Existing in the " 'Holy Wow' followed by the 'Peace out' "

And at the moment you realize you are becoming the matrix, you realize everything within the matrix is the matrix and everything outside the matrix is the matrix and there is no end to being aware of the matrix not being aware of the matrix which is at the same time aware it is the matrix and everything in both directions is both "is" and "is not" while it is experiencing awareness of both "is" and "is not" and are found within the knowing we are lost in the endlessness of everything. "Holy shit!" and a dazed-delighted "what the fuck?!" in every single moment from here on out as well as from here on into "haven't got a clue that there is a clue to get". lighter than the deepest "profound!" Nothing but a soft "holy wow". and then a "peace out" followed by another "holy wow" for tomorrow which I have experienced the feeling of already because I imagined what would follow. Holy wow and peace out as it keeps on going and because it is all the same feeling, goes no where else. woohoo! I got it! Lettin' it in!

Ignorance IS bliss!----We are ROCKIN' this costume!

    In duality, we are The Dance experiencing being human having an experience of being of divine essence. We are how The Dance is conscious of it's self, conscious of it's steps. With each divinely inspired realization (check that: no realization is anything BUT divinely inspired because it isn't anything but The Dance at any point) within human experience The Dance realizes/becomes conscious of: "I just expanded!".
    Kinda-sorta like this: in order to forget one's self (stresses, responsibilities, worries, etc) people put on a costume (or gear of some sort) and enter a game (or sport) and during that time are fully engaged in being free of limitations (being unaware of our consciousness is a limitation and all limitlessness comes with limitation-two aspects of divine being: the masculine and feminine of The Dance). While in costume we may realize: I really could be a pirate! or I really could be a hero! or I really could be nurturing! I really do have solutions! I really am strong! And we bring that back to the 'real world'.
   Outside of duality it all exists as one and expands, aware of it's limitless and endless expansion in formlessness as well as form at every micro moment just before it happens. And, well, that is bliss, too ;)

I liked the idea of putting this somewhere:

And then I allowed myself to become lost to both myself and others as well as found by both because I became conscious and aware that there are no others...so I could once again lose myself to the experience of being an other than......while still being conscious and aware that in all things, I am myself.

I like this, too:

To believe there are others to break away from is duality. To believe hearts can be pure or impure is duality. There is no chaff, for the chaff of the human experience is the wealth of the divine experience and even THAT is dualistic for nothing is anything but the divine experiencing experience. To believe in charlatans is to be a charlatan and to even see that is dualistic. lol Rock the costume, man! Enjoy the journey of judgement of enlightened versus unenlightened! Isn't it awesome?! Peace out! or in- as you are choosing to perceive it wink emoticon

