The "alien" theory

   I have been presented with an ancient yet uncommon theory, combined with my knowledge and experience this is what the understanding of it looks like: The Source from which we all come, the Dance as I call it, is indeed an endless, formless limitlessness existing outside of creation. It is the ultimate authority. It is the Alpha and Omega, beginning and end of all things.
   Within creation we have El, renamed "Jehovah" aka "I am that I am" aka "Yahweh" depending upon tradition. So close to The Dance, it is difficult to differentiate.
  The offspring of El and The Dance are the "sons of god" and "morning stars of heaven". The male or masculine entities sometimes seen as angels are "the gods" in whose image men are created. The female or feminine are formless like their mother, beings of pure light in essence with bodies who can appear in human form if given. Because all the entities within creation are corporeal, have bodies, they have dwelling places. We call these other places planets and they are outside our solar system.
  What are indeed angels are the servants who look like what we call aliens, they have many forms and are offspring of the sons of god, manifestations of pure will driven, given motive.
  Those "destined for resurrection" are those sons of god whose consciousness has been retrieved from the minds of men who will be demoted to angelic status, servants "ruling in heaven". They will be sheparding mankind from these other planets as they influence them now: via "remote control", as the consciousness with a human avatar, so to speak.
  As for the rebellious sons of god and their offspring/servants/angels called demons, their consciousness will be trapped within their human avatars and dragged beneath the earth to dwell there eternally. It appears, many already know that the earth is indeed hollow and the "underworld"/inner earth really does literally exist.
  So, the "rapture" will be the removing of all humanity in which the consciousness of rebellious entities has been "grounded". Repentant taken to "heaven" and non-repentant to "hades". Those left behind are humble humanity, not possessed of angels or demons, sons or daughters of the Most High, that survive "Armageddon", the great revelation of all these beings. Human beings will still be used as avatars for special occasions, guidance and governing of which they will have little need........ for the most part, they will be free, the earth being given to them. The sight of "man", sons of god, will be a rare thing as scripture says.

      One could imagine, as scripture describes, a being large enough for a foot on two different mountains, a leg span stretching across countries, would arrive in a vehicle large enough to eclipse the moon and sun: and in those days the sun will be darkened......
    And indeed, the earth would tremble at such a presence, it's gravitational pull would be effected by a vehicle of such size and intense energy as to allow for such a large being to travel such great distances.
    In scripture we are told that the kingdom of God is like a man, a king, who went away to find a bride for his son. Did God leave the earth to arrange things from the heavens at which he will return with the bride for his son...."New Jerusalem will descend from Heaven".
   Interesting theory anyways.

And a few days later:
I had always wondered what the creation account meant when it said that the waters above and below were divided by the firmament and the firmament was called heaven. Waters within the earth, waters on earth's surface, earth's outer crust and surface called "heaven"?
Man called Jesus recorded as saying kingdom of God having been taken by violence. Kingdom of God is within us or amongst us?
Stories say when Adam and Eve were given garments of animals(mortal flesh?) and driven from the garden they first dwelt in caves: were cast out of the garden within earth up into upper crust/caves?
I wonder about how UFOs are usually seen in warmer climates, area 51 is in the desert, etc. Are these "aliens" from within earth(where it is warmer) not really fit in colder climates? People (their source of food) are being moved out west into the desert in sprawling metropolises. Is that why they do not yet come pouring out of center of earth, but await until pole shift and melting of the polar caps?
And what of all these elite building underground bunkers: are they being seduced into the earth thinking they will escape outer threats only to be devoured by those dwelling in the depths of the earth?

It has drawn very close now

Within me I felt the presence of one who had come to let me know that which is coming has drawn very near. Rejoice you who love the LORD. We have no need to fear as that which comes is fearsome indeed.

If this is an inner process we speak of, emotionally, intellectually, psychologically, spiritual I will soon be even better than I have ever been. The unwell parts of me will be removed, "meet their end".

If this is concerning the world, the test is coming.

The scapegoat theme of my experience

 I got to thinking how it is I who has been suffering and spent the past ten years exiled "in the wilderness" due to everyone else in my environment being incapable of taking responsibility for their own emotions and thus choices based upon them. From there I realized I had been a scapegoat. I thought of the biblical example, where the definition of scapegoat came from and almost went into a panic. I wondered, "The scapegoat isn't supposed to return is it? Did I make the wrong decision spiritually? Was I misled by my own desire for my children?". So, I did a quick search for the scripture. Relief! True, the man called Jesus would have been the metaphorical scapegoat for the Isrealite people. He does return to the benefit of the whole community. Then it dawned on me; is that why God had me go through this, to make me, in the end, a source of healing for my community?". Wow. Me? I am nothing to anybody. But it was given to me today to discern how we are each absolutely critical in eachother's experience, those of us who make up a community. My neighbor cannot be replaced by just anybody. Not just anybody would have her perspective, her experiences to draw them off of, her temperment, etc. We are each uniquely developed incorporating a personality with a set of circumstances and resulting experiences of those circumstances viewed from that personality. No one can replace me. I cannot replace anyone else who is given me to experience. They are each unique and important to who I am and what I am doing. I can love everybody and everybody can love me.
reference I read concerning scapegoat:
 *Jewish sacrificial tradition Leviticus 16
http://www.israelofgod.org/azazel.htm

   Then I got to thinking, how WOULD a community react to their scapegoat returning. I remembered reading how it became Jewish tradition to yell curses at, throw stones, and spit on the scapegoat as they chased it out into the wilderness. Just the mere presence of that scapegoat upon returning would be a reminder of all the sins they had laid upon it. It's wounds evidence condemning them of their treatment of it and it's suffering out in the wilderness where they had sent it defenseless against wild beasts. They would not give it a chance to demonstrate any healing it might have brought back with it if they could not even bear to look at it. They would not hear what it was saying, they would have their ears closed to any meaning, allowing themselves only to hear piercing, meaningless, bleating. No the return of the scapegoat would not be eagerly received.

