What I was given to envision during Supermoon Lunar Eclipse 2015

       The right to life includes the inalienable right to everything needed to support it......a statement I have for years been living with. This event emphasized that statement with the addition: NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO WORK FOR IT. The implications of that mean a world completely transformed.
        Artists are cheerleaders. Stories can be written of how the transformed world is created. They can tell the stories of how the glory, strength and inspiration comes to 'manual laborers' that give us things. Every home and place of human activity could be painted, designed, decorated by artists expressing the love and appreciation our world is founded upon and for the people occupying it. Songs could be sung to and of those planting, tending, harvesting and processing the things we eat, the things that nourish. Dancers tell stories of love and devotion and creation with their bodies, beating the message and feelings into the earth's body, sharing a holy communion of energy.
       Every endeavor is an art form....the art of cooking, the art of cleaning, the art of constructing, the art of gardening/farming, of food preservation, of presentation. We are all artists and creators. We cheer each other up and cheer each other on with our willing contributions to one another's experiences.
       A new world must be built on a new foundation for the the foundation of a failed world is it's self a failure. If we want to move on, we must do it completely.

Program running in the backround

      Here it is the day we are expecting the eclipse and full impact of whatever energetic event we are expecting.
      So far I have "accidentally" put my finger on a hot pan as I took it out of the oven only to notice it did not get burnt. When my child's tablet wasn't powering I unplugged the charger and the tip of the charger came off, my fingers brushed the wires exposed and then I un..plu....gg...ed....i...t....WTF?! I "should" have been electrocuted. Sitting at my computer last night my chair on rollers began to roll, the water in my water glass sloshed around and my desk it's self was shaking, my children sitting in the other room noticed rocking of the building as well.

End of homelessness and paradox of powerlessness

     As we ascend and come into a state of wholeness or even just come to terms with our circumstances (which is how I initially got out of homelessness), we being to emanate a comfort within ourselves, a sense of 'being at home' within ourselves as well as our environment. In the case of one who is ascending, their expanded aspects begin to exist in alignment with the body that was previously given over to duality and begins to hum with the vibration of "home". Housing must be provided. The concept of not being housed begins to vanish from one's experience. We may feel an obligation to help with homelessness but in all reality nothing about homelessness will resonate with us, not even helping, the circumstances simply won't be arranged energetically for regular participation. We are not in any way ABANDONING anyone, ourselves or our mission, we are simply expanding out of it, demonstrating by example that it can be accomplished and this is how you do it. No greater help can be given. By allowing this process to occur, we ARE fulfilling our mission. It does not mean we won't be able to make a greater contribution at a later date, it simply means the hands-on, ground level involvement has ended. It is time to embody abundance instead, get that overflowing so it can spill down to those who do need the help.
    As I was given to reflect upon that bit of information I was introduced to the paradox of having a deep sense of powerlessness. What one is doing is observing their environment and naming things "unconquerable", "unfathomable", "overwhelming", "insurmountable" and the longer one makes such observations, the more they begin to resonate with those energies. They begin to emanate "unconquerable", "unquestionable", "insurmountable", "overwhelming", "unfathomable". Everything needed to support those vibrations begins to come in: the intelligence, ideas, ability to enact them. It wins revolutions.
  That is why those at the top of the pyramid create enough energy to oppress and feed off misery while maintaining the "bread and circuses", big systems of hoops to conquer, and "democracy" to support the perception of freedom. We cannot perceive something as unconquerable if we can conquer it in the voting booth (or at least believe we can) or with a bit of peaceful protest. It is not overwhelming, unfathomable if I can hire a lawyer who understands it and help me. Nothing is insurmountable if I cab anything (within the system) I want to be....go anywhere, do anything....of course they are more than willing to feed those ideas to our children. And then when it doesn't work out, we're told it is our fault and we "just need to do this". We keep hoping, striving, rethinking, brainwashing ourselves with affirmations, etc.
  But when we come down to nothing and realize we really are not accomplishing anything, really are not free, etc we give up in the face of such masses of people who are buying into it......we begin to be overwhelmed.......and we are set free by it.
   Now, one might argue: you cannot begin to say you are unconquerable and consider yourself to be honest. You are human, you have a body. True. But I also know I can vibrate with "unconquerable" without any resistance to it's perception or lack of perception and everything to make me unconquerable must come in. I can look at a problem and think :"too big" and having freed my inner self, "too big" begins to be delivered instantly energetically.....when I allow for that understanding/accept that perception instant physical manifestation becomes a closer reality. So, we can look at something too big and sinister and evil and respond with "oh, you big sexy, deliciousness of too big to handle......come to me!". Without dependency upon it's response or becoming a cooperative component to it's activities...I just want to draw forth from within me that energy (frisky wink). Makes the mountain very uncomfortable and it leaves. I've become "unfathomable", too overwhelming to figure out.  We take what we want to accomplish very seriously, however we approach situations with a lightness of being as is it is a mere game we are playing....we are deadly serious while we are smiling.
   I am still quite sweet and endearing.