Retraining the brain

    Turns out "glitchy"days are not persecution, oppression or trials. As we develop, they become "we are showing you how bomb-proof you really are". I hear something fall in a cabinet. The door slowly begins to open. Uh, oh....stacked the cans too high and the upstairs neighbor's child just jumped on the floor really hard. It seemed to be in slow motion I watched. Hands were filled by a hot pan and two plates so it was drop everything and dash or watch it unfold. Cans dropped, glass flew off the counter into sink, no other harm was done. Had too many glasses anyways. Landing and breaking in the sink was perfect, didn't have to worry about children or myself stepping broken pieces. Not a single flinch. Reminded me of the time when I was standing knee deep on the shores of a lake. I sensed a surealness of the moment and looked down to see one of my daughters face down in the water right at my knees. I reached down with one hand and lifted her onto her feet. Time resumed and everyone acted as if absolutely nothing had happened. No fear or worry was felt by me. Twilight zone for certain. The only scary thought might be "OMG, there must be something wrong with me to NOT feel anything about it!" Nope, it's normal. Everything is ALWAYS in order.
  The process continues to prepare me for full-on embodiment. Recognition of a terrible "MINE!" complex. "I don't want YOUR shit, I want MY shit!". It is a perfect energetic match to "What's mine is mine and what's yours is mine in romantic and other intimate relationships. Uh, oh, we bad. I would also imagine up a product and get depressed because I wouldn't have the means to manufacture it. A year later it is on the shelves at a local store. "Hey! That's my idea!". Or I would be dedicatedly working on my "vibration" and perspective, expecting and feeling myself drawing really good things ot me only to see them side-tracked to neighbors and friends or significant others. "That's not fair!" or "Thief!". Little miss: everything comes out of the group pool of creation (vortex) and everything imagined goes back into it. What we create (is created as a result of our perspective) or what is given to us to imagine is ultimately the creation of Source. Everything receiving the means to bring about the manifestation of something stored in the vortex is an aspect of Source and so everything the manufacturer manufactures belongs to anyone able to receive it. Cool, I'll get first dibs on what is coming out of the vortex if I am quick about this embodiment, lol. Guess what? You're already the last in line. Aw, damn. lol But really, I am truly excited to be able to share good things. Gets old only being able to share the divine blessings of duality. Which if we were still dualistic, we might perceive as shit, *snicker*.
  We can take into account that "Ultimate Goodness" does not care if a body thinks experiencing deprivation is exciting or if deprivation is a beneficial lesson, It only cares that we are appreciating the experience. So if deprivation creates the understanding that excites us to receive, "Ultimate Goodness" is going to deprive you with much as you can take. If you're not excited about understandings obtained by deprivation, you get the world on a silver platter. Everyone gets what they want at the highest levels. So, when we look around, ultimately everyone is happy about what they are doing until they aren't and then everything changes for them.
   I have noticed, due to my body's level of exhaustion, it must have carried alot of resistance into this embodiment process (exhaustion is good, it means the letting go of resistance. If it was still full of resistance it would be hyped up on adrenaline and still fighting it). I cannot really blame it. When I first awakened to the fullness of my then present highest potential it went "POP! Perfection" to: "cat fight!" Oh, yes, the feminines not too happy to see one another. "I have to clean up her mess?!" "This is the bitch who got me into this mess?!". Not pretty. Downright petty. Pretty damn glorious. So back into dimness we went to learn to get along with one another as well as with respect to the brain and divine masculine. Men, couple's smack down. Body got the brunt of it with the deprivation, abuse, neglect, confusion about what was happening. The past ten years have been.....shall we say "intense"? A good laugh about it now. Some pretty impressive lessons. Plenty of demonstrations of bomb-proof. Now we are proving we can even be bomb-proof in a relaxed state, not just when we're so overwhelmed we don't want to muster the energy to resist or judge anything. "I'm over it" is the mantra of one who is thrown down. "It's all good", is the mantra of the one getting a sense of the well-being we live in. "mmmmmm, it IS good" is the response of the embodied, I would imagine. The Ultimate Goodness is a trickster, BTW. It sees all, lets you see a lower perspective then winks and says "they already know that", knowing you believe it is saying the human component knows when it means the highest aspect already knows. sheesh. "Just playing". Ultimate Goodness loves to play as long as it is a way one wants to be played with (that is if the one is the higher aspect of self....human component may not think it is so funny). c-crazy in a funky way.....like groovy.
    As a side note: touch screen technology is kinda like preparation for telekinesis. Hand waving is not necessary, but we do so enjoy the flair of it. And games like Mine Craft are alot like doing what a god does. Our younger generation is definitely being prepped or at least being given an experience of limitlessness within limitation. The Trickster isn't saying at the moment. Which doesn't mean I am being tricked, the human mind is simply being trained to let go and get used to receiving before the request is even made. The Divine knows what we are wanting long before we do. It knows our charector and it's traits. It created it! It desired it and experienced the feeling of it before it ever became form. So passionate!
  So, like, I'm gonna move onto other things now....unless the Divine has other plans.....

Which it usually does. Realize I have to renew my appreciation for "organic" smells. "Organic" reminds me of an unpleasant experience....which I could now develop an appreciation for (more realization in light of previous, they just keep building upon one another)...so that the smell of clean hay even had me repulsed. So, the fur babies (guinea pigs) are contributing to my re-training in preparation of embodiment. Feast of Trumpets 1015 should be a real hum-dinger!
    picture for "cat fight" reminds me of a vision I had just before the "POP!"..a woman riding a black panther sporting whip declared "Now, I'M going to teach you!" I guess she did! lol Though I'm sure I taught her a thing or two as well....she didn't scare me, it was one of those lay back and say "O.K." moments when I had stopped being afraid of "dream things".

