Walking in her shoes

     I am coming to understand what was meant by being made one who is "fully embodied". The "observer" aspect is now in body, connected. "online" in this reality while the personality, the "paint/make-up" has been disconnected and moved into observer's position. I think in certain circumstances "such and such would normally have been the reaction/feeling in this circumstances or in observing this" and feel around to find that indeed, it is there but detached: my body is not feeling it.......for the most part. I believe we are still in transition. I love the reaction and it fades, step by step, reaction by reaction it is slowly relegated to disconnected observer station. In this way the "almighty" observer is now walking in the shoes of the "human". Not so easy to be embodied with all the memories of responses, reactions and fear-based feelings stored in the body. "Entombed" comes to mind in this reflection. Not in a negative tone, but in an observational one and yet I am learning just because the feeling is not on the surface and ready, it does not mean it is not in there somewhere very deep, maybe even connected to that which is now relegated to observer's position. We shall see if we are open to all possibilities.
    One thing keeps coming to me: in the presence of grace, there is no mercy. The observer is a creature of grace. Love is unconditional. It cannot be met by a state of mercy and has none (mercy) for it(mercy). Grace is all or nothing. Mercy sees what it judges and agrees to include or excuse or overlook it. Grace does not judge anything. It accepts it as well as the limitations that go with it, whatever it may be in a state of love. So it is that a person of mercy who is judging is not accepted into a state og grace nor by one embodying grace. A strange thing from most perspectives I would imagine.
   The body is no longer immune to what it once was which could mean it is in rebellion of the transition, it is the chosen state of embodiment for the benefit of a fully human experience, or maybe something like simply being vulnerable, uncertain, irritated by the transition. Another "we shall see" thing, I guess.