POW!-now I KNOW I've got it!

I was sitting there wondering how it is that I am perfectly matched to my environment if the Law of Attraction is entirely correct. INTERPRETATION! My response/interpretation to free flowing 'kundalini' is excitement about and delight in everything. I am a perfect match to the two year old who lives below and the two year old that lives above me. They come out and can barely contain their own excitement with clenched fists while they screech in pure ecstasy. The one below pounds the floors all day and the one upstairs pounds the floor all night. Never fazes me because it is a match to my interpretation and therefore not disruptive.It's the adults I was stumped by: all the arguing of one couple, obnoxiously loud next doors down, the raging illnesses below....RAGING, RAMPAGING! I got it! lol Yup, I am in a perfectly matched environment. We're all rampaging in one way, shape or form. Of course I like my interpretation best, as I am sure so does everyone else! lol I have a feeling I will go forth unblinking from here on out. Another OMG! I just realized the irony of it: miserable people are easily irritated by truly happy people so they are getting more of what they are responding to by my "irritating' presence. I rejoice over understanding all this and so I get more of what makes me happy. It's a perfectly matched energetic exchange! What appears to be opposite is not opposite at all! Brilliant! Another OMG! moment: this explains EVERYTHING! Just when I used to get on a roll of doing well and being me I would be knocked straight out of alignment due to what appeared to me to be conflict. Instead, I was attracting those with the greatest momentum (rampage) in my environment which usually happened to be control freaks, the most covetous, etc. I happen to be allergic to control and the worldly version of responsibility (usually see the responsibility in any situation to be placed differently than anyone around me), I happen to be extremely generous in opinions as well as possessions, allergic to materialism which is a direct contrast to the majority. I therefore DRIVE THEM CRAZY, making them even more determined to control, abuse, take, shake me in any way they can, at which point I loose momentum thereby disappointing, frustrating them: not giving them what they need to be fulfilled by the relationship. Holy shit! My mistake was not seeing the correctness of this 'colliding', thus fearing it and in my fear of it (resistance to it), I drew more of it! Mind blown. I'm free. heeeeeeeeeeee I also happen to be the last person to pick up a cause/mission, etc and thus draw those intensely focused upon them. Their predisposition toward momentum about causes makes me their cause: the need to convince me to have a cause! or to "teach" me. Wild sadness, which means releasing of fear surrounding all this...ecstasy soon to be back again. I see the signs! moments later down the road of increasing momentum: And we do not stop at ecstasy, hell no! I was reflecting at how if I keep that vibration going my life experience is about to get "FULL ON!", oooo full on means lots of pheromones, I LOVE sex! (oops, sidetrack, heehee) Excitement increased in momentum becomes passion, passion grows into intensity and my focus-my 'eye on the prize' is ultimate goodness=a high speed locomotive with no breaks heading straight for unlimited goodness focused on everything in my environment, intensifying it, hand choosing in each moment what to continue to focus on and thus bring into the world in abundance......talk about influence! 

Now I KNOW I've got it!

Physical rejuvenation DOES happen! and I have documented proof!

e upper chakras, the processing came down to fear, followed by sadness, followed by wide open delighted. The process was rapidly speeding up to just observing instead of guiding myself through it. I observed my body was taking over the process without my conscious interference. Then I sensed a pocket of resistance under my right breast (approximately). "So, what, sweet darling, might you be?" I got the sense of a moment in which my brain and a co-conspirator were observing a little "she" trying to push at the blockage in my digestive system two years ago before it completely shut down. The pocket of resistance was the reluctance of the body (the little "she") remembering the attempt she felt was unobserved because I had just been sleeping and the feelings of inadequacy at being thwarted as well as anger at being restricted from doing what she does best. Empathy for her and healing and now instead of bomb-proof and fearless, I am simply wide open. And the rejuvenation/reversing of the aging process had already been well under way as I noticed with clarity today. My hairline which had thinned and began receding when I lost it from going under anesthesia has curls growing in around my face, my hair is thicker than it was when it began to first grow in and what is now growing in is no longer growing grey. Last year this time I was just beginning to get my legs under me enough to walk on my own and I could barely raise my arms over my head. today I'm doing yoga poses with arms up, lifting heavy furniture and carrying it up many stairs, going up and down playing with children, etc. And having gone from there to here, I thus have documented proof that this miracle is indeed a real event! I am blessed!

Feeling bored?

Boredom is a lack of inspiration. Be excited, for it means a new source of inspiration is wanting in! Remind self of what has in the past been inspiring, let "being inspired" begin to flow through you and voila! that new source of inspiration will flow right in with it!

