Isn't it time?

     With all the patience and softness in the world I was reflecting on how people who make a living doing "animal husbandry" really aren't doing anything different to those animals than most do to their children: give birth, send them to the sitter so we can work, off to preschool to "fatten them up" for school, and off to school to "fatten them up" for college, and off to college to "fatten them up" so they can feed themselves into the machine to make money to purchase goods to be "productive" "contributors" to "society" which is nothing more than a programmed way of interacting that keeps the machine running. No one who eats meat is a hypocrite, they eat goats just like the allow the system to eat their children.....we are ALL lambs being led off to the slaughter and for what? Because divinity wants to show the Dance what it looks like to it? So "we" can reach our "highest potential"?
   Well, here we are, call me what you will, do with me what you will, but dear divinity, isn't time? Time to cash in the chips, let go of the need to force perception, make another see, decide what is "highest"........
     Just a glimpse of the highly charged emotional journey and in between my son feels what is happening and trying to get my attention with silly antics so I dance into mommy mode; "You ARE enough. You DO bring happy into the world. Sometimes we have to cry anyways. It's not your job to make mommy happy", he acts like he isn't listening, doesn't want to hear. Give it a minute, it sinks in "OK mommy, I love you"
  Dancing back into reflection and conversation and the divine is searching my heart when I make a statement I've made several times before. Something clicks..."NOW you get it?"....the divine is sometimes slow on the uptake, needs things to it's satisfaction....
  Dancing back into mommy mode at "mommy I want to decorate for Christmas, can we get Christmas decorations" and I am wrecked "I think we have a couple things from last year, I'll dig them out of the closet" while my heart screams out "There will be no "Christmas" this year. How do I tell a child there is no tree coming, no presents, no big dinner? Mommy can go close her account and get $30 for groceries next week and then it's all shit's creek"......and nobody hears.
  Back to the weight of creation back on  my shoulders...the killing of joy in a child because we want to reach our "highest potential", so you can show me what I look like? It couldn't take a break for a week?
  Dancing back into mommy mode as the boy puffs out his chest and says "Look!". "Oh, big tuff guy". "No, I'm not!", he's upset. "Bub, it's O.K. to be both a little boy and a big tough guy, THAT is our MAGIC. We can be both things, we do not have to be one or the other. Love your magic, Bub. Love your big tuff guy and love your little boy inside". "OK, I love you mommy". Damn...another freakin' generation needing comforting, liberating...
  And now I am on my knees...isn't time? Yes, I am weak, yes, I am gorgeous, yes I am wise, yes I am talented, yes I miss things, I am everything and yes, that's O.K. with me, yes you can oppress me, yes you can deprive me, yes I can get up again......I have been bold, I have said what most wouldn't in ways that can be accepted, non-threatening, non-judgmental. I have learned the lessons, I have seen and empathized with your perspective, I have softened, I have given and you have taken. I have kept to myself and you leave me abandoned.
  Somewhere in there I feel a quiet release and acceptance, the ease is coming, the gifts will be given...rejoicing and all I see is an empty fridge....I know the gifts: visits from spirit to fuck with my head.......and leave children crying. Am I drop in the ocean or the ocean in a drop...in this moment I don't care. Through it all: not a shred of bitterness in me. I am at peace, in the core of my being.
"Mommy can you tuck me in?". "Sure baby".
You have your fully embodied one; be content.

Full Embodiement

    Convinced I wanted to "cash in the chips" of our collective vortex, I "said my prayers", "set my intentions", danced and sang my way into good feeling energy and lay down for a minute. I let my gaze shift to the inside of my forehead and ho! if they weren't waiting. Looking alot like a black and white drawing come to interact with me they applied something to my left eye and I felt a jolt as if being hit by a stun gun and my entire body jumped. They then moved to my right and I tensed, ready for a repeat of the event. I "closed my eyes" and nothing happened, so I "opened them" again. Nope, they were just checking my outward flow from the right eye. So yes, left eye receives and right eye sends. Apparently whatever they did to my left eye was successfully flowing again out of my right. A man appeared before me like an ancient guru with arms crossed, hands tucked up voluminous sleeves. "It has been a long time since I've seen a fully embodied one." was all he said and I, myself was off to sleep. I woke having sweat the sweat of the burning up of what no longer serves this physicality, my shoulder and neck pain gone and an exasperated human brain. "Really?! Making me another odd ball amongst humanity instead of the lottery?!" Yes, I have spent my life pursuing spiritual gifts and whatever this "fully embodied" means is probably the holy grail and yes, it would be just like my spirit to put "fully embodied" on a street corner begging for money to feed her children instead of a bit of luxury. So, I say; "If we have an 'eternity', then we have as much time to give this physicality the gift of a bit of ease as we do to costume her up as a homeless person to touch humanity....we have seen Jasmine of Disney's Aladdin, haven't we?".
   And no, this fully embodied one isn't pulling off that yoga pose. lol

