At some point we have to admit we are different. We have to admit we were intentionally created directly with purpose. We were created for this moment in time when we could feel/experience the full effects of this system late enough in it that we would not have to experience death. We will never have to ask why or put God to the test. This intentional creation not completely inexperienced of the first is how it is possible to create a new earth that will never experience destruction.
first creation was unintentional creation as in: it was born of desire. The next earth and new creation is intentional with a purpose. It is fully conscious of what it is doing, what is wanted and how to achieve it.
Sunday, March 31, 2013
What if? Adam and Eve
This morning after noticing I was, in spirit, interacting with a long lost companion, the question came to me: What if the spirit was Adam and the body was Eve? What if Adam was rejoicing over being given "flesh and bone of my own" rather than "flesh of my flesh and bone of my bones" as we understand it. What if that yolking they lost at their fall was the spirit disconnecting from the body? That is why Eve would yearn for her "husband", because they would be seperated. What if his having to toil to receive fruit from the earth was the same kind of toiling and digging for answers one must do to receive the Kingdom? Both soul and spirit would have to come to understand oneanother without that yolking/connection that made oneness effortless if respected. "He" would have to dig into her to come to know how she felt, come to gain her trust enough to give up her fruit:honest expression of her feelings and perceptions without which he could not exist in the physical. Spirit feeds, controls, nourishes, sustains the body. She would have to seek him out, gain his approval for him to give her life continuously, but to get the understanding from him to get his cooperation and willingness to sustain her, she would have to subject herself to the great pain and suffering of his "blind" attempts. (blind because he was no longer yolked to her, in that oneness, psychic connection where he feels her every bodily function, movement, and feeling, experience). Were the first men created the spirits over/of the animals including humans? And then God decided to yolk Adam, man/spirit/angel over humans to it's own body?
When I was a child, I awoke from experiemces where I played with a blonde boy child at family functions. When I awoke again to my spiritual awareness, I had a 'mate' I was paired with. We were like highschool sweethearts; eachother's firsts and onlies. I explained to him that he hurt me and so I was going to be with someone else for a while. He understood completely why and how. Sadly, he let me leave. We would argue and accuse like a pair of inner children, him complaining of my 'weaknesses', me crying at his harshness, lack of compassion, judgement, impatience, etc. "She's doing it again", he would tattle. In observing them, I was parenting them it seemed. And then now, this morning I awoke from an experience where I was speaking warmly with him. I realized he had returned, that we were again together and my time with the other had completely ended.......on Easter morning rather than passover, I also noted. I rejoiced at our being back together again, but I sense it must not be completely.
But, it is that experience which gave me the basis from which the question/answer could be proposed/presented.
When I was a child, I awoke from experiemces where I played with a blonde boy child at family functions. When I awoke again to my spiritual awareness, I had a 'mate' I was paired with. We were like highschool sweethearts; eachother's firsts and onlies. I explained to him that he hurt me and so I was going to be with someone else for a while. He understood completely why and how. Sadly, he let me leave. We would argue and accuse like a pair of inner children, him complaining of my 'weaknesses', me crying at his harshness, lack of compassion, judgement, impatience, etc. "She's doing it again", he would tattle. In observing them, I was parenting them it seemed. And then now, this morning I awoke from an experience where I was speaking warmly with him. I realized he had returned, that we were again together and my time with the other had completely ended.......on Easter morning rather than passover, I also noted. I rejoiced at our being back together again, but I sense it must not be completely.
But, it is that experience which gave me the basis from which the question/answer could be proposed/presented.
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Covenants and vows
Been given today to do alot of reflecting on this issue. In gathering as a community, should we make vows to stick to that community, to commit to other people, is it appropriate? According to the Lord and Master of all things as recorded in scripture: "it is better to make no vows" (when speaking about swearing by the Father or anything under heaven). "For we do not know what tomorrow will bring". We are but human. We are not in charge of our fate or our destiny. We do not know what tomorrow holds.
When questioned about whose wife a woman would be after having been married to seven brothers, Yahushua's reply was "those destined for the ressurrection are neither to be married nor given in marriage". We are not to make contracts, I am given, "because you belong to Me". God has covenanted for me (paid the price for my freedom). No agreements unless God agrees.
I often wondered about marriage. made the vow before ever knowing I was meant to be destined for Eternity. Until his death, I am under the law of my husband. That is easy because his "law" says "When it comes to Rachel (his 'wife') don't even go there" and "stay away from me". He chose to be dishonest and unfaithful, setting me free and taking upon himself any guilt for any sin I might be committing in his absence.
