ticking off "the spirits of the air"

This is how it happens: exposing the truth about them. This is where my life got hit hard previously. So, I ask the question: should I instead choose quiet acceptence? or is it not going to bring about my destruction again to have spoken aloud? Is this time different as I bring the sword of truth out and take it openly, publically to the truth about this system? This time I am not projecting fear or judgement out with it, however. It is more an acceptence of things, a public recognition. I see you and I see me. I see we are not compatable, but I have to live with these things. I have to 'play by the rules', bend over and take it. Already the vice is being squeezed in reaction: walk carefully, precisely, by the letter of the law......we won't make allowances, no mercy.
This is what I said:

According to popular psychology, I have a zero % chance of living a life of anything other than abuse, victimhood, and addiction. By 5 years old my way of interacting with the world was decided and cemented in. i could give up and just continue in a life of conflict. i could close my eyes and declare it does not apply to me, I was never THAT broken and that I am a good kind of crazy. But that is not what I have chosen. God willing, I will continue to prove their research and conclusions "incomplete". My children and I will be amongst those "clothed in white", walking in alignment. We will be amongst those for whom this system's rules don't apply and 'natural' law of this system is suspended. THIS is my vision. God willing, we will be amongst those for whom the new world is coming.....

The system declared me unfit and broken. I won't deny it. But well on my way to wholeness I see a major flaw in that system...the pot calling the kettle black as they say. I see a system designed with the sole intent of organizing and legalizing social services for the sole intent of getting people to work, pushing them to choose careers as becoming a "successful" human being. Then they call their programs a success and pat themselves on the back, applauding themselves and eachother for 'generosity'. And sure, it works for a while. We feel better about ourselves for a while. But then the root problems come creaping back in. Sure, we have jobs and can make our own money, but we are still going home to houses tainted by addiction, dysfunction and confusion. A large segment of society is made up of the 'baby boomers' and they are the ones making up policy. They are notoriously selfish and declare their philosophy of dealing with their children "teaching responsibility". It is simply twisting their own parent's philosophy of being hard-working and responsible to their own purposes. They want you paying for your own addictions, they don't really care that you have them, have inherited them from them. They just want their social security and retirements so they can continue their self-indulgence. It is a symptom of their own fears and insecurities due to an indulgent upbringing. Their parents a result of their generation's fears and issues......So, here I come, a whole human being, nearly perfectly healthy trying to figure out how to support myself and children in a corrupt system that has no mercy without violating my own principles of kingdom first, healthy, "whole"some living. How do I make the money without compromising?

I started laughing. Their numbers provided more than enough social security for their parents, two replaced their numbers in the workforce with three or more children. Because they were selfish, their children could only cope with 2.2 children, only replacing themselves in the workforce at best. Abused and neglected by selfish, self-indulgent parents, even those replacements became unfit for the workforce. They can't support themselves, nevermind a huge generation's social security payments. If those who are retiring are cold and homeless, it is a bed of their own making. But they aren't going down without a fight......they'll just recruit workers from impoverished countries for whom apartments are castles, they'll legalize the illegals they are prejudiced against so they can tax them, they'll legalize marijuana so they can collect taxes, no matter what it takes, they'll make their money.....and call it 'righteousness' and a 'new conscience', 'generosity' and 'open-mindedness'. The biggest arguement for a sudden change of heart in legalizing gay marriage highlighted by the news? All the money that will be made on the weddings! They are wolves who learned what it looks like to be a sheep and they're only intent is on devouring you!

Another ploy of the wolves who discovered from their sensative children how to look like sheep....take away their grandchildren from their children, give them to other people to program for 'successful' careers and developing a 'social conscience' so they'll make the money for their grandparent's social security and the guilty enough conscience to make sure the 'elderly' get their share of it, not just in taxes but in charity . And this is why 'much knowledge brings much suffering', so painful is it to admit to one's self that our own parents do not truly care that most refuse to see it and would rather call me crazy, lazy, disrespectful, mean and ungrateful. Seeing such harsh realities sends them reeling back into addiction. Addiction becomes their excuse for not participating in 'the system', compromising themselves in that sense; better to be a drunk and deemed 'irresponsible' than buy in on it! Persistence in sanity without addictive habits..........can it be achieved and maintained? No need for rebellion against 'the wolves' either.....they will devour themselves or be devoured eventually.