Of Pirates and Goddesses and Kings

     Governments will always preserve a segment of criminal subcultures. When a government wants a job done they know they won't get approval to use an army for, they call upon the criminal element to do their dirty work. Not news. While the criminal element may have a mother country, a government they were born under, they must be wise enough to know any loyalty they think they're displaying by cooperating with under the radar assignments will not be returned. Thus, a pirate demanding loyalty to a governing body is a victim whose life is only worth something until the job is done and possible loose ends must be tied up. If they kill off their above-board representatives, do ya really think you are anything more than cannon fodder? Please.
    There is the Dance, which dances it's way through all things. There is the "I AM", God. There are sons and daughters of God=gods and goddesses. Out of all that came a whole variety of creatures. Many of these use the human beast as vessels to inhabit physical earth. So, this is what I've gotten of my story so far. It will not be the same as anyone else's necessarily. We're a mixed bag of origins, agendas and destinations........
    This human beast was originally the vessel of an entity one would call a sprite while having the presence of The Dance very strong within me. I also became avatar to another entity with a body in a realm that looks like an eleven realm. Watching over her body while she focused her consciousness into mine was what main stream media calls an alien. I sensed dislike from the alien when my human consciousness went back with the one occupying my body as an avatar. When the "I AM" awoke in me (it had followed the sprite in) more became clear. The sprite's purpose was to find the source of dysfunction among the heavenly family and heal it. The elven entity using me as an avatar was sent to learn because her planet was dying. They were hoping to find a way to heal it. I underwent a 'quickening'= the spark of life of an eternal spirit was created in the human body. There was a change of shifts as my divine aspect got 'grounded' here and the human consciousness went to learn. Then there was the switch back. I began to get visions of The Dance and they include having the umbilical cord connecting me to The Dance being cut. I got the sense of sovereignty. Why me? I could sense on more than one occasion divinity would corner me and watch, expecting me to make one of two choices. I would come up with another choice and blow their mind. The Dance was strong in me and rather than subjecting to the "I Am"/Critical eye or "Satan" or "Jesus", I trusted in The Dance. The Dance liked that.
   At one point when hanging with the Shaumbra crowd and having had my "I Am" presence awakened within me, I began to pick up the universal downloads. One of the first was "There is no such thing as addiction". There was resistance to that message from Shaumbra. I began comparing my downloads with all the other channelor's monthly messages. My interpretation was the most clear, so I began to rely solely upon my own inner channel. Around that time I had a reading done with "Tobias" who informed me I(the elven consciousness) had some residual hurt left from Atlantis, they did not want to tell me what, but assured me they would help me release it. I spent a couple days puking. I later got the sense of what it was I had been carrying around for lifetimes from human avatar to human avatar: in my naive innocence and perfect faith and trust, I was betrayed by my beloved, who betrayed a father I adored. I was taken captive and shut up in a cell where I was injected with 1,000 lifetimes worth of fear. That is the fear capacity of a human avatar multiplied by 1,000. Need I say I was climbing the walls and desperately trying to flee my own skin?
   So then Shaumbra decided they wanted to do an initiation......I walked out. To bind myself to those who had done such a horrible thing, knew about it and refused to fess up to me but figured they could undo it and all would be forgotten?! Talk about lack of charector!
    Since the elven aspect left, I feel no attachment to shaumbra but wanted to see what they were up to, hoping to find association at least close to my own level of conscious awareness. They were just working on integrating what I had channeled 8 years ago! I have been increasing in consciousness since then, being refined, proven, underwent the "living death', ascended to the highest of heavens and every level between-formless- there and The Dance. And some of them really think they need to correct me. Back when I was unofficially shaumbra, I was embodied by "The Teacher of Teachers"....the one teaching the entities who were teaching "humans". I could sense back then that when I would light up with a universal download, the 'angels' would gather around, waiting for it to hit my brain and then make off with the thoughts that brought understanding triggered by the download as their new message of enlightenment to offer, just a bit foggied up by the belief systems they were attempting to perpetuate.
   I can still communicate freely and openly with The Dance and we come into oneness regularly but I know exactly what I am and the 'enlightened' would deny my existence. However, I know something from an understanding I channeled back then, 8 years ago: there were god/men on earth at one time, just like me but with a less evolved consciousness. They no longer exist in any way, shape or form. I also know I was vessel or avatar of one of "the Pure People" who was asked by 'angels' to occupy this avatar so that the "I AM" could perceive that which it could not perceive previously. It was asked to be in me because I had the undivided attention of "I AM That I AM". "I AM That I AM" did not believe in The Dance. Now it knows. Now the game is on..........

     Also, this human soul/ while avatar for elven was contracted out "five daughters for five men who hate women". I was to give birth to then lose them to their fathers. By the time number five came I was getting over my Pollyanna, love and light, ways. So, when her father dumped me off like an unwanted dog, knowing I was pregnant, and stole all my worldly possessions, I accepted his forfeit. A few years later I was warned "He" was coming("I AM That I AM"). I bowed down and a white light descended upon my youngest daughter and son with the extended understanding that "they have been blessed to go with you". My Earth is separating from 3D earth and my two youngest are coming with me. I will be the sole portal into that world, guardian of it. It is also separating from the other "new earths". I do have my own host of angels, whom I have begun to meet daily. I am beggining to feel exactly what I have become and it is wondrous.
       Ohh, an dafter years of being visited by various 'matriarchs' expressing a desire to have me paired with their sons, etc.........I got to choose my own mate! He'll be coming as well.