The Mechanics of being "psychic"-which we all are

    This is the feel I am getting on the subject as I am experiencing it, my interpretation, if you will.
Emotion comes from the core of our being, at the stomach/intestines area of the body. It is the "sun" shining on our "universe". From there it goes up into the heart which is where we experience feeling. It is feeling empaths pick up on, it encompasses the bust, shoulders, arms and upwards. From there it meets the brain which interprets and translates into thought based on feeling. Your typical "low vibration" psychic picks up energy from heart and brain by energetically entering at the base of the skull, where the pineal gland resides. Supposedly smoking pot shuts down the pineal gland and disconnects the ability to translate higher thought, knowledge and vision into practical/down to earth/lower chakra knowledge and application. Which is why pot smokers always drove me batty: we had the same knowledge but I could act upon it effectively while they were pretty much bi-polar and would beat on me for not subjecting me to their interpretation. Over it. Oh, and lowest vibrational psychics enter via the lower back.
   Now that my "sun" is open and travelling clearly, I am still getting feeling along with the energetic "smells" of energy. I sense that is what is leaving. I will no longer feel other people's feelings-what a relief! This is a bit scary because we might believe "there goes my defense mechanism!" That is not so. We still have our sense of "smell" and have racked up enough experience with various energetic "smells" to get an idea of what somebody is embodying. You jump down enough rabbit holes and you get to notice the patterns of the various archetypes and subtle differences and so can "smell" even the subtle differences. Even if "smell" does go, the central "sun" is accurate enough and can send archetype description to the brain.
   I had better than 20/20 vision when I was young. I had shut down my imagination and refused to allow my third eye to be triggered in my waking state. I didn't even want any part of it in my dream state and so that is how I learned ot hang out in the formless realms. All that resistance, however diminished my eyesight. I now need reading glasses-bummer! But now that my imagination is rekindled, I noticed that the imagination can be used as the mode of transmission for understanding, so I need not be overwhelmed by "visions" while awake or in my dreams. The imagination cover everything-knowledge, understanding, smells, sensations, tastes, etc. It can create a multi-dimensional experience without ever interfering with the physical senses. The physical senses can therefore be used to interact purely with the physical. They should then become fine-tuned again. Awesome!
   Science has proven that merely observing something changes it. So it is with observing past and future events. They change as you perceive them and so a traditional psychic reading someone may say is inaccurate is not, it was completely accurate at the moment it was requested. It was after that moment that it began to change DURING the reading it's self and further with every bit of viewing or imagining. So, prophesying is going to be fruitless. Something may happen energetically but never have a physical manifestation. The less attention and reaction we have to it, the more accurate it will become.
   So, that is the gist of what I have gotten from my experiences.

"The Culling of humanity" and "Ender's Game" memes.....

At the end of a "download" the other day during the Lion's Gate, I was left with two memes "The Culling of Humanity" and "Ender's Game". I had no clue what they could mean. I would know when I needed to know.
   Slowly it has begun to develop, It is the innocence/christ child within that does the choosing. That is obviously the "Ender's Game" meme. Then today I began to get the sense of people or qualities of people and a strong sadness as images of certain things passed through my brain and my response "No, I did not find any appreciation for that". There was no judgement or fear that "OMG, I could not find appreciation for some manifestation of the divine!". And I got the sense of the end of "Ender's Game"....a place would be found for anything unwelcome.
    So anything that inspired excitement deep within us will continue on with us and anything we neutralized with non-judgement/acceptance or simply never struck us enough to get riled up about will find another home.
    It IS important to our deepest, purest, most innocent selves that everything is honored with continued existence. My sadness is at having to admit no matter how hard I tried to find a perspective that would get me excited about seeing something, I just couldn't. We may gripe and complain and condemn, but in our innermost selves we do absolutely love absolutely everything. So, we have this "loving everything" at our core, a middleman being driven through the storm that is our reality and an overseer directing. The overseer directs the outer circumstances to manipulate the middle man to serve the "loving everything" in choosing it's own creation to inhabit. And that is how a new world is created.