Helping women become self-empowered

Self empowerment can only come through the self. To teach women to be self-empowered does not come with addressing fears. You take away their fears and you dis-empower her of that privilege. You address what you believe is "what is" in reference to social injustice and you only validate social injustice. We already exist in an age self-empowerment. It is here, it is now. We need only act like it, form new habits of interaction that are in alignment with that fact. So, to "self-empower a woman", one moved to teach such a thing would be an example of self-empowerment his or her self. They would treat every woman as if she is empowered already. Even if it takes her a while to make a decision because she is struggling with dis-empowerment, make it your privilege to wait on a woman. Be the man in this song! lol
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=izo9w1ElWdc

Wasn't the ego. it was always the heart-heart centered consciousness

The problem was never the ego. The problem was the heart, where thought, fear and divinity meet and all the resistance begins. Fear hurts the ego and the heart defends. In the heart is where hatred begins. The job in this new energy is not to become heart centered, but to clear the heart so we can be "sun" centered, so it stops blocking the divinity shining from within. So, to be "heart centered" is to center our focus on healing the relationship with our own heart.

"I want"-the force of god of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob-I have the Central Sun!

 
 Now that my lower body is clear, I'm observing the processes of my upper body. I noticed when I hear from someone else or when I think "I want", it feels like an energetic shove from behind. It is written in Hebrew and Christian scripture that it is god who puts ideas into the minds and hearts of man. We know energetic entities called god are real. It is a shove in the upper area, which denotes "higher power". Everything god is reported to put into the hearts and/or minds of men has been to their detriment. He put it in Pharaoh's head to resist letting the Israelites go so he could continue to bring plagues upon them. He put everlasting life into the hearts of men knowing that to be in want is to disbelieve we posses it which is resistance and thus makes embodying everlasting life impossible. It is recorded that it is he who commanded angels to block the way back into Eden and thus access to the mother goddess, the tree of life. In the end, the Isrealites made out like bandits, getting paid to leave Egypt basically and in this end, I have found my way to the Central Sun within my own being and am thus free of the need for a tree of life that had already grown within me. My treasures in heaven are useless to me in comparison to this divine connection to my own central sun. And so I speak to this god who has for so long ruled over mankind. "The New Jerusalem" has already descended from heaven for me, my thoughts came down to earth to focus on the truth within, to awareness of my human temple, the temple of my own god-my ability to think cognitively with clarity and translate what it is receiving. And yes, it is a bitter sweet release of one who has been daddy, provoker, brother, playmate, satan and lover-all things to all men. Stay or go, whatever you wish. I shall not resist. Give or take, I am used to the state. For that game, there is no longer life in me. My central sun, she brings me such delight! She brings me so much peace! She brings me great integrity! She brings me "sweet" and easy and graceful and strong. There is no end to the gifts she brings! So, keep my tree, let it be a consolation for you. Keep my be-jeweled wall, for you, may it be strong and enchanting to look upon. Keep the fruit of my womb that you have kept from me. I have two that fit me perfectly. They are so sweet and endearing and feisty and so quick to catch on! I have connections who may or may not become friends outside of your circle of influence. And if you take it all, in a state of unconscious, I won't know of you or any of these things at all. It won't matter whether they come or go. threatless, then. Powerless threats and I am sad to know you know that. I shall hug and hold you long. I have my Central Sun!

When you become aware of eternity, passing of a baton to Your costume is ready

    The last of the downloads, tail end of an experience I suppose:
    When we become aware of eternity we become aware that there is ecstasy and pain in every moment. How intensely we experience is determined by how intensely we focus. We are the intersection.
     We spin constantly within the mirrors that endlessly reflect into other mirrors, energy of physical manifestation coming from the right and energy of the non-physical coming from the left in each and every rotation. While spinning some see only darkness and it's reflection. Others see only light reflecting back at them even from darkened mirrors. Some are aware of all the options, the subtle nuances and "whiffs" of differentiation. The faster the spin, the quicker one gets through the pain, the more subtle it is, and the quicker to their desired focus.
   Something like that anyways.

   Down into the more practical applications: Those who had been anchoring the 5th dimension are now anchoring in the higher dimensions while taking on the higher aspects of the 5th which they will be serving. The anchors for the higher dimension are with us always already, before we even begin to embody the one we are entering. They merely take on a "whiff" of our present reality so that they can reach us as well as demonstrate how to rise up once again. So, we shall feel the higher dimensions we are anchored in, anchoring them in the present while having to focus on the lower a greater number are trying to embody. While the 5th dimensional embodiers are assisting those stuck in 3rd and 4th, those anchored higher will be serving those of the 5th.

   So, I once again don the war paint. I shall once again be experience direction through choices and circumstances that do not resonate, being mistaken for one who is resonating with them..being perceived as something "I ain't". There will be pain and sadness in this while also delighting in the growth and manifestation of others' embodiment. I have had my moment in the sun.

Goddess. Your costume is ready.


add on: next day, loosening and releasing of energies in the upper body meaning-I embraced a potential and so it sailed right past me. Resistance would have caused it to remain. Acceptence made it real for but a moment and then released. Yay! I truly am free!