I do wonder about a friend whose wife moved her boyfriend in. My friend left. His law says "I will tolerate no competition", I guess. her sin is on her in this instance. "Does that leave my friend now free to be with other women?", I wonder. Or is he bound to be faithful to his commitment until his or her untimely death? Does he justly punish her by being with other women?
When Isreal failed to fulfill her part of the covenant, God vowed to take another "woman" who would be faithful while declaring He never gave Isreal a certificate of divorcing. He would claim His rights over Isreal as 'wife' AND have another....a bride for His son, actually. One He has chosen and trained since her beggining. You make a vow, you pay a vow, Isreal will be faithful, He would see to it, as her husband. The other is to provoke her to jealousy.
When questioned about whose wife a woman would be after having been married to seven brothers, Yahushua's reply was "those destined for the ressurrection are neither to be married nor given in marriage". We are not to make contracts, I am given, "because you belong to Me". God has covenanted for me (paid the price for my freedom). No agreements unless God agrees.
I often wondered about marriage. made the vow before ever knowing I was meant to be destined for Eternity. Until his death, I am under the law of my husband. That is easy because his "law" says "When it comes to Rachel (his 'wife') don't even go there" and "stay away from me". He chose to be dishonest and unfaithful, setting me free and taking upon himself any guilt for any sin I might be committing in his absence.
I do wonder about a friend whose wife moved her boyfriend in. My friend left. His law says "I will tolerate no competition", I guess. her sin is on her in this instance. "Does that leave my friend now free to be with other women?", I wonder. Or is he bound to be faithful to his commitment until his or her untimely death? Does he justly punish her by being with other women?
When Isreal failed to fulfill her part of the covenant, God vowed to take another "woman" who would be faithful while declaring He never gave Isreal a certificate of divorcing. He would claim His rights over Isreal as 'wife' AND have another....a bride for His son, actually. One He has chosen and trained since her beggining. You make a vow, you pay a vow, Isreal will be faithful, He would see to it, as her husband. The other is to provoke her to jealousy.
The collapse of the inner black hole
As I reflectively wrote of receiving a gift, I noticed part of the inner process was a relief, releasing....the allowing of the collapse of an inner black hole at the letting down of a wall around it. God would not have allowed for it unless nourishment for it was coming, so it's collapse is exciting! But with it came a few understandings:
Women like me don't accept gifts from just anybody. (I write women, simply because I cannot assume it is the same for men, but I acknowledge it very well could be). When we accept gifts, we allow in the energy behind that giving. So, for example, if the giving comes with strings, we feel trapped, forced, violated allowing ourselves to receive it but especially so when we the thing given and have no other way to obtain it. We are very sensative to WHY the gift is given. That space with which we receive is sacred. We nourish ourselves from the energy that exists within it.
Because of bad experiences, that place becomes a black hole within which we allow nobody. We simply learn to do things for ourselves. Allowing others to do things for us is far too costly emotionally. Now, some can receive things from anybody regardless of intent. they have that wall up and no one is getting in. They are cold, unappreciative it seems, and become 'users', abusive, thieves. Then there are those who let in anyone with anything because they have no wall of protection, they desperately want to fill that void with anything. Women like me will throw a gift back in your face because we can't trust you; you hurt us. But once in a while we let down that wall temporarily, as long as the exchange is good energy. Then when any reason for fear aproaches, that wall is back up and good luck penetrating it!
That is why people give coldly, from the head they give gifts inappropriate to the person or circumstances. They give from a guilty conscience, or what the conscience dictates, it's safe; they've done their 'duty'. Some of us can give from that same place we receive while still seeing to wall maintanance. We give gifts that suit the person and occassion perfectly and even might leave the door open a bit to allow in the possibility that a gift is going to come in similarly. But, we are always at the ready with that door handle.
I have reached a state of exhaustion. Maintaining walls is exhausting. Giving constantly without receiving is exhausting. I am in a wait and see what happens mode. Letting it all down and waiting for occassion to determine the response appropriate. Wall or no wall, we shall see in the moment discernment is needed. It would be nice if it meant something good is coming!
My Facebook post that started this train of thinking:
For some reason getting a package in the mail from someone you know is awesome. You know they selected something, then took the time and resources to pack it up carefully/thoughtfully/
Women like me don't accept gifts from just anybody. (I write women, simply because I cannot assume it is the same for men, but I acknowledge it very well could be). When we accept gifts, we allow in the energy behind that giving. So, for example, if the giving comes with strings, we feel trapped, forced, violated allowing ourselves to receive it but especially so when we the thing given and have no other way to obtain it. We are very sensative to WHY the gift is given. That space with which we receive is sacred. We nourish ourselves from the energy that exists within it.