Some Sweet Relief

    Where others might cry tears of frustration, victimization, or cry out in rebellion, I'm just relieved at the latest realization I've been given to consider.
     I was suddenly unable to scan documents into my computer. An odd development, but with constant automatic updates, my computer is always changing so I thought nothing of it. That was until I tried to get a mysterious $50 taken off my internet bill. I knew I had payed more than the original price given plus every month, the full amount. So what is this extra $50 that keeps showing up? Finally I get someone to tell me it is a networking charge. When they come to hook up your internet, if they network your computers, printers and whatever else needs it for you, they add this charge. I didn't have them do that: I had only one computer and the printer is plugged directly into it so it didn't have to be networked.......until they got a hold of it! ah ha! So that is why it wasn't working when I tried to scan documents into it!
  Now I think about all this. If we don't pay these charges and can't get them to take them off, we end up in debt. The debt is sold and a mark goes against our credit. With marks against our credit we are a "credit risk" unable to rent a place to live, buy a home, etc. So, we meekly pay every theft out of fear of being of poor charector: "A credit risk", "a weak application", "homeless" "one of those people".
 The reflecting didn't stop there, for it's not just the utility companies that steal through trickery. When it comes down to it, we are to be "responsible", "productive members of the community" by working most days of our life to purchase stolen property. Someone killed someone to take the land that delivers the resources to make or grow the things we buy. We are slaves forced to work to get what was rightly yours or someone else's to begin with. And the self-judgement if we do not keep that good credit and good standing in the community as a "producer" of income to pay into it. And if frustrated or disheartened, there are tons of gurus and speakers out there lifting spirits and convincing people to also become thieves selling "feel good mojo" to rejuvenate you long enough to get you to want to jump back into the system to "claim your abundance" full of light and love. Life coaches, motivational speakers......OR you get the "tough love" approach from the right-wing "you deserve what they're trying to deprive you of because you worked for it!". All of designed to gear you up to being that full-throttle gear in their machine. If you don't want to sell your time, body, or mind...you can always sell your spirituality! Pay me so much and I will let you feed off my spirit and all it's experiences! woohee!
   But gone are judgments about how people make their money. Who are we but cogs in a wheel trying to do the right thing, caught up in something that's got way too much speed. Nothing in it worth saving but letting it go means a perception of uncertainty and fear of oppression, even violence done to us for simply taking what we need. We would all have to quit at once, all police and military simply laying down their guns and an emptying of prisons of those we are told are thieves for doing exactly what our governments do "for us", just on a smaller scale and far less back-up.
   So, I am free of self-criticism and judgement about whether or not anyone else would view me as responsible, productive, loving, hard working........why would I care what thieves and their unthinking, fearful minions think of me? I simply do what I am given, cry in relief of the weight of judgement I've been wearing and allow myself to more fully embody soft ease and well-being: that's the life for me!

Word psychology, what's really in a name?

