The heated debate between two highly aware children

  Oh, it was full of passion and insistence. Bubby says to Sissy "No! You're walking on your bubble!". "I am not!", screams Sissy, "I am walking on the ground! Mommy, tell him!". Bubby sees his energetic bubble and knows he is walking within it. It is pure truth for him and that is where he is comfortable. He has a highly guarded sensuality and only he determines what will physically stimulate him. He sees the world outside his bubble and decides what to allow in. Sissy has a highly unguarded sensuality. She lets it all in. So, though she is the one who would tell people they all have their own energetic bubbles and she can feel them; Bubby is the one to keep quite on the subject with strangers.....so she does not see her bubble as stopping above the ground, hers extends below the ground. meanwhile, Bubby's extends only as far as just above the ground.
   We are definitely living in one of those rare households where a shared reality is allowed to be different in experience for everyone involved, lol.

You know when you're on the leading edge when.......(conversations with the human component)

   This meant to be funny, an exchange of laughter over the things we get ourselves into and the reactions of the human component to them!

     You're looking in the mirror every hour in amazement as the infection from a tooth swells steadily so the whole side of the face is swollen and heading north into the brain and yet there is not a stitch of pain, only a frustrated "O.K. What are you wanting me to do with this? Are we waiting for the miraculous healing to prove something to those around me or are you wanting me to go to the doctor's to introduce my energy to other people? And you know how I feel about that scenario, I don't want to be proving anything to anybody and I don't want to meet my soul mate due to a car accident or major trauma or anything.....lol" to the glow emanating from within and expanding all around you. "Fine, I'll go to the hospital-you bitch!" lol

   You awake from camping outside of Las Vegas touching the expanded aspect of self to see what she has been up to, getting a summation and responding "Girl, you have got to set some standards for yourself so I can have some of my own! You know you do this shit and I've suddenly got men coming onto me because they recognize you in me.....whore!" lol

   You're lying in a hospital bed, lung collapsed and other full of lesions so you realy are breathing "your last breath", digestive system shut down so there is no nourishment and you are literally starving to death and the only thoughts going through your head are "dammit, what is the good I'm supposed to get from this?! OK, the nurse was just mean, I told her I didn't appreciate it- I stood up for myself. Are we done yet?", not an inkling of belief death is next....lol And then when the digestive system kicks back in and the lungs astound the doctors because x-rays and everything show them to be like nothing ever happened to them......you're relieved that part of the journey is over with, it's time to get up and get going and everyone around you is treating you like you're still sick! lol My body just miraculously arose from the brink of death, you have x-ray proof and the return of physical fitness and you think I should be "careful?!" lol
   You're on the edge of sleep and see "the hand of God" present you with a gift: a picture of a beautiful white horse. "Thank you, it's beautiful", goes through your head. "I'm glad you like it, I told you I was going to get you the white horse you've been wanting." "Huh, what?! You tell a girl you're going to give her a white horse, you don't just give her a picture!" "Well, here, choose one from any one of these fine brown ones." "No, thanks, I'd rather have none". and to self "The nerve of the bastard!" lol Who talks like that to "God?!". Apparently a self-secure daughter......
   When you're dancing in a club and the expanded you is putting on the seductress glow while you have the conversation in your head: "How could I ever respect a man who would respond to THIS?! Are you serious, this is the one? fine. I'll just have the fun...... but I'm hating you for this"
   You're aware of the conversations of spirit and the arrangement of the interaction planned for today and the other human companant reacts explosively....."What the hell just happened?! What do I do with this?" Get the sense of how when the other human component woke, their brain felt like it exploded and it was too much to handle. "Well, fuck, fuck, fuck what do we do now? Never mind, I don't don't want to know. Not interested! Next!" lol
    You're interacting via vision, receiving suggestions on how to handle two differing male components: Have sex with the blonde one while the dark one is bound and forced to watch, that will get his passion flowing! O.K. Can't really get into that.....Oh, forget it, forget both of them. Both of you can just fuck off until you get your own acts together, one of you wants me to suffer deprivation to make me a martyr and the other steals all the abundance I generate because he's covetous. You both suck! In the mean time; I've got this. Who talks to gods like this? lol
   You're usually harmless son has scratched someone's car with sand and you tap into the owner's energy and sense a universal "kick me" sign. Then you tap into the energy of the car and see it carries a universal "scratch me" sign. You realize fully the Law of Attraction is absolutely real and darn it all, your highly aware child was absolutely correct in scratching that man's car-that will rack up some bills if the person is not like this guy who said "I take care of my own stuff!", lol

