Going inward again

     The "I AM" is merging with the "There's only me". Excruciating despite lack of tension and resistance. I am feeling ambition. This physical experience has never included ambition previously. Interesting. It's just sitting there in existence with no specific target but  a general description of luxury, relationship, ease without condition..winning the lottery and romantic involvement, lol. Formless yet explicit. Passion..woooeeee. Do nothing, be everything. To create without cause. To be conscious and aware without pause. Project nothing, express it all. Just floating while firmly grounded. No making sense amidst finely honed senses. Holy shit, I'm amazing! The hardest part was realizing it's easy that I am experiencing, lol. No longer excruciating.
    So, if I am not responding with matching excitement it's because I am quiet, allowing the merging. What I shall be responding with when this is finished is yet to be determined I would imagine.