My abundance hypocrisy hiding at the bottom of intellectual analysis...

The juicy at the bottom of one of my rabbit holes found in reference to abundance......undoing it in me, delightfully.....................peek-a-boo, I see me!

I am given to reflect this morning:
The feeling of affront when approached on the street by someone who asks for money. It's amazing. The depth, the intensity. A magnificent wave of forceful energy brought forth by a simple question.
And it doesn't stop there. Oh, no. As you walk past the scene you see someone else approach with affront and disgust "Did they just ask you for money?!". Often times it goes even further, they simply MUST do something! managers are hunted down and demanded from: "There's someone out there asking for money!". In some cases cops are called. What a wave of energy! What fun it would be to look haggard and walk up to an uptight person and ask the question; "Can you spare some money?" lol Watch the dominoes fall in a row.........the spark to light the gunpowder trail leading to the explosive.....bwahahahaha talk about flow!
But that's not the point. 
Most people spend 12 years in school being programmed to be the type of person who can ask for and receive money "legitimately". Then there are degrees, certificates to prove one has undergone the training to wear a mask called a "professional" who can then "legitimately" ask for money. All this pomp and effort and mask applying to do one simple thing: ask for money. Actors will act, poets will write, singers will sing and ALL PEOPLE will ask for money. You may do it by dressing up the part of office person and saying the words you've been trained to say. You'll take that mask to an "employer"/distributor of money and ask to don a mask in their company so they will give you money. Employment is nothing but a big dog and pony show.
Then along comes a simple, raw, naked human being doing the same thing: asking you for money. Just like you ask the bank, you ask your employer, you ask your child fully grown living in your home.
If all the pomp and propriety didn't bother you, neither would the beggar. The affront is not that the beggar does what you do, the affront is the resentment that you invested years of mask wearing training to perceive yourself as "legitimate" enough to do the asking. You seek permission and approval for your asking. You seek justification, excuse, validation of your right to receive the energy that can be translated into other physical, material things.
Many will give in exchange for a story; "what mask are you wearing?", what is your justification, excuse for approaching strangers for money? In truth their "excuse" is no different than yours ultimately: I am in a physical body in need of sustaining with thing that nourish it's experience. Some just like playing "fire monkey", they like to upset the mask wearers because their reaction is such a fiery journey full of passion and conviction. Some will do it simply to tell stories. They're called liars. Maybe they're just being professional story tellers.
Perception is everything.
Behind the masks, every single one of us is a story teller, poet, actor, priest/priestess, counselor, accountant........we're human beings. We express, we pray, we think. We're buying masks we don't need in order to ask for money. It's all the same thing except for how we feel while enacting "the person asking for money", whether that asking is in person or via a piece of paper called an application.. .
That's as far as this train is going on that reflecting for the moment. Normally there's a profound conclusion of deep, profound understanding of some sort of solution, but, hey! we all have those days......resolution will come eventually, lol
Do we demand the mask because we do not believe in our own priest/priestesshood, accounting abilities......our legitimacy? Is that where this is going? Some would see the getting of a degree the belief.....interesting..
We crave honesty and upfrontness while investing all our time and energy in masks then feel affronted and offended at an honest, forthright asker: "Can you spare some money?"
And one, sometimes bitter, irony is this: usually those asking and taking from me always have more than me. The one begging for three dollars was holding a set of keys to a car. The one taking the stores I brought for my children has a roof over their head paid for and cash money for beer drinking. The one asking me for love and consolation has all that and family. The one asking me for wisdom: same thing. I emanate abundance and well-being without the material validation. I emanate safety and security they come for despite their insurance policies. Interesting.....Maybe that is what is in here for me. For if I see more asking of one whom has less and am bitter about it, than I, who have more in spirit wealth am asking for something from those who have more materially.......oooooooo that would be me being hypocritical! bum bum bum.......the shattering! I see me