Life's Little Handbook for Enlightened Children.... Christian co-titled: "This is what being like Him looks like"

  In the beginning was The Dance. It was all feeling and flowing, inspiration to desire, a moving toward and into that desire, an experiencing of the fulfillment of that desire, which inspired another. Over and over, all formlessness and limitlessness. From within this Dance the desire to be seen was born: "What do I look like doing this?"....BANG! Creation began..........

Prelude
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  Firstly: you are created of feelings.
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   Not of emotions, but of feelings. Emotions are responses to feelings. Those feelings are responded to by thoughts which are translations and interpretations of feelings.
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    You are The Dance experiencing it's creation.

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    The body is your antennae where The Dance intersects with the physical world around you.

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 Your body has it's own consciousness and intelligence.
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    The feeling that created you is Desire.
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    And you, you are the answer to a question.
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    The question is: "What do I look like?".
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   Which is why we spend so much time preoccupied with how we look, which makes wanting to know what we look like perfectly natural.
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    Everything around you is also an answer to that question.
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    Everything with eyes is me looking at you through your body.
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    Everything without eyes is me feeling you through it's body.
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    The first thing you need to know is this: "But, I  love me."
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    You also need to know the feeling of being alone and "Oh, no, it's all just me, then I guess it doesn't mean anything..." created the desire to not be alone.
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 That desire IS a reality. You, you are NEVER alone. Never, ever, ever,

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The body is aware of everything going on within you as well as everything going on outside of you.

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The body is the veil through which non-physical becomes physical.

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The body IS consciousness and self-awareness.

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Hurt or deprive the body from either side-from non-physical or physical- and the veil grows thicker, more dense.

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Love or increase attention to the body from either side-from non-physical or physical and the veil grows thinner, more fluid.

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Each individual is three people: everything in the non-physical, the body and everything outside the body within the physical.
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So it is with everything else we are perceiving:rocks, trees, animals, angels and evils: they are each and all 3 people.
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To travel through veils is to travel through energy centers of a body. In the human body these energy centers are called commonly called chakras.

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Awareness begins from within the lowest chakras, travels to the highest becoming recognized and defined and then goes back down again to become created.

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The Earth has energy centers within it, as does everything upon it.

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To manifest something you want, one only needs to send their desire through these vortexes.
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We don't have to work at this. Desire is so pure and clean it travels at amazing speeds to amazing distances. It never gets lost.
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Finding the result of that desire can be a fun game of hide-and-seek where we use the directions of "hot"(feeling well) and "cold"(feeling not so well) to guide us in our thoughts and actions.
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Finding the result of that desire can be easy for that which you wanted also wants to be with you! You just need to be still and satisfied and happy.

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Some people call energy centers vortexes.

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One aspect of knowing what we look like is understanding what we are seeing.

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Knowing when we are angry or afraid feels like and invisible punch to the stomach from within,a terrible, ominous dread.

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Knowing when we are sad is a sinking feeling.

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 Knowing when we are happy is smooth and easy.
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Knowing comes right after understanding, sometimes seemingly right with it.

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Knowing almost always comes after a feeling of sadness.
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The sadness is because "not knowing" must leave to make room for knowing.

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So, we feel sad, then we understand, then we know.
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It is normal to be sad for "not knowing" to leave. It is a part of you. Do not worry about "not knowing" and "not understanding", they go to live with their friends who are just like them and they will feel useful again while living with them.
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Gaining knowing is a natural process similar to physical growing. We take in information (food we eat), we process the information (digest the food in our bellies) and what no longer serves us(can be used by the body) comes out through the physical body (at the other end as a bowel movement).
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"Not understanding" and "not knowing" leave in various ways, depending upon the person, place or thing it is leaving. In the human they often leave with crying. Sometimes sickness, sweat, bleeding, or vomiting.
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When we are stubborn or ornery and hold onto "not knowing" or "not understanding" beyond it's use to us, that is when we feel conflict, become uncomfortable and develop dis-eases. We are no longer at ease with our bodies.