Because of bad experiences, that place becomes a black hole within which we allow nobody. We simply learn to do things for ourselves. Allowing others to do things for us is far too costly emotionally. Now, some can receive things from anybody regardless of intent. they have that wall up and no one is getting in. They are cold, unappreciative it seems, and become 'users', abusive, thieves. Then there are those who let in anyone with anything because they have no wall of protection, they desperately want to fill that void with anything. Women like me will throw a gift back in your face because we can't trust you; you hurt us. But once in a while we let down that wall temporarily, as long as the exchange is good energy. Then when any reason for fear aproaches, that wall is back up and good luck penetrating it!
That is why people give coldly, from the head they give gifts inappropriate to the person or circumstances. They give from a guilty conscience, or what the conscience dictates, it's safe; they've done their 'duty'. Some of us can give from that same place we receive while still seeing to wall maintanance. We give gifts that suit the person and occassion perfectly and even might leave the door open a bit to allow in the possibility that a gift is going to come in similarly. But, we are always at the ready with that door handle.
I have reached a state of exhaustion. Maintaining walls is exhausting. Giving constantly without receiving is exhausting. I am in a wait and see what happens mode. Letting it all down and waiting for occassion to determine the response appropriate. Wall or no wall, we shall see in the moment discernment is needed. It would be nice if it meant something good is coming!
My Facebook post that started this train of thinking:
For some reason getting a package in the mail from someone you know is awesome. You know they selected something, then took the time and resources to pack it up carefully/thoughtfully/
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
For God so loved the world....what does that mean?
Scripture tells us God sends rain for three reasons. The first, His priority, is for the land. Second is discipline, too much rain to drown us off His land. The third is blessing...we have sought Him and His righteousness and He wants us to live in it.
God gave the Earth to man and told him what was required to care for it. I remember when my 4th daughter's grandmother gave her Easter eggs to die and play with. Grandmother then got angry because my daughter began to peel them, explore what was in them, "destroy them". Grandmother became covetous and wanted the eggs back, had an agenda for them, didn't want them "wasted". They weren't being wasted, they were being apprecated and played with. She gave them to my daughter, which gave my daughter the right to decide what to do with them. It is unrighteous to give something with conditions. Grandmother hopefully learned she should only give a limited number of eggs to children if she wants some left for the holiday and eating.
So, God gives in. He does not want to see sinful man dying, but what can He do about it? We keep seeking that which leads to our destruction. Today I told my 5th daughter to eat. She said no, she did not prefer that which I was serving at that moment . I told her to be grateful she had food to eat because not every child does. She said "Uh uh", denying the fact I just told her. I reminded her it was disrespectful to contradict her mother, call me a liar and then understanding began to dawn on me for today's discussion/writing. We do not have food because we are preferred over other people, are more righteous or deserving. If it were up to us our land would be stripped and demolished with no food growing, nothing for animals to eat just like all the other war-torn countries that were stripped and blown up so that they became deserts. We just happen to live in a land God is preserving. It is the only reason we are eating. He is saving seeds for repopulating, an animal diversity for repopulating, little "arks" of land for the future, investment, investing.
God did not give His only son to buy back sinful people who do not want to be a part of a new world, He sacrificed His son for the land, the Earth, "the world" and it's natural inhabitants. He bought back the original gift which He gave to Adam. He will give it to another people in whom He has written His Kingdom, who are guarenteed to appreciate it and do what needs doing to take care of it correctly. God did not buy back man, he made a new man in His image. He bought back a land that is experiencing destruction and people to inhabit it.
We think it is all about us, but it isn't. We are just beasts like any other animal. Even apes have opposible thumbs and can reason. No, the war is between God and His Spirit children who occupy, control and posses us if we allow them. His war is over His creation, His land which His enemies are destroying. The ones He gave it to are already deceased, the land is dispossessed, over run by rebellious children. He is buying it back and will fill it.
To believe otherwise is "the pride of living". As if you had anything to do with it. As if you deserve it. As if you did anything to continue it. We can only be grateful He allows us to exist, for the sake of His land and His name upon it. We set none of this in motion.