Exploring cycles:werewolves

   I had recently wondered if our inner children: products of our brain's development at various stages (whiny stage, biting stage, etc.) come up again and again in cycles until they have reached full maturity.  I reflected that in domestic violence programs, they always introduce the cycle of abuse: the emotional cycle of an abuser. Then I am reminded of how men can be moody. It's easier to see a cycle for women whose cycle is marked by monthly menses, but may not be so easy to recognize in men if we are not paying attention. Then last night it hit me. When people are living close to the earth, not so alienated from nature, women begin to menstruate with the arrival of the full moon. I realized that could be the source of legends of werewolves: if close to nature, a man's cycle may be just as connected to the cycle of the moon and thus become moody or "wolves" at the same time the women are menstruating. A perfect time to employ a moon lodge! The women are separated from the men and thus not "devoured by them" as they receive inspiration, nurturing and guidance from Spirit, other women and community. 
     Scripture speaks of when "Israel" has received discipline and begins to be in subjection, 'maybe I will return to her her new moon celebrations'. Could it be that new moon celebrations marked the relief of tensions between the sexes as the men ceased being wolves and men and women could come back together with celebrations and rejoicing?

So now the testing begins

  I have been cleaned out, given new perceptions, a new foundation, and the waiting game begins. Ah, and there it is, the tone that is so condescending: "you sound like you need a friend". Heh heh, no I don't. You're just wanting to suck on my emotional energy because you don't recognize empowerment when you see it, you don't believe in it, do not know it exists and that there is no emotionally energy to siphon. But in the past this would have worked on me. I would have crumbled because I did need a friend and/or questioned myself. "Do they perceive something I don't?", I would have asked myself. One hurdle over with. This is how it goes every time we go up a level, we are tried and tested so the new takes root and holds. This is how we truly integrate within ourselves. We defend, protect and express it: the Kingdom of God within. I notice I also do it by writing, addressing "ghosts" and "spirits" I sense I can be confronted with.

Ecstatic religious experience

 Today it came to me, about ecstatic experiences. To put it plainly, perpetually ecstatic reliious experiences are simply a perpetual state of horniness. It is basicall the same thing, except the over-excitement is channelled to the upper body rather than the lower genitalia. In other words, it is no better. It is simply a different end of an extreme. When one reaches maturity, excitement comes in and is flooded evenly throughout the body. It can be harnessed and channelled at will for such purposes as pro-creation. To receive visions, it is still not needed to reach a state of religious ecstacy. Visions can be very easy on the body. Tales of being thrown down upon their reception seemed so foreign to me. I did not understand that and thought the idea of it strange. But the initiating of religious ecstacy can be the first step into learning to move energy and focus from the lower body. An extreme to be embraced until a balance can be reached.

Lifting a banner,a war cry came today

God willing, heads are going to roll!
That is figuratively speaking, of course. Our war is with "the spirits of the air", not with people. First to roll are the "spirits" or ideologies in me that took up residence when the inborn sense of true justice born in each of us was assaulted by the reasonings of dysfunctional adults and beaten into self-doubt and powerlessness when deprivation, threats and physical assault were used to enforce them. Next are the "spirits" in the people who will be moved to stand in the way of true justice being sought for myself and my children. Your spirits are safe from me so long as they leave me alone. but be weary who would take up voice for those spirits to discourage, ridicule and in any way try to intimidate me from my mission: mine and my children's well being. I have nothing left to lose and am used to standing alone.

And in my soul came the realization, acknowledgement and acceptance of all I am, and declaration: I am easy on the soul, by nature inherently feminine, nurturing and loving, tender and sweet, generous and empowering, no grudge against the human I keep. I am a sucker for "I'm sorry" and acceptance is instantaneous. I will hug you the moment you soften and let me. But those 'evil' spirits I will crush without mercy, the sword of truth and justice is mine to use. Take my voice and I will spit on your shoes. Take my tongue and I'll piss on them. My finger will point at you. Take my fingers and I will point my toes. Take my limbs and I will emanate condemnation. Take my head and my blood will cry out from the very stones. The earth will quake and the wind will blow. And as you hold your children in your arms, crying over their injured and dead bodies, my name will come to you, the faces of my children. And you will know: God came to visit you. You took his voice, you took his tongue, you took his limbs, you took his head, and you destroyed his children with your abuses. Do you do it in you?

Well, I did, too. So take the grace, take up the sword and start cutting!
And that is the kingdom's message: there is grace,there is mercy, there is forgiveness and there is a sword of truth in you-use it!