Used cars and raspberry kisses--dreams

     Morning before last I woke in the midst of a "dream".
  The "dream" went like this: My "ex" husband and I were riding in a car. He went one way in his own while the driver and I paused for a discussion. I got the sense of him telling me how he buys these cars to give to people in need of them for travelling. He was making two stacks of one dollar bills and I was to tell him when to stop. My ex peaked in to check on me, how it was going. "I" said "I want to go there" and my attention was directed ahead but all I saw was grey and I "woke up fully".
  Given my circumstances I would be given to believe I am about to be given a car to make the physical journey I am about to make. I have learned better when it comes to me. For some it would be that simple and true: their dream would become a physical reality. My existence is primarily focused on a spiritual journey and my destination would be a state of being that is being chosen.
   A day later I wake with a change in perception about the dream. I was not being given a vehicle, I was selling mine. The significance was that I was receiving the physical representation of abundance. This is a big deal for me because I have always felt reluctance at receiving "money". It always felt dirty. I guess the dream was letting me know I was getting over that association. I know the "ex" would indeed have been smiling while watching over the exchange because it is what "he" has wanted for me.  Another significant difference for me was that "he" was not working against me, restricting or limiting me. "He" did not have his spiteful "girlfriend" with him. He was simply smiling and nurturingly checking in to make sure all was going well with the exchange for me. It means I have "his" support in my choice of destination and in getting to where I am going. That's a nice change for me.
  Now I just wonder if I was selling my vehicle to join "him" in his or if I am still persisting in my independent streak.......
  And then there is the idea that I have always associated the vehicle with the body. For example: when I was shown in a similar "dream" that I was pregnant with my son, I was driving a car and when I looked in the rear view mirror I saw a baby in a car seat. I had no literal car at the time and left on foot. This leads me to wonder if this body is about to have an "accident" and awaken from it with a different consciousness. If so, what shall that consciousness be?
 There all sorts of potentials, should we believe the stories. There are the stories from the concentration camps under Hitler: when extreme sleep deprivation was employed the men used as subjects tore their bodies to the point they should not have been living and did not want to go to sleep. When asked who and what they were, they replied they were the parts of them that did not go with them when they slept. In other words: the consciousness of the body it's self seperate from the spirit that inhabits it. I suppose that is why those who practice meditation become very earth-based in their spirituality: the earth in the form of human flesh gets to travel with the spirits in it's meditations and influence spirits. Makes me think of sleep walking and other such "unusual" occurences where the person has no memory of what they had been doing "unconsciously".
  Such things as something like the story of Black Beauty come to mind: bred and served then sold off at the loss of the lady of the house, the family having to move.
  But I am pretty certain the transition has already occured and it was not just the "vehicle" being handed over but the means to get it to the desired destination. With vibrational alignment in effect, there won't be a great feeling difference that would make it obvious in this case. I do vaguely remember saying "I agree" enthusiastically the other day when I felt the presence of pure innocense and presented with the idea of an image of an angel. We shall see. The feel of interactions lately has been much more pleasant, easy going and generous. This morning's dream was of being kissed by one who took the form of someone from high school whose kisses upon my body felt like the taste of raspberies: all sweetness it's self.
  Regardless, it makes a case for walk-ins. I once had a "dream" where a rhino was a vehicle: a trcuk like thing with a rhino's head, legs and tail.....spirits are "driving "animals as well if it be true.
  In the mean time, my body having let down it's guard in response to these more pleasant experiences, has "caught a cold". Releasing resistence often manifests as illness so I am taking it easy.