Nature babies who dream while awake and commune with our inner being while we sleep

~Nature babies who dream while awake and commune with our own inner being while we sleep.~
We were all (in these circles) born with essential truths within us, qualities that fully embody a new-to-this-world way of simply being and having it all turn out well for us. Creatorship and abundance as natural as breathing and so inborn and successful, we don't need to know how it works. We had it memed away, contradicted, invalidated, demanded it be explained. It is up to us to uncover it, go deep within and draw it out and affirm it in the face of anything that comes our way, to scream in the face of 'demons' masquerading as angels, of gods and gooddesses of two old systems that want to be perpetuated.... showing up in psychic attacks we believe are our own thoughts and our own thinking, to love intensely the parts of us hurt by all this, to remind ourselves everything else, every other belief and purported 'fact' is absolutely irrelevant. We were born at the end of duality, masculine and feminine, all only two choices; good or bad, black or white, left or right.....BOTH corrupt. We exist in the subtle nuances between, the grey Jedi, whole and unique and different..... new-to-this-world paradigm-of-dependency-upon-the-whole defined by "everybody" (an actual few oppressors masquerading as light and dark forces). We are whole- where we commune when inspired to do so while being our own shamans, warriors, wise leaders, teachers, healers, mothers, fathers, and children. We ARE a village within and it is this village that raises us while others simply compliment our journey into maturity.
My nature when sleeping is to go within the core of my being, unconscious, and bring forth what is needed and wanted. When I was a child, any questions I had would be there when I woke the next morning. Most people "dream" differently. I stopped going inward probably for the usual reasons common to everybody: the alarm clock was set to disturb, parents set to disturb. We developed a mentality that we set the alarm clock, prepared for the next day mentally and emotionally, and spent sleeping hours connecting with those involved, making plans and arrangements in the 'heavens', teaching, explaining, bargaining, wrestling with our own thoughts and actions, instead of going deep. In many cases, such as mine, if we chose differently: to go inside, there was always something waiting to convince me it wasn't safe: a father molesting me, a drunken mother on a rampage. Imagine going into a safe place where one finds the answers to everything to wake with drunken hands upon your thigh or a beating progress?! And so going deep was perceived as unsafe : I had to be "awake" and "dreaming" to keep safe and make the next day safe, I was led to believe. That's one of the biggest tactics of abusers: sleep interruption, and this would be why.
So, I began to go deep in my sleep again, unawares of a quiet panic hiding every time I did. This morning it was glaringly apparent as I consciously chose to go deep instead of "dreaming" wakefully. I woke scared to death and visibly shaking! and then I rejoiced: nothing bad had happened. I am creating differently and have no need for defensive action, no need to fear not taking it. I create my reality! I own my body. And soon war will come to our land supplanting the landlords of this system: no bargaining for a roof over our heads, a place to rest. a place to truly sleep in safety and security again. No alarm clocks to set for we depend upon 'synchronicity' for timing, our own fully aware subconscious. ~Nature babies who dream while awake and commune with our own inner being while we sleep.~