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   Learn what you need to at your own pace as much as possible in order to navigate your environment-the world-your physical experience, but ALWAYS be clear within yourself about your inner reality. They can co-exist as long as each perspective is respected.

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   You are here to explore and choose your own preferences.
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    Hello, little one.

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You are unique.
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    Nothing is being done TO you.

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 Everything is being done FOR you.

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    Every circumstance is an offering being laid with reverence at your feet.
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I am getting the sense that in our modern culture, the word love does not carry the energy intended by prophets of old who told us that the answer to everything is love. I believe the modern interpretation of the word "delight" is more accurate in carrying the energy we are seeking.

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Our feelings are our own and originate within us, so we logically do not 'feel like I want to be with you forever'. It is more accurate to say to someone "The feeling of forever is in me while I am sharing this experience with you, and it is my desire to feel this feeling again and again!."

 

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To want something is to covet what we do not have. To desire something is to be in want of the experience we are having when we are feeling the presence of the feelings we believe we will have at the attaining of something. In other words: desire is wanting what we already have.

 

The Lion is Laying Down with the Lamb!

    It IS the present reality. The Lion is still focused on what he believes will make him happy, a good person and acceptable to divinity, but his body is drawn to the Lamb, resistance leaving, finding himself cozied up to it without perceiving his own actions and when he does perceive it, he is not feeling threatened by it and even delighting in it. It may still be prickly for the lambs when the lions aren't perceiving their own actions, but we endure for the sake of the plan.
   The Lion is laying down with the Lamb. We need only allow it to exist in our perceptions. We only need allow it to happen: take down the barriers where appropriate in our individual experiences.

Expanding and contracting

     I am contracting and expanding into a physical experience less physically populated by human beings.  

 If one is on a spiritual path, they expand out into the world, get into a "groove" and begin moving through their present physical experience(world). Then they become irritated or bored and less sociable or suddenly not being responded to, one day looking around them and wondering "Where did everyone go?". They are contracting-bringing in all they have absorbed in that journey, organizing, processing and integrating. They are busy little bees! and yet may hardly ever leave their dwelling. The divine will do it for them if they resist it, causing the "burning of bridges" if need be, leaving one feeling abandoned. Once we understand the process, we can choose it, initiate it and go about it more graciously without the feeling of abandonment.
   Then we begin expanding when the integration begins into a "new world", a cast of characters and experiences that help us ground what we had begun integrating. We gain new friends or establish new relationships with old ones. We have new experiences or old ones with subtle differences. We could see new places or simply discover new aspects, details, spaces in old ones.
   I am presently contracting in a world where abundance in all it's forms is siphoned off those who create it by narcissistic control freaks who couldn't create for themselves a pot to piss in. I am expanding into an experience of the physical(new world) where those who create the abundance are so good at it that they can first avail of it themselves, for it is born of self-respect and self-appreciation, to such an extent that it overflows out into the world so generously, no one is ever in need around them. They overflow so abundantly they can share with everyone without reservation, hesitation, condition or dependency upon a return of their investment.