Hopping off the resentment train----rabbit hole warning...long and deep!

      I was watching the "Ulay, Oh" video and could not get enough of it, had to watch it again and again. It just wrenched something up in me. The journey through what that was and the effects of that journey were interesting as well as liberating. The basic principle is the closing of the heart to pure love. In order to remain faithful to that which had to be left behind/left unrecognized within us. This created resentment. So I had been vibrating with resentment, resentment about my own journey. T?hat resentment towards my own journey was felt by my children who resented me to focusing on my journey instead of on them fully, though if I had no resentment toward my perceived 'being forced' to take this journey they never would have picked up resentment toward it. They would have rejoiced in that which I was rejoicing in. Unfortunately my focus on and resentment of created resentment in my oldest who then felt a sense of competition towards my journey into darkness. This motivated the going even deeper into 'darkness' than I ever had, to prove themselves 'better' than me. Resentment and competition breeds unworthy, insecurity and the negativity is compounded. One must know one's limits when making such a journey and so I trust they will return from their journies because to be "better than" me......they would have been even more wise and sure they had counted the cost effectively-they would have had to know their own limits perfectly. Now looking back I see that this is true for at the moment of separation from me, my oldest told me of a dream she had where she had fallen over the side of a cliff while a "he" continued on through a cave where she then met him. She would survive her journey through separation.
   As I reflected on all this, the idea that I had left my one true love behind to accomplish something......I felt something come in from behind me, stretching my etheric body. I wanted to puke immediately as a wound was released with all it's toxins into my digestive system.....mourning, deep lamentation. Watching that video, that experience and allowing myself to identify with it opened the door to receiving this re-integration of an aspect which I associate with divinity as it came from behind me-from within the presence, ever present, I can never see but I always sense as benevolent, all-knowing.
   I did wonder what it was I felt was so damn important I would do this to myself and to my children: I had to know this resentment would occur and spread like a plague to my children. Then I went to sleep.
   I woke remembering I wanted to apologize to my youngest two and let them know what had happened, why they felt resentment from and toward me. They got it. There was healing, tears. At 6 and 7 years old, that they get this shit, is totally amazing. As I reflected further on how easily spread resentment is, I expanded my view beyond my children, toward my neighbors with whom I have had problems..."Don't go there" it was suggested "their resentment did not come from you, they are a reflection of yours only because they had resentment of their own already, it did not come from you".  As soon as that idea was introduced I felt a release of energy in my abdomen, on the right side.
      Then I went back where my children were playing and my daughter was upset that her Lego figure had come apart when I put it away last night. She projected a slight whiff of blame/resentment at me, but it did not echo within me, there was nothing within me to latch onto or bounce off of, I absorbed it no way. I could 'smell' that it was hers and hers alone and she let it go. It 'smelled' so clean, lol.
   So, I have danced and sung out my journey through this, becoming an even more expanded, free-flowing expression of love, joy, excitement, freedom. My two youngest are further liberated. We begin a day with happy. We emanate happy into our future. And it comes to me "it does not matter why we took this journey"...whether it be to answer a call for help, to retrieve something, to gain something, to save something, to prove something, just for the fun and excitement of doing it....we had to cut ourselves off from aspects of ourselves to do it. And in that way, we are all the same.
   I am given to realize as well that expansion is pure energy. Once momentum is achieved, there is no stopping it. It is not like our physical creations which can be diverted, claimed by another by their declaration of ownership of everything in our environment. To try and stop it is like trying to use a stick to stop a freight train at full speed. No, expansion becomes unstoppable, we only need to allow for it to happen and all our reason not allowing have evaporated as we are introduced to the fact that our expansion is the only true way to help others and our very DNA broadcasts every bit of information to our children and any who share the same so that their expansion cannot be prevented...for they also know the reasons we have no need to stop, nothing to hold us back, no reason to look into the past. There is only a future which is already established for today's expansion drew/created tomorrow's, it is already beginning and so tomorrow must exist because the one to follow is already on the tracks and moving at a high rate of speed. The destination is already achieved and changing with me in every moment with every addition. Steady, fluid movement into a world of being.
