Emasculation represented in hair cutting

  I had noticed a pattern in the men I get romantically involved with. They purport themselves as free spirits and generally, for their social environment, have longer hair on their heads and/or facial hair. They love my more liberated state of being and feed off my presence. They allow me to encourage them into greater and more liberal self-expression they express desire in. I get caught up in the momentum and get lost in blissfully happy, relaxed and free.
   And then one day they shave their heads and/or faces and the uptight, must meet society's expectations, overbearing, abusive version comes in. They become people pleasing and reject me aggressively when I simply cannot conform yet begin to wither in confusion. I leave or am abandoned cruelly, stripped of any assets.
   I didn't expect that recently. The hair wasn't unusually long anyways and the man had freakin' crossed the border with nothing, making it by "the grace of god" only, expressing determination to stay. So, when he shaved his head, no bells went off in me (or I was just too caught up in joy to notice). But Oh! the pattern repeated again! Fuck me! lol Amazing, really.
   So, there is definitely an association between hair, unique to cultural, sub-cultural, societal traditions and level of self-determination. I'll be!