by selfish, self-indulgent parents, even those replacements became unfit for the workforce. They can't support themselves, nevermind a huge generation's social security payments. If those who are retiring are cold and homeless, it is a bed of their own making. But they aren't going down without a fight......they'll just recruit workers from impoverished countries for whom apartments are castles, they'll legalize the illegals they are prejudiced against so they can tax them, they'll legalize marijuana so they can collect taxes, no matter what it takes, they'll make their money.....and call it 'righteousness' and a 'new conscience', 'generosity' and 'open-mindedness'. The biggest arguement for a sudden change of heart in legalizing gay marriage highlighted by the news? All the money that will be made on the weddings! They are wolves who learned what it looks like to be a sheep and they're only intent is on devouring you!

Another ploy of the wolves who discovered from their sensative children how to look like sheep....take away their grandchildren from their children, give them to other people to program for 'successful' careers and developing a 'social conscience' so they'll make the money for their grandparent's social security and the guilty enough conscience to make sure the 'elderly' get their share of it, not just in taxes but in charity . And this is why 'much knowledge brings much suffering', so painful is it to admit to one's self that our own parents do not truly care that most refuse to see it and would rather call me crazy, lazy, disrespectful, mean and ungrateful. Seeing such harsh realities sends them reeling back into addiction. Addiction becomes their excuse for not participating in 'the system', compromising themselves in that sense; better to be a drunk and deemed 'irresponsible' than buy in on it! Persistence in sanity without addictive habits..........can it be achieved and maintained? No need for rebellion against 'the wolves' either.....they will devour themselves or be devoured eventually.

I sought first the kingdom...

I sought first the kingdom and it's righteosness, now I pray that  the truth was told, I can  trust in Him, to deliver, add, to me all those other things. Amen I hope that's how it works, anyways. Of course being accostomed to the spiritual buffet of true enlightenment, I will still crave and continue to seek out that kingdom and righteousness with deeper and deeper  understanding, more accuracy and further enlightenment. But for now, the houses, families and riches would come in real handy!

phsycology of loving somebody

   The "I love you" 's should be shouted louder and more frequently than any criticism, complaints, or ultimatums or the love is not believed. It is only hoped to be true. This is one area where words can speak louder than actions. Actions can be attributed to a sense of obligation and received as feeling like a burden. But "I love you" declared loudly can be only supported by actions, not replaced by them.
    And sometimes you got to stir up trouble to get things moving in the right direction because what the world sees as trouble stirring is honesty and insistence on respectful treating.

Just like our Father and what everlasting life means

     It is said in scripture that God let Himself be provoked by Satan in allowing Job to suffer as well as punishing His people too harshly. It is said in scripture how God became jealous over his 'wife'. Anger, wrath and actions taken in those states of being. A king sins and God sends a plague upon the whole people while the king sits merrily in his castle. Sure he suffered pangs of guilt, but really, the guilty party did not suffer directly, lived a long life and is considered to be faithful.
     So, how is it that God punished Eve for being decived/provoked to disobedience, when God Himself was not above such behavior? It is the same with all of the other behaviors. Mankind suffers for behaviors even God Himself is not above in His Divine Perfection. "Is He just?" thus does become a valid question. Yes, people are unreasonable in their judgements at most times and God's choices mostly just. However, so much of what we do can be attributed to being made in God's image.
     When going through domestic violence educating, I was often sent spinning as I realized how many qualities they would attribute as abusive were exactly what God would do and has done. I saw clearly how like God men actually are. There is no doubt in my mind that God Himself has grown up with us, alongside us. As He comes to completion, so do we. We've all done alot of growing. The only difference is that humanity dies, God doesn't...unless He chooses to return to whence He has come, which I believe He will do when He hands over the Kingdom to His son. for as much as God grows and understanding dawns in us all, He says himself, the root determines the tree. God is unchanging and His roots will always contain what they contained in the beggining. It's too painful to constantly struggle against one's own nature. That is how God is old and tired. Only a new creation can go on living in peace, something without division as it's foundation. Something of a whole, complete, peaceful nature. Something that loved and defended it's Father but understands the reality of the situation and can let Him go, go on living. A new creation is a reflection of the Dance in it's entirety instead. It is whole and complete within it's self, having gone through a complete journey of self-discovery from a foundation of wholeness, purity and innocense. Something that has not sinned against it's self, going through a journey of sinful nature so it has understanding and appreciation for what it is about and where it is going.
   Is life everlasting actually living forever, or is it really only a legacy of consciousness? That i smy question. For we all die,  I have not seen evidence to the contrary. Miraculous, healing yes, but living forever, a ressurrected human who has lived thousands of years I have not seen and no longer believe in. Quite the turnaround for me, personally. i used to take for granted that living forever meant forever living. But it seems a legacy of consciousness is what everasting life means.