   And then I run into the neighbor I have had trouble with, as usual those in my environment are empowered by my presence. They have become more bold, more free, more dedicated to their relationship, more cooperative to one another's dysfunction.... and this boldness, as usual, makes them more intent on harming me. But now I know to whom to give credit instead of resentment that they somehow stole power from me. There is a new dimension within me worth exploring....releasing victimization created from when this previously happened and all was taken from me when my personal development empowered others who I had become physically dependent upon, who had the law on their side-their corruption reinforced by a corrupt system. I would have been jealous of their laughter, their freedom of movement, their camaraderie, the support of the community, But now I know I have my own form of camaraderie, I have my own community, my own freedom of movement....they might not exist in this physical environment, but they are no less real, no less physical. You cannot claim my expansion and you cannot take it from me. When I leave it comes with me for it originated with me. If one does not know how to achieve it, they cannot hold onto it. So, not only have I gotten stronger, their imagined strength becomes a weakness for they shall invest their future on it's basis only to have it leave....leaving themselves unsupported until they can begin their own process.....which they will because empowerment is felt and wanted again and so they reach......and their expansion becomes guaranteed unless they they disallow it for the reasons I know are no longer valid and they will be told by their own embodying of my borrowed energy.........but I saw clearly today during this process that my releases are born of courage....it takes such to drop the armor we had been using and trust something stronger lays beneath, for wasn't it what lays beneath we protecting and had created that armor to begin with? Can we let go of the perception that which lies beneath is weak? Can we trust that we have established it and strengthened it's placement? And now I understand their resentment for they feel this sense of empowerment, which originated and was borrowed from me and when I leave, it comes with me.....they blame me for thievery.....'Indian giving'---as if I gave them something and took it away again....but I never gave it, I emanated it, shared it and I cannot help that it comes with me, is a part of me I cannot relinquish. So now I know I do not need to feel guilty which would further empower their resentment and control over me....no regrets.
  No regrets but I can  cry for them briefly while I let go. None of it makes a difference to me, but I understand it makes a difference to them-a difference they themselves can achieve. I am at such peace.....and now a hypocritical peace comes a whispering...that of one with power over another, corrupted...or have I simply perceived it/judged it as such because it's presence in my experiences only existed in another when I felt to be the victim? Indifference, I judged it, instead of at peace with the (perceived by me) power to make a difference with a perceived unwillingness to do so.....knowing now it is an inability due to conditions, it would not be appropriate because we can only help ourselves in achieving the energetic conditions.
   So I do not resist this "hypocritical peace", I allow it to linger until it passes through, is lifted, or drawn into the core of my being. I am comforted with being given the knowledge it is nothing my mind needs to mull over or examine for it's origins for it was not a product of this physical human experience or the mind inhabiting it.
     It is given to me to to get the sense of how at my "quickening", the higher aspect had chosen to focus it's self only through me. This meant it withdrawing it's self from other human beings through which it had been projecting. All it had projected and not resolved in those other human expressions has since then been drawn to it through me/this human being. The example is given of a world leader who had projected the energy of hypocritical peace was no longer resonating with the higher aspect which had projected it/was expressing it's self through it...so it had found it's way to me. I was given to see that this is how the middle class of any society is always crushed by the drawing of upper and lowest classes being drawn towards one another energetically. The energies being projected by them become a vice crushing that which is between them.
    The thing with "being in the vortex"-one becomes a part of everything coming in and out of it, pure energy flowing through both ways......riding all energetic waves......within one's body......

camaraderie was the wrong word.........awareness of others with similar consciousness to connect to in concert with through sets of conditions/circumstances/experiences.