Mishmash as we end the dance with death to begin our dance with life

      The inner "innocence" is so very aware of absolutely everything! There was so much buried there, overwhelmed by the heaviest of stuff we never even fully heard the more subtle pains. The inner innocence does not miss a single thing: like a child hearing things while watching TV in another room, we believed they never heard us utter. It is that sweet. We believe what we eat won't hurts us, "it's all just energy", but unless you're thrilled by the smell and thought of death, an innocence who has experienced living right alongside divinity knows it only as cannibalism and self-mutilation. Meat packaged in plastic does not fool it: meat is dead body, Meat is dead me. It hurts whether or not we perceive the pain so very, very deep it beyond the radar of most minds distracted and overwhelmed with self-concern.
     And so my mind has instead become preoccupied with the opinion of the innocence rather than that of the world of death which will never be pleased. The innocence delights and thrives in the attention and appreciation of all her subtleties.  She is trusted. I caught my brain training it's self with word association, an exercise played by psychics to sharpen their intuition: when a word is introduced just say the first thing that pops into the mind. Not only was my mind sharpening it's translation and understanding skills, we were all enjoying the entertainment value of this practice!
    Speaking of romantic: scripture tells us "God" put everlasting life in the hearts of men. Not that he gave them everlasting life, but he gave them the desire to achieve it. He did this knowing it would fulfill the desire of the dance! A "man" doing something grand, creating something that never before existed simply to fulfill his "woman's" desire! Romance is not dead-it is the essence of life!
    Deeply connected children, in whom The Dance is living the experience of it's creation, need to hear "But, I  love me!". There are other things they need to hear, as well. They need to know that the shear desire to not be alone and for it to be "only me" has indeed created the existence of other entities and physical beings! They truly are never alone(unless they want to be). The inner perception that everything is just me, leaves out compassion and acknowledgement and recognition of the suffering of anything else. Everything feels like excitement to them for they know very little fear: fear and excitement being the two sides of the same energy wave/"coin". They think the animal they are traumatize is as excited as they are and their sensing of more excitement than their own that they are generating is a wave it's hard to stop riding-momentum is rolling quickly! So many adopt a thought structure of compassion because they hear it from parents, but sincerity, true belief and knowing will only come from experience.
    Funny story about aware children: "The dinosaur story" Two children, a brother and sister go on a trip to an amusement park of some sort. There they see a dinosaur. The boy chooses to have his own experience but his sister chooses to have the experience society dictates. They come home and begin to play. Suddenly they are crying due to arguing. "Mommy, she says I did not see a real dinosaur when I did!". "They were just robots!", sister asserts. So, mother separates them after telling them "Brother, you saw the real thing, sister, you saw what you believed could be seen according to what you were told is possible". To her son, she offers comfort. He is correct, he saw a dinosaur. "And it rode on the roller coaster and everything!", offers excitedly and relieved. The easier task accomplished, mother goes to daughter, seeing she is in defensive mode, afraid to be told she is wrong, afraid she going to get in trouble. "It is OK, sister. Everything is all right. Sister, what is most important for you is to know what you need by listening to in here(hand spread across sister's belly). Sister, what do YOU want to believe?" Tears of release, she saw the dinosaur, not just a mechanized version of it. Peace. And two very liberated and excited children!
    Recently I had been given a "BTW" which was "Without separation, there is no unity". Then I got the explanation: Where there are less than two things working together, there is only singularity. Where there are two things working together toward the same purpose, there is unity and oneness.
     The stem cell is formed with a mother. That cell has the knowledge and ability to become whatever it wants to be (an ear, a mouth, a tongue, a heart, a leg, a toe-anything). The cells formed by the stem cell would have all the qualities of a stem cell stored in their memory. It impossible for the cell to NOT know how to become whatever it wants to be: to heal and regrow things. The desire to, is they key. Why would a body want to heal if there is nothing in store for it but increasing misery? It would seek oblivion and thus death comes to the body. Give it something to look forward to and it it will be all it can be!
    More on children in whom The Dance is experiencing it's creation: These children need to have their empathic nature explained to them. When they are playing with an animal and it squeaks and then suddenly the child has the urge to throw, shake or bounce it: they need to know that is the animal's way of telling them "you are irritating the hell out of me and I just want to throw you!". When they get whiny and irritated when you're needing a break from them, it needs to be explained to them "you are feeling my irritation and desire for a break". Too long out in the public IS going to drain them. They will begin to feel everyone else's misery when they lose their intense focus on why they wanted to go on the shopping trip. Get what you went in for, bring a list to keep focused and get right out again as much as possible. Distraction won't serve you when the children begin to be overwhelmed by those around them.
   These children also need to know their bodies have their own consciousness and should be treated kindly, respectfully.
   Another thing I forgot to mention about them in reference to trying to teach and schooling, shoot even in parenting: children feel things and define them thusly. They identify them energetically. They are growing up in a world where two things identical energetically are differentiated between. So, numbers, to the child, feels like strict limitation. It does not matter if it is one or three. Then this feeling of limitation is superimposed upon things that to them represent joy and freedom: cookies and trees. It teaches them not to trust their feelings or instinct. It draws them away from the energetic nature of things and confines them to limited and fear-based existences full of deprivation. So, vibrational equivalency is important to maintain. Shit is shit no matter how many shits you take or how big or small your neighbor's is. They can tell you whether or not it's a healthy shit-the result of healthy processing.

Mishity-mashity-moo!

And I say to you "REAP!" what I have sown......

