Proving a breakthrough and another toad

Today's "proving" a break through has happened----

Some people think we're tested, tried by such experiences. I usually meet them as if in a game. They are opportunities to practice a new response to normally intimidating or confusing things, (something we normally struggle with) in alignment with whatever consciousness I have been exploring. The world/life responds differently, my experience of life becomes easier and I'm celebrating this discovery of a new ability/aspect/acceptance.

Normally when anything happens with my children, I "respond" rather than react because it's the "spiritual guru" thang to do. I feel inward and wonder "How will this affect their psyche? How will they perceive themselves in response to me? How will this affect my reality", etc.

Oh, hell no.

My daughter is urgently drawing my attention to her brother. Reluctant to look because I was busy interacting elsewhere, I turn to see my son standing there grinning with a squashed toad by the toe, guts hanging out all fresh and juicy, clean from the rain. I just screeched and screamed and did the "ew" hand shake thing; "Throw that thing in the grass!" (more screeching and laughing). nausea, chills, delight.....just plain reaction and we're all emotionally fine, untraumatized by it.

As I reflected I realize the law of attraction business, "don't resist or it will persist" can predominantly be applied to one's own reactions more than what we see in the world. The more we suppress our own honest, authentic feeling about/reactions, the more life is suppressing/limiting. With the return of the fire to my belly, my "badassness", filters and inner control mechanisms are leaving, setting me free to live even more authentically a more mature version of the divine child in me. Life has thus begun to meet me more generously and freely.

And yeah, them toads keep showing up in my experience, but the cats and dogs of the household are usually playing with and chasing them or they're dying in the streets....a more 'natural'/flowing order of things.......