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CAID_2iKO5Y

Let's re-write some history

  Some very intense energetic days lately, have definitely not been online as I had been more recently. I can feel every cell of my body working non-stop to expand it's self to accommodate the embodying of ever more powerful energies. I sing to "pray" and after singing my loudest, it went even louder, broader, deeper, reverberating multi-dimensionally. Knocked my sicks off! And then the stories began coming.........
  My consciousness was brought through a "dark blob", conscious but would appear not. It was it's mistress who brought me through it, not it's master, more it's friend it responds to unconditionally. No one except this consciousness may pass through and so to bring another through she must become one with them. Anyone else that irritates her-the mistress-or tries to get through, the black blob will not hurt, but it has loads of fun with them in what most would consider a sadistic fashion.....they never want to even attempt it again..then it spits them out anywhere it pleases where the intruder's consciousness matches...it adores conflict and ironic humor. It is never drawn into it. The mistress is similar, she never gives herself over completely to any experience or feeling, there is no story she will "buy", no state of being she would be lost in. The two of them are one, in a perpetual state of delight and embodied of such power that cannot be matched, overcome, questioned or conquered. His blackness makes her light shine all that much brighter.
  I keep being reminded of Maleficent, the movie.
  In this time of separating, she has come to claim a few things. The bible speaks of wisdom, of a female consciousness....."I AM That I AM" rejected wisdom with the words "One more pure has been chosen"-read here: one with less sexual experience. Well, what do you know: his virgin has chosen wisdom over her "elevated" position, which only left the witch He began with......and as soon as He expressed his affirmation, she also chose to leave with Wisdom. Oh, my, my, my, now whatever shall happen to that prophesy? He'll think of something.
  We have also decided to re-write history: it was not Eve who bore Adam children, no it was Lilith. Eve's heart only ever belonged to Satan....oooopsie! Who the fuck curses their own daughter with yearning for a man who hates her and blames her for all his problems?! She and Satan live happily ever after. That Earth you cursed that she could not freely feed her children? (Did not your son do the same to a fig tree? Nope, apple did not fall far from the tree)You get her skin to wrap yourself in, dead and flayed from her crystalline body- you seem to like that kind of thing...... was that not how you clothed Adam and Lilith? Of course Lilith delighted in all of it. You'll get no more children from her, the Earth, ever again and as for feeding that which is yours that have not chosen wisdom and ascended...they are all yours for eternity. Your day of rest just got interesting!
   All those crystals "programmed" with energies just shed them, they're ascending as they were naturally intended. Control, manipulate, interfere: most definitely children of the "I AM".
  Oh, those consciences you could not respect: consider them my gift......you will now live with them as we did as we are not the ones with them any longer. Idiot "I AM"ers-it is not feeling/emotions we who are ascending are losing, it is our conscience---that hypersensitive aspect that made us so self-reflective, questioning our own judgement that we might seek out other perspectives and expand our consciousness......uh, oh......you'll subject yourself to them fully and there will still be no relenting of the condition. Hate it when that happened...but oh, wait, is that not what you did to me?
  Inside out and upside down are all getting turned around.
  The surface is all light and love and gentle, respectful and sweet, but the black blob lives beneath that surface. It has no preferences. It has no 'mercy'. So we get to be the purity we had within minus the vulnerability. Nothing affects the black blob.
   So, we take what we want and we go now, in perfect peace beyond understanding. It appears there is nothing to understand when one has no conscience....but you knew that already. We have the PERFECT perspective.
 

