The Thud-Coming Down From High Places

    Sure enough, watching the movie "Ever After" became a challenge: trouble with internet connections, frustration with pop download requests, etc., etc. and so on. In came frustration and uncertainty, in came a little bit of pain from relationship experiences. Been thrown over by a man with excuses of "duty" and "responsibility", been there. Not enchanted by the romantic aspects. But, yes some heart touching and laughing.
    This is how it happens though. We are caught up upon wings and brought to the top of a mountain. We given a glimpse of a new reality, of a potential. Then we are brought back down the where we started the journey of flight and told "now climb that mountain". "Huh?" come sour reply. I was just flying and now I have crash landed and am back at the beginning! But it is O.K. now come the experiences to put into practice what we have been learning of that new to be state of being. Now comes the sharpening of the teeth. Now come the opportunities. I have my lesson plan and a glimpse of what getting the degree will achieve for me. Now I have a sense of purpose. Now I have authority in a sense of knowledge and understanding about what is happening. There are new found open and cleansed places within me. But yes, I am exhausted. I was not just shown one mountain peak but yet another I will be climbing. One beyond that which has past been climbed ever by me. More new and unfamiliar circumstances. Positions of authority. Resources to juggle and use appropriately. Shrugging off spirit when it wants to lead and letting the human choose things. Now if I could just get over this head and chest cold and stomach cancer......I might be able to accomplish something I am thinking and feeling. I feel so handicapped by the stomach cancer, like how can I take this seriously? But I am a trooper and will march through it. No wind or rain or blizzard....oh, pooh and that means relationship will have to be in the experience. And guaranteed it won't be an easy insweep. Arrrggggg It shall be OK and what will be will be. Honest emotional journeying. Am about to make use of things I would have found and might still do find distasteful. Woo hypocrite accusation