*Literally translated this is “the pride of living” (ἡ ἀλαζονεία τοῦ βίου). This is not the typical Greek word for “life” (ζωή, pronounced zoe). The term here is βίος (pronounced bios) and it refers to “the manner in which one’s life finds expression” (BDAG, βίος.) It “denotes life with respect to actions and possessions” (William Hendriksen, Commentary on James the Epistles of John, Baker, I Jn 2:16.) It is taking pride in what I am, what I do, and what I possess.
from: http://mbcpastoringlobe.wordpress.com/category/sin/
God gave the Earth to man and told him what was required to care for it. I remember when my 4th daughter's grandmother gave her Easter eggs to die and play with. Grandmother then got angry because my daughter began to peel them, explore what was in them, "destroy them". Grandmother became covetous and wanted the eggs back, had an agenda for them, didn't want them "wasted". They weren't being wasted, they were being apprecated and played with. She gave them to my daughter, which gave my daughter the right to decide what to do with them. It is unrighteous to give something with conditions. Grandmother hopefully learned she should only give a limited number of eggs to children if she wants some left for the holiday and eating.
So, God gives in. He does not want to see sinful man dying, but what can He do about it? We keep seeking that which leads to our destruction. Today I told my 5th daughter to eat. She said no, she did not prefer that which I was serving at that moment . I told her to be grateful she had food to eat because not every child does. She said "Uh uh", denying the fact I just told her. I reminded her it was disrespectful to contradict her mother, call me a liar and then understanding began to dawn on me for today's discussion/writing. We do not have food because we are preferred over other people, are more righteous or deserving. If it were up to us our land would be stripped and demolished with no food growing, nothing for animals to eat just like all the other war-torn countries that were stripped and blown up so that they became deserts. We just happen to live in a land God is preserving. It is the only reason we are eating. He is saving seeds for repopulating, an animal diversity for repopulating, little "arks" of land for the future, investment, investing.
God did not give His only son to buy back sinful people who do not want to be a part of a new world, He sacrificed His son for the land, the Earth, "the world" and it's natural inhabitants. He bought back the original gift which He gave to Adam. He will give it to another people in whom He has written His Kingdom, who are guarenteed to appreciate it and do what needs doing to take care of it correctly. God did not buy back man, he made a new man in His image. He bought back a land that is experiencing destruction and people to inhabit it.
We think it is all about us, but it isn't. We are just beasts like any other animal. Even apes have opposible thumbs and can reason. No, the war is between God and His Spirit children who occupy, control and posses us if we allow them. His war is over His creation, His land which His enemies are destroying. The ones He gave it to are already deceased, the land is dispossessed, over run by rebellious children. He is buying it back and will fill it.
To believe otherwise is "the pride of living". As if you had anything to do with it. As if you deserve it. As if you did anything to continue it. We can only be grateful He allows us to exist, for the sake of His land and His name upon it. We set none of this in motion.
*Literally translated this is “the pride of living” (ἡ ἀλαζονεία τοῦ βίου). This is not the typical Greek word for “life” (ζωή, pronounced zoe). The term here is βίος (pronounced bios) and it refers to “the manner in which one’s life finds expression” (BDAG, βίος.) It “denotes life with respect to actions and possessions” (William Hendriksen, Commentary on James the Epistles of John, Baker, I Jn 2:16.) It is taking pride in what I am, what I do, and what I possess.
from: http://mbcpastoringlobe.wordpress.com/category/sin/
"Preaching the Kingdom"
We are told the Kingdom would be written on the hearts and minds of those God chooses. Thus, when we speak what is on our hearts and minds we are preaching the Kingdom. We are preaching the effect the world has upon the Kingdom, what the Kingdom's reaction to this world. Seeing as very little of the world is not in opposition to the Kingdom, our hearts and minds are constantly assaulted by the world, violated by it. So, yeah, we might do alot of complaining about people while expressing the joy of what is within ourselves.
Oh, and I received clarification of a few things: it is within the year to come that His purpose for me becomes complete within me. So at the end of this 'year', I will be what he meant for me to be.
Oh, and I received clarification of a few things: it is within the year to come that His purpose for me becomes complete within me. So at the end of this 'year', I will be what he meant for me to be.
Monday, March 25, 2013
Liberating!
I don't know if it was because it came while I was feeling liberated or if the understanding it's self, it's impact was liberating:
Prophesies are given men to deliver to angels/spirits/"peoples" that have been shut out of heaven. We are just the messengers.
We get to keep on doing what we're doing, have a good life without trials. just now and then we are asked to deliver a messege to fallen angels. Simple. It's nothing personal. "Go outside and play, now!" says grandmother...you are free. free to be me. simply me. a human being, the animal.
Prophesies are given men to deliver to angels/spirits/"peoples" that have been shut out of heaven. We are just the messengers.
We get to keep on doing what we're doing, have a good life without trials. just now and then we are asked to deliver a messege to fallen angels. Simple. It's nothing personal. "Go outside and play, now!" says grandmother...you are free. free to be me. simply me. a human being, the animal.
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