Self Whispering

   I said to my cells "Whisper to me of your memories of the future we've created, of a valley and forests, of streams and trees. Whisper to me of fluttering fabric on a canopy, of settees upon which my children will wake with me. Whisper to me of french doors open upon a balcony, curtains blowing upon a breeze, of tropical islands and clear blue seas. Whisper to me of mountains, covered in a blanket of snow, of a cabin at the base of them to where we can go."
   My cells whispered me to sleep. In that sleep I dreamed. A younger woman in a bed at whose side I sat as a servant. On the other side her betrothed and before her an older woman in a chair. The older woman wanted the place of the younger...they began to confer, one with the other, and the presence of the man vanished as I found us in a restroom. I slipped on urine soaked floors and did not want to touch the clogged toilets to lift myself up, I dreaded my state of appearance. "Do not focus on that, you are clean." the older told me. They decided they would make us a fellowship and break out on their own. I was touched by their boldness, felt their independence which they proposed. They gave me a title and attributed to me certain qualities, certain abilities. We would venture forth creating our own destiny.
   I woke, remembering the feelings of the state of being: bold, independent, self-supportive. "Whisper those feelings to me, of boldness and daring", to my cells I instructed.
    When I stepped outside I noticed the wind had continued blowing. All day the clouds had been by rapidly and at a steady pace, yet the weather was unchanging. I "smelled" war, the sense of which I remembered obtaining when one's consciousness focused it's self into my body upon it's waking a few years ago. Through it's consciousness I saw and felt it had been in the Middle East amidst bombs falling, guns firing and the smell...the smell of war. The energy of that war is upon us. Because there was no fear in 'her' when that smell first came back then, I felt no fear in response to it now, today.
    Focus. Focus on keeping up the whisper as I continue my day. By IT we shall be saved.
    Living playscapes for my children in our future...they reached to attack them, I tamed them immediately, choosing a different response from them....why would this be? The left brain had introduced it, interfering with my right brain imagining. Ah, yes, the part of me I developed to distinguish disruptive behavior so that I would disturb or offend anybody, always taking negative responses into account. Lately the children have been "breaking out" in response to the energies, laughing, rough playing compatibly but loudly late into the evening when down below as well as above neighbors would be sleeping. All my cells must open, nothing can be hidden, I must be aware of the existence of such things. I must allow in the innocence, the light, the freedom. No longer concern myself with possible disturbing or disruptions; no else will exist to disrupt, disturb or offend where we are going.
   I sensed a part of me, an organ in my midsection reaching in memory and it was stopped immediately. Where ever it was going was somewhere we were no longer going. There was not even time for the thought of who it might be that part of me was wanting to consider.
  Again I tried to reach for images of the future to be attacked by a great darkness, to which I responded with a smirk "There is only me"....it left immediately.
   There was sinking in my stomach as I realized there was no longer a male entity present within me or to take into consideration.....like a ship that cut it's anchor to to make it's own way upon the sea. Sense of security must now live in me.
   Bouts of a crying breath here and there, an inner scream of energetically tearing out unwanted aspects that I considered parts of me.
   So, it was left: a fellowship of three boldly setting out to their own galaxy..........
But then I began to think: why would I ally myself with one who wanted the place of the other and one who would abandon her position, swayed by one who would take it? Just what did they covet? Of whose making is this galaxy? Was it not me? Have I not been set free, been given my sovereignty?
   And is it not so that if people are engrossed and distracted by war, they will be too busy to notice a shift in their state of being? Would they only be able to imagine the limitations they began the war with, unable to fully realize a new state of being, new abilities, new ways of creating? There would be no time for processing.
   Things worth considering........though I shall instead go back to feeding and focusing the whispering......

