On the Cusp

     Trying to start at the beginning here..prone to jump around. Over "the past few days" I have noticed a certain detachment from the body. I was standing outside gazing at the night sky when I noticed my body was shivering mightily. I did not feel cold at my core and realized it was alot like when I was a child and went swimming...you know how it goes: lips are purple and teeth rattling insisting "but I'm not cold! Why do I have to get out?!" lol
    Today I watched a video interview of Natalie Sudman and recognized so many similarities in mannerisms, ways of expressing, experiencing, remembering. I knew exactly how that feels and of course it was delightful to be present in energies where there were no major differences....the flow is easy when it is flowing in the same way-multidimensionally.
   My son the past few days has been talking of a dream he had where I was killed and wants to sit on my lap and hold me forever "mommy I don't ever want you to go". I have felt often today a sense of something impending that will bring GREAT change to my experience. It reminded me very much of when I experienced my "quickening" and my daughter cried out "no mommy! don't leave!".
     I am dying. I am dying 'to myself' in that: in order for the human form to be maintained with the presence of a higher consciousness residing perpetually, there has to be a separation between the collaborative consciousnesses of the parts of the body (the mind cooperative, heart cooperative, intestinal cooperative, etc) so much so that the expanded consciousness interacting with the world loses awareness that the body has consciousness of it's own. The whole purpose of this exercise of "coming into expanded consciousness in human form" is so that we remember to include the awareness of the physical perspective, it's needs and desires.
    So, for me, that means to remember considerations, politeness, acknowledgement of the contribution we make to one another's experiences. There is divine consciousness experiencing extreme limitation, sacrificing it's direct connection to the heavens so that divinity can experience occupying physicality. That hair you hate? It knows you hate it, it reacts and responds to it with it's own personality and divine consciousness. It needs to be cared for and taken into consideration. The heart must forget it is a particle of the divine, limitless and formless so that it can hold it's form....we need to remember to be considerate of it: if someone is going to energetically blast it, we need to take notice and protect it. It has taken on a child-like awareness so it only remembers it's chosen form of being.
    These divine aspects, expressions, entities have agreed to do this with us immortally. That's ALOT of trust! That's ALOT of commitment!
    One does not walk up to another, begin a communication, announce themselves with a criticism: "Tell your children not to do that"..."Shouldn't you be wearing shoes?"...."Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can't help them, at least don't hurt them."
HELLO?!

1. These other divine expressions, in sacrifice to the experience, relinquish the ability to express as vividly as the consciousness occupying them. We must be that FOR them. Sorry about the print change..WTF? lol ahh O.K. back to normal.. Anyways. In all our "oneness" it serves us to be aware of this and it serves those following us. This detachment also separates us from the memories of "past experiences"; the pain, sorrow, sadness, everything emotional and feeling that went with it. So, we really have no clue exactly how powerful the impact of our presence is to those still going through it. We will not be connecting to them on the emotional level. Our experience of "the past" is an awareness of "energetically exclusive experiences", each and every moment, interaction, shared experience, is an energetically exclusive experience "bubble" that we perceive as having absolutely nothing to do with any other. So, for example, anything that happens during one interaction is perceived as completely irrelevant to another. You may have to remind me of "yesterday" as you experienced it with me because "today" is a clean slate and if you wish our interaction to be based on "yesterday", YOU must bring that with you with all due consideration to the fact I may choose NOT to. You will not be allowed to hold me to that. I choose my experience. I choose who I want to be, what I feel I am to be in any given moment. I am sovereign and I might be cooperative according your perspective or I may not be. And yes, I might need to be led through it as one would a child who is unfamiliar with the complications of organizing travel arrangements, schedules, appointments, etc.....do ya'll still schedule whole weeks ahead? months, years: it's bloody unfathomable from my position! Do not expect me to know the date.....I've been drawn to the energy of a moment, not the bloody planned arrangement and agenda you may have for it! lol Each and every moment is opportunity, experience, expansion and that each can be so unique is....AMAZING! AWESOME! AWE-INSPIRING! FANTASTIC! DELIGHTFUL!
2. We WILL still experience our own feelings. The difference is, they will be exclusive to that moment, strangers to any other moment and so not "as deep/heavy/thick/laden with memory of the last time we felt that feeling". Each feeling has a different nuance unique to each experience. For example sadness in one experience might be 'tainted' with excitement. It will carry it's own unique energetic signature or "smell" (as those of us with higher awareness are prone to call it) exclusive that one "bubble" of experience. In another "bubble"/experience that sadness might be 'tainted' with difficulty or hesitation or delight and so forth. The combinations of energetic experience are endless! INCREDIBLE!
3. I am who I was yesterday, I just not be the same as you remember me because what I can be is an endless combination of feelings, thoughts, emotions, attitude, and personality. Or I can be a completely blank slate. Let's Play!
4. Play with mercy because I notice I'm more prone to the poetic license and energetic flow than I am to sentence structure, etc. a word might feel better than the one more accurately descriptive at times, a rhyme might catch the interest and used for the sake of that alone and I noticed a preference for words of a softer vibration for the ends of sentences....I'll do my best to keep it structured though! I am quite capable......just not always interested.....