A bit word of word psychology.....and why new words may or may not be needed.
I began this life with a name; "Stacey". Without fail, every time that name was used a sum of feelings would be summoned. The insecurities of youth would always set the stage for how what was about to be said to me would be received. Then I happened upon something magical: in exploring paganism I was encouraged to come up with a "magic" name. I was moved to choose Crystal. First it was Crystal Epona (Epona being the Goddess I could relate to) and then I was given "Morningstar" in place of Epona. Ms. Crystal was highly respected for her knowledge and courage and effective communication skills. An exasperated "Crystal...." held no power over me, for Ms. Crystal knew her own being and there was nothing derogatory to be said of it. Now if someone used an exasperated tone while stating "Stacey", that would have been a different story. Eventually, Ms. Crystal was the only experience that resonated with me and even the name "Stacey" could no longer be used to summon insecurities. So, I let go of the Ms. Crystal construct and resumed using my given name. I spent too much time having it proven to me I have plenty to be proud of to even entertain the implication that I do not.
I see this alot with common names women are called. The energy with which they are stated is inherited and ingrained in our DNA, as are the responses. These names, however, were originally compliments, high status, or simply neutral. Some examples:
Virgin. Virgin never meant a woman who had never had sex. Virgin meant a woman whose body was not occupied by a child: not pregnant or nursing. So, every woman, whether having had sex or not was a virgin unless she was pregnant or nursing a child. That changed to "untouched by a man" and highly prized and then to an inferior state of inexperience no teenager wanted to be in.
Whore. A whore was any woman who was not committed to a man. The virgin who had never had sex, was an adult and independent was a whore. Whores did not exchange sex for money. Eventually they became prized and so men would offer them gifts and money so the whore would choose them above other men and then it became sex for money and negative when virgins were newly defined and sought after so men could control biological parentage.
Cunt. From the words like Kunta (ironically also Qua ran-yes, the Islamic holy book). A cunt was the word used to identify a wise woman, a holy woman, a priestess, the most revered people in the community as well as their knowledge (female intuition, women's wisdom, etc.). Anyone would have been flattered if called a cunt. Then the age of religious patriarchy came and no one wanted to be pointed out as the village holy woman because it meant torture and burning at the stake. That's when fear and repulsion became associated with being called a cunt. Cunt, was never an insult. Yet, it was said with tones of condemnation and received with insecurity or anger, becoming the hottest button that could be pressed in a woman.
So, these are all words we have pretty much stopped using in mainstream. They only exist in the stagnant cesspools of misanthropy that cling and linger in the wake of awakened society.
Do we reclaim them now that they are "safe"/"cleansed". What would we replace them with? Person? No, "person" is qualified by being human, in relation to man/males of our species which is labeled as "homo" sapiens, male and feMALE. Virgin, and whore both denote a woMAN's state of being in relation to men/males. Even PRIESTess is a derivative of a male/masculine station.
We could use no names or titles at all. That would mean we could not talk about one another. To get one another's attention, we would have to approach one another. That would lead to all sorts of effort, making the value of each interaction greater.........the picture could wander from there. That would free us all of gossip and other people's perceptions. Is the world ready for such.......
Or, maybe we need new words?

Stand up and make Her claim

Claim of the Queen

Let her daughters stand and be her voice, claiming her dominion in, on, and over Earth.

There's a new femine rising

     There's a new feminine rising and she's not looking for a place in man's world. She's not looking to be the sexualized corporate paper-pushing legal-speak Barbie version of an insecure, overbearing man. She's not the "save the world" "love them all" schizophrenic or narcissistic version, either. She's the "let it all burn while I walk over here and do my thing without a care" version. She's the Earth in answer when man says "Look at this bridge I've built!": a mountain rears up from the middle of that river; "What bridge?".  Where man says "Look at this house I've built" and she replies; "So sorry, I planned a sinkhole there". She's the Earth who will send pestilence upon all cattle to end the factory farming that is destroying her surface. She's the Earth whose volcanoes are beginning to blow. She's not out to get anyone or anything, not a goddess of vengeance, she's simply a woman cleaning house.
    She's innocent and nurturing, strong and independent, soft, sensual and thoughtful, playful and daring, etheric and magical. She's the evolved version of every god and goddess who has ever lived. There is no other purpose but hers and her only purpose is to exist in wholeness and well-being. She is the quiet purity whose whispers shake foundations like thunder while she doesn't feel a thing or have a care.

The Immortals Incarnate

  Several years ago when I began channeling consciously, I was given a quick "view" of the idea that long, long ago Immortals Incarnate (immortal physical forms) ruled the earth. They could not get the mortal people to understand how it was they brought oppression and torture upon themselves, that which is now popularly called "The Law of Attraction". Things escalating, "having gained an unstoppable momentum", the Immortals chose to "dis incarnate"/allow their physical bodies to be killed rather than annihilate everyone and everything moving on our planet. I didn't get the significance of this until recently. I just thought them "thanks, cool story but irrelevant as far as I can see".
   Now I get the relevance. They began to incarnate as mortals, forgetting their immortality, so they could experience and thus understand how it was mortals could not understand how they brought bad things to themselves. The immortal's hearts never hurt when they responded to the Law of Attraction and so they never experienced the connection between pain and blockages in the brain....PTSD. Now they know. Now they can temper their responses to the Law of Attraction without hindering the alignment with Source. Today's present "throw love and light at everything" causes more harm than good because it pulls one out of the flow of Law of Attraction/Divine alignment/Justice, etc. We have learned we can state what we are experiencing, giving the Law of Attraction expression while not traumatizing the one drawing the energies.
   And so it is, that understanding has been achieved just as we enter Earth's latest stage of evolution which allows for the return of the Immortals Incarnate.