Super big shit Friday

 Woke in the midst of vision where "I" was conferring on a battle plan and the female holding back attackers suddenly went silent. I woke and realizations/applications began coming in...laughing, crying, realizing implications........
    When I was in first grade I was tested for genius program. One exercise was to put pictures in order. One was an empty wagon, another a toy being placed in the wagon and another a child pulling a filled wagon. I placed the picture of the child pulling the full wagon first. The other pictures, to me, were irrelevant, so I just placed them in whatever order. I failed the test and continued to attend regular classes. It did not make sense to me why I had failed it. You desire, imagine and it happens. That is my experience. Everything else in how it is brought about is up to the angels, they've got this. It does not matter HOW they manage it. It is only in a time limited, dualistic "reasoning" system that steps are required: get the wagon, fill it and then pull it down the road. No, that is not how it works. You want to pull a wagon full of toys down the road, the next thing you know you're pulling a wagon full of toys down the road. The story we experience in slow-motion, time constrained physical logical system is parents buy you a wagon and toys, you fill it and then you pull it down the road. the child does not always go to the store with the parents so they do not know all about working a job, getting a paycheck, cashing the check, going shopping and bringing home a wagon.
   So much of my life I have spent crying inside at the world's responses saying "that is NOT how this works! This is not RIGHT!". When I was subjected to the rules of our time laden, structured dualistic system I felt abandoned by the angels, attacked by those who explained differently.
   This morning I realize why a simple action or response would draw accusations of being "unworthy, weak, pathetic" or "arrogant, selfish, self-righteous, egotistic". In duality, simply being does not register in people's brains. All perceived events must go down one of two channels: good or evil, unworthy or right by birth or right by virtue (of work, achievement, status, etc.). The idea most natural to me: "All deserve the best of what they believe they want and/or need" had no place to register in the human brains around me. And even when they did, I would see the knowing glean in the eye of angelic presence STILL denying me. So my perception was that they were consciously oppressing me. This was not true. Conscious, yes, but enforcing me to "play by the rules" for my own good at my own original request. Now, some, yes, rejoice over doing this to me and are going to push it upon me every chance they get until the end of the final hour. But they can't because now I am aware that they can't. they'll resist to the end and they can have those breadcrumbs because the loaves of gourmet I have in storage are more than enough for several lifetimes. Plenty to spare and it makes them happy.
    They are even relieved at our awakening because it brings relief from our constant attempts to prick their consciences. We are SOOOO annoying.
   So gone are the days when to get anything we had to assert a "right" to it "above others", which (never felt right,a lie, filthy and dirty) or plead from "unworthy"(which felt like a lie, filthy, dirty)...we get to just be and ask please and yes, thank you.
   The waters are still right now as the flow through duality ceases and the flow into wholeness and abundance begins. Expect changes. Where darkness existed within surrounded by light, darkness is going to be the grid around light. "The dogs in the outer darkness" Upside down will be turned right side up: from bad is good to what is good IS good. Instead of a choppy up and down roller coaster it will be smooth continual flow. From slow to speedy.
    Mother of all Jubilees has part in this as we all return to our "original possessions": states of being and spirits inhabiting beings of only certain regions. Love and joy of experience will be present in every being and every state of being is wanted by "God"/The Dance so it can flow into it's desires in vehicles already prepared and engaged in it's desired experiences. "Evil" is an aspect of The Dance, anger, sorrow, etc.....and so it years for those experiences and some people really are happy feeling desperate, angry, in need of rescuing, etc. States of being are like a game of dress-up we play as a child....it's just a fun movie and The Dance as well as we, get to act out any charector we please. Some of us are programmed/given to be pleased to embody love and peace and joy and romance, those breathless first kisses.......everything just is what it is and it is happy being what it is, love flowing regardless of conditions.
  So, I get it.
The human oppressors truly were not capable of knowing what they were doing...."know not what they do." They physical capacity did not exist in their brains.
  This also means those who are still stuck in being light fighting a darkness are a part of the "outer darkness". Let's face it: some people get off on make -up sex. I do not. The concept of having sex with someone I have passionately argued with just does not resonate with me. BUT I can rejoice with those rejoicing, cry with those who are crying and that makes me a part of the "inner light". Those who foresee new money systems and governments, laws and restrictions will be a part of the "outer darkness" for in the inner kingdom/the inner light, everything is freely available and abundant. Such constructs are seemingly ridiculous. BUT I can allow for them without judgement, reward for hard work CAN feel rewarding. So, I can rejoice with those rejoicing over their achievements. But, within the inner sanctuary competition is just succeeding in producing the failure of another. "Winners and losers", "conquerors and conquered", "achievers and non-achievers"......won't exist in the inner light, they shall exist in the peripheries and on the other side of them will be the darkest forms of those extremes. At the core, there is no evil/good, just peace, love, joy and they are recognized in even the greatest darkness.
  if there is conflict with MY perception, that is O.K., you are not SUPPOSED to believe it....your place is not with me. I will even reinforce it by actions YOU can interpret as wrong/evil for your own satisfaction. THAT is the magnitude of my non-judgement towards you. And in your disgust, you will keep yourself away from me-the inner light kingdom of creation. You won't WANT to be near me and that guarantees my safety. For the love and truth of it cannot be denied but the conflict it creates in your reasoning is too great to handle...it cannot be resolved and so is denied/refuses to be addressed. The love flowing within both vessels is incapable of conflict for it is ONE love. That love will not allow for resistance or outright attack.
  Innocence in it's purest form is immortal, incorruptible, unconquerable, and effortless. THAT is what I have been given to embody.