This morning has been huge. It began a couple days ago when I closed my eyes ans saw a beautiful being sat before me. From behind him a being pulled forth a form-fitting cloak of pure black, shiny. It molded to him completely, concealing his face from me, placing claws at his fingertips. he reached forth to the center of my forehead and with the black claws began drawing strings of black and grey string. i thought to myself "now, what could this mean? Am I to expect another human catalyst coming across as unpleasant, stimulating expanded thinking?" Then I saw an image of my own finger pointing directly at me and from behind the veil of grey from which the finger came I saw an alien in appearance little being with big black eyes emitting a very clear energy. "What do you want to tell me?". It giggles the shit out of me that I can see things like these that would send most people fleeing in terror and remain in a completely neutral feeling, in a state of simple observation, detachedly watching a movie.....and go into a complete whirlwind of emotion, of panic delight, excitement, timidness over the realization that my neighbor wants to give me a kiss! It is a delightful contradiction!
   Which leads me to knowing this is so exciting and alien prospect because it has been four years since being kissed, but it has been forever in that my journey through levels of consciousness is one that would normally take "forever"-lifetimes. And I know time was created to experience the deliciousness of alienation, the newness of an already experienced experience. We don't have to end this human life to experience that sensation of newness of an experience we have delighted in! First love over and over again. First kiss, first taste of passion, an eternal state of bliss experienced all over again and again!
    So, my life has energetically been passing before my eyes. It began slowly with being reminded of a childhood friend. Her name was Jody. She lived with her mother and siblings above someone's garage in an apartment. Her mother worked two jobs or more and always apparently single. One day Jody came to my house off the school bus. That meant the long walk up our quarter of a mile long driveway, past the riding ring and pastures of horses grazing, looking up at a fine little castle surrounded by decks leading to a swimming pool, at big barn, tractor, dirt bikes and Odysseys that were in there, the rabbit cages, goat pen and two-story play "fort". Jody was crying. "Why are you crying, I asked?". Her reply was "You have everything". I looked at her like she was crazy, her mother loved her and her siblings. She did nails with them, perms, every Saturday they were all required to go to the laundromat and help do the laundry. I envied her life experience! As I moved about my present apartment I experienced that memory of seeing Jody's life and desiring it for me. I realized it was that desire I was now living as a reality.
   Since then, especially over the past few days, the energetic re-living has been occurring at a rate rapidly. (I am getting words wanted and then filling in the blanks for reader's understanding and so my manner of speaking may seem strange...hang with me). I reached the point in my childhood where I was sitting out in our field curled up crying as the realization hit me in oneness with my creator that "This is all my doing!" Presently, I quickly scrolled passed all the thoughts that went with that and reached for my present state of being "I am free". Then it all came to me as I remembered how every one of my daughters at one point or another would lament loudly "No one loves me!" and run off into a closet or something. When I experienced it with them in the consciousness I was in then, I went into a panic: it is so not what I was wanting for them, how could they believe such a thing?! There was nothing I could say to them, I believed. Now I know exactly why they were they thus feeling! When realization hits within us is the truth of all things: within us is our creator experiencing it's own reality: we go through the process, quite often of, that means I'm alone, I have been deceived with these people telling me they love me, they think constantly "I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm stupid, I'm defenseless"......and I see all we really need to hear in that moment is someone looking at me directly, holding my shoulders firmly and in complete conviction stating softly but clearly "But I  love me". And in that loneliness-logically- is born the desire for company and so IMMEDIATELY that must become reality. We CAN NOT be alone in the "universe" of experienced reality.
   And in support of this revisiting energies, emotional experiences of my youth, I have the most awesome of neighbors: a two year old absolutely over-excited about his existence. He picked up a piece of pavement this morning and said "high rock". I accepted his description "yes it is" and just to help him relate with his parents, I said "We would call it pointy". Realization came ot me: part of that rock juts out higher than the rest when he holds it pointy end up. He loves the feeling of energetic height. To him, anything that rises above is "high". In that experience, that rock and anything in his experience will never be "sharp and pointy or dangerous", it will always be "high and elating". So long as no one contradicts it convincingly. And this triggers more and more understanding and realization of understanding. From childhood they ingrain in us the need to learn to compare and contrast. Just this morning I was asked the question "Is there a God (like the one of the bible most people believe in)?" and I said "yes, but he's over there (and as I felt toward 'there' I began to feel it draw closer) killing and torturing people in the name of martyrdom" and quickly returned my awareness to "I am free" within, reminding myself I am over here (not "but, I am over here"). To qualify, to contrast, to compare is to bring it into existence within our experience. And to teach children to contrast and compare is deceptive and discouraging to them for it enforces limitation and deprivation. Here we have 1 cookie, is that more or less than 2 cookies? The child becomes depressed and doesn't want to answer. They want to see cookie! and believe in the limitless abundance of such delicious experiences! Stop depressing our children!