The picture is complete!

The gaps that would support my story are complete, indeed the Goddess was involved and shut out.....kept from humanity. The missing pieces were delivered to me via a video on YouTube entitled: The Bible's Buried Secrets Did God Have a Wife.
     Moses was told, paraphrasing, "I am the god of Abrahamd, Isaac, and Jacob, El of the wilderness. By the name YWHW I was not known previously...". El is the God of Canaan, the Father God in a pantheon. His wife is Asherah, also associated with the Tree of Life, often represented on her belly.
     When God, El, shut Adam and Eve out of the garden to prevent them from eating of the Tree of Life, He in effect, was cutting them off from their Mother. All of creation rebelled/went to war in one way or another over it.
       Asherah present as His wife was made known Deut 33:3 "at His right, his own Asherah", depending on which text you use.

And so MY story is complete:
   In the beggining was the Dance. It was all formless feeling and flowing, desire, dancing into that desire's fulfillment, feeling that desire fulfilled which gave birth to more desire. From the Dance was born the desire to observe self.
    BANG! began creation.
    Endless and formless, no beggining or end, there was no where outside of self to observe from. And so space was created from within. When we observe ourselves in a mirror we become "left-brained", critical, observent, unemotional, analytical, unreasonable in extreme reasoning...patriarchal aspects. This was the first aspect to enter the space. It began to observe the aspects that were left, "right-brained" matriarchal aspects. Struggles began then. "She" felt interfered with, raped, forced, molested, manipulated. She was Goddess, he was God. Of them was born the pantheon and eventually man.
   El became jealous of the attention Mother had, felt he deserved it all and like a jealous husband  wanted alone to honor Her. He wanted His authority acknowledged. He tried to squash the rebellion. It was not fully possible, but the Goddess ruled other realms and there, incomplete, she waned as did her people and planets.
    They have learned their lessons and become completete in eachother, they needed. Old and tired, but content and complete, they will retire when the new heavens and earth are complete. That is where Yahushua comes in, Father of the new generation and His Bride, a new Wife for a new God King, a new Goddess for a new generation, a Queen.
    And so it will be, the end of a journey, the end of a story, creation brought to perfection in me.


Also, rectifies the aspects of prophesy concerning everything being brought back into oneness: everything of old will disapear, returning to from which it came, the Dance of the Beggining. The source of all Creation, a Mother/Father being with no beggining or end, the Alpha and Omega, the third voice heard in prophesy.

And now I am back to Crystal Epona

so sweet! my restoration is beggining...

crying for no reason

When anyone wants to influence another to stop another adult's behavior, they love to bring children into it, the world moves to save the children. So, let us say we have a bright, beautiful child that just loves everyone they meet and delights in their surroundings. But the child breaks down crying often, for no apparent reason. Parents try to talk the child out of crying. The child is told it's crying is unreasonable. The child only knows it hurts, the weight of the world is on her shoulders. Someone IS hurting her.All people standing around her doing nothing but selfishness, self-abuse, dishonesty with self, etc are the ones hurting her and that hurt comes up from within the place where our souls all meet......the earth.
    If humanity shares the same soul, is one soul seeking expression through the world's population, (which is why we should treat eachother well), then what would you do to the ones causing this child pain? Would you not let go of the wasted vessel doing nothing but violence to that child, not allowing it to express? Do people not readily call child protective services when they believe a child is abused or neglected. Yet, you yourself are an abuser and neglector of all children when you neglect and do violence to your soul with your hate and judgementalism, self-righteousness and lack of mercy. We go so far as war against those who maim and kill eachother in the name of religion. Should you who causes that child to wake with a stomach in knots at the anxiety of what they will face this day not be warred against? Those knots cause ulcers and cancers, autism, allergies, etc inthe children of this earth.
   So, when God finds His vessel, that soul in expression within whom Holy Spirit, His vessel, can abide without conflict, is it so unjust that He lets go of the rest? 
   

New heavens and earth

The new heavens have been created, it occured this past fall. The new earth is next, earth undergoes her transformation. The woman as well as the planet. What should we expect? Out of her come all things unclean. Off the earth come all things unclean. We are told in scripture "man will be a rare sight on earth", man meaning all souls living. In native traditions, the souls and spirits of animals are called men. So are angels in the bible. They will all be rare sights. No more overcrowding. Animals will not be eating oneanother. There will be no over breeding.

In describing Isreal as a nation, we are told of the Temple, it's grounds or territory. Then we are told of the king's territory around it. Then we are told of a people who enjoy healthy childhoods, long lives and vitality in old age.