"I want"-the force of god of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob-I have the Central Sun!

 
 Now that my lower body is clear, I'm observing the processes of my upper body. I noticed when I hear from someone else or when I think "I want", it feels like an energetic shove from behind. It is written in Hebrew and Christian scripture that it is god who puts ideas into the minds and hearts of man. We know energetic entities called god are real. It is a shove in the upper area, which denotes "higher power". Everything god is reported to put into the hearts and/or minds of men has been to their detriment. He put it in Pharaoh's head to resist letting the Israelites go so he could continue to bring plagues upon them. He put everlasting life into the hearts of men knowing that to be in want is to disbelieve we posses it which is resistance and thus makes embodying everlasting life impossible. It is recorded that it is he who commanded angels to block the way back into Eden and thus access to the mother goddess, the tree of life. In the end, the Isrealites made out like bandits, getting paid to leave Egypt basically and in this end, I have found my way to the Central Sun within my own being and am thus free of the need for a tree of life that had already grown within me. My treasures in heaven are useless to me in comparison to this divine connection to my own central sun. And so I speak to this god who has for so long ruled over mankind. "The New Jerusalem" has already descended from heaven for me, my thoughts came down to earth to focus on the truth within, to awareness of my human temple, the temple of my own god-my ability to think cognitively with clarity and translate what it is receiving. And yes, it is a bitter sweet release of one who has been daddy, provoker, brother, playmate, satan and lover-all things to all men. Stay or go, whatever you wish. I shall not resist. Give or take, I am used to the state. For that game, there is no longer life in me. My central sun, she brings me such delight! She brings me so much peace! She brings me great integrity! She brings me "sweet" and easy and graceful and strong. There is no end to the gifts she brings! So, keep my tree, let it be a consolation for you. Keep my be-jeweled wall, for you, may it be strong and enchanting to look upon. Keep the fruit of my womb that you have kept from me. I have two that fit me perfectly. They are so sweet and endearing and feisty and so quick to catch on! I have connections who may or may not become friends outside of your circle of influence. And if you take it all, in a state of unconscious, I won't know of you or any of these things at all. It won't matter whether they come or go. threatless, then. Powerless threats and I am sad to know you know that. I shall hug and hold you long. I have my Central Sun!