   Speaking of depression. Law of Attraction teachers say we will begin to wake every morning elated. I did experience that for a while upon my first awakening. Now, I am expecting this again and wondering, why is this not true for me this time? Because when I awake it is silent within, something that only happened before with depression. So, it occurred to me to decide: "That is NOT depression, that is quiet. Quiet is contentment and awareness of everything being quite alright, at peace, in a state of no resistance" From that space, I can begin my day of creating or if it so chosen, I begin my day of experiencing what I have already created: we shall have seasons of quiet for creating and seasons of excitement for experiencing! It used to be I would wake feeling excited and my brain and body would go "Oh, shit, she's at it again, here's comes the test or challenge, the proving and grounding". If I woke depressed my brain and body would become elated "Yay! it is going to be a day of ease grace!", lol. Now that I know that I have arrived, the differing experiences of waking into this reality, this physical experience can be redefined as "Yay! Today I am lounging around creating/imagining wonderful things!" or "Yay! Today I am going to be experiencing some of the wonderful things I have been creating!". We're god to go.lol, love the misprint, meant to write "good to go". The quiet coinciding with the headaches is what made me question it...the headaches are the "dark covering" of my brain/thinking expanding/changing.
     In all this, experience has taught me that once in a while, we are going to be dragged out of our chosen physical experience at least energetically. This does not need to be disturbing. Upon my first awakening I connected energetically with a drummer of a heavy metal band. He wanted me. His groupie wanted him. In a moment when they were having sex, he was desiring it was me and she was desiring to be the woman of his dreams. Immediately I was seeing through her eyes as she was on top of him during sex. Oh my! I withdrew my consciousness back to what I was doing. I took a smoke break after beginning to write of this when the realization struck me: people will be reading this blog and tuning into/praying to me (has happened before-seriously.). But what they will be tuning into is the name "Crystal". I left that entity with a lame little girl who endeared herself to me. It was nabbed by her mother, a very cruel lady. They will have to go within and get this knowledge for themselves or follow the chain of energy. Even those reading this who know my legal name will picture me in their mind for tuning in. I have not been physically seen by very many people during this time of transition so they will be tuning in to what they last knew of me, the last pictures they saw of me. As this awakened state settles in, my physical form will be changing, my hair becoming either more straight or more curly, from light to dark or dark to lighter. I will be given a new name. I am aware of people from this physical future trying desperately to tune in. These words will be all they have of me and THAT is a good thing for myself and my children. we will not so often be dragged from our new reality. I became aware of this principle in action after my initial awakening and return to that present state of being...homeless, on the road, reached a point of stability, perfect peace and contentment. I saw a beam of light shoot straight up from my head as I lay in bed. I saw from that beam a "flying saucer" disc rise and fly off and heard(sensed) the sudden frenzied exchange of information: "quick, her name is ------- and her daughter's name is--------". I became aware that I had been whisked away "into the wilderness" just before the birth of my son (with whom I had just become pregnant), my cover was blown. It was not long before my circumstances were once again upset and I experienced constant movement and 'concealment' so my trail could not be followed readily. I saw a vision of me heading through the mouth of a dragon into a green valley under the skies (influence) of a wicked woman. At one point I was made aware, more recent year "they are looking for you"........entities are becoming aware of the prophesy I am fulfilling or maybe is fulfilling within me as it has and will many before and after.
   I laughed at the story of the man who turned himself in for killing his imaginary friend. Laughing at the irony that, in fact, people believe imaginary friends exclusive to non-real existence--they are laughing at the ridiculousness of absolute reality! It is they who are the imaginary reality!
   and BTW, you CAN only reach this state of being through the emotional body: "Look!", scripture says, "I am creating something new; a woman shall encompass a man!".