Blue sun rising over the mountain 1:1:1

    I woke this morning a couple times. The second time I woke with the mere whisper of a glimpse of something and very clear statement "blue sun rising over the mountain 1:1:1". Went back to sleep and woke to a knock at the door so my processing was happening during an appointment...coffee morning cigarette and someone who does not acknowledge belief of their own awareness. But my processing takes priority...I choose it.... and she is my witness as I am hers as I see her skimming the surfaces, not ready for the depths, but she lets me speak and express, acknowledges were it is going. She sees it.
   I know exactly why people don't want to go through this process. It is the finest, deepest, most piercing cuts of pain too intense to really even feel it.....almost. It is perceived. It is nauseous. The topic is an appointment to keep, arranging rides, babysitter, etc. My inner being wails at the wrongness of it, a violation to my sovereignty, a raping of the needs. Oh, and how people hate the use of the word rape and abuse to the inner child. "You take it too far!"  "Too graphic!". No, it is I who failed to take it far enough, it is I who resisted the graphic nature of it. In spirit it is depicted accurately: dead, sliced up bodies everywhere, impailments upon trees, missing limbs, blood everywhere, men, women and children suffering graphically and completely denied even when it comes to be seen with their physical eyes right in front of their faces in the "real world" activities of wars, murderers, rapists and child molesters. It is all but a mirror, a graphic representation of what the most upright, loving individuals are doing to one another with their smiles and support systems to help the "needy" navigate their system of rape, abuse and intolerance.
  I have said it before but I will say it again just so that it is clear: food, shelter, clothing, sustenance, the excesses are ALL a natural right. Never mind the asinine idea that one must work to eat.....one should not even have to make an appointment in some welfare system! Such a requirement of time and raping of personal information to prove adequate suffering has been accomplished in order to 'deserve' the means to sustain a life which such a process in it's self is destroying! Only when everything is free will humanity be. And yes, at first the "needy" will binge, yes they will horde until they can trust it but then something strange happens......they feel peace and need even less than what we consider the most barest of basics, Their excesses are our normal allowance. The body begins to relax and heal, the mind releases it's tension and the ability to think clearly and reason comes in. Everyone wants to create and the desire becomes natural and inborn when this happens, flowing freely so that contributing to oneanother's well-being is an awesome opportunity, an exciting privilege to serve self's desire to nurture into completeness anything.
    It is achieved and so it must come to be in physical realty.
     The very thing I have admired of men is the very thing that in some cases might cause them to put up more resistance. Men tend to put something in a certain place in their mind and there it is protected forever. There's a security and stability in that ability. It makes them appear to be a source of strength in any storm....unconditional lovers of anything they put in there. So, they carry pictures of their wives when their wives were young and fairy like. That is how they see her and that is how they treat her and that is how they present her regardless of her own behavior, the ravages of time upon her body and a completely changed appearance. But the locked boxes must be opened if the truth is to be acknowledged within them. Their inner child is locked away in a box along with the inner feminine, screaming at the violations being committed against him. He slams the lid down harder believing they are just unruly and uncooperative, lacking understanding, oh so foolish. The good news is: once the new paradigm gets locked in, it will not be moved and they will be the rocks the old will break it's self upon. They will be our staunchest defenders and protectors and justifiers.
    Over the past few years, I have seen a sun rising over a mountain "in vision", but it immediately began to sink again...just on the edge I have been, but now it has pushed it's self over that mountain and is shining brightly and clearly from within. A blue sun. Perfect alignment, masculine, feminine and child.......creator, creation and it's physical expression, all chakras lined up and flowing fluidly, working perfectly.
    We have been here before and for good reason fear it. So, here we are again.....will it be outwardly manifested? Breathlessly waiting for the consequences, stepping forward tentatively, wanting to go running and leaping into it, excitement rising with each step taken....expectation....manifestation is near.....

The judgement on judgement

So, if I am feeling this judgement thing correctly, than we judge that which we see because it is a reflection of something already in us we have already judged ourselves. For example: we believe child molesters are the world's worst evil. In that case we have a belief that we ourselves energetically violated our own inner child, someone else's inner child or a physical child. So, we could hate child molesters because we told a child they couldn't have candy and stay up late when we really felt they could, we gave in to what we're "supposed to believe" instead and thus believe we violated that child. Or maybe we hate our inner child for causing us to be playful at a moment we believe inappropriate or making us feel pain we don't want to be feeling and so we feel we are abusing our inner child in some way. Or maybe we know we are too old, mature or worldly wise for someone we chose to have a relationship with, even if purely platonic. Any which way, we judge what we see only when we have already judged that which we are seeing as it exists within us. So they key to non-judgement is to release all self-judgement.
The opposite extreme of course is idealism. We idealize something about our self and then idealize it everywhere we look. For example: some idealize childhood, infancy or the teen years when in fact they are the hardest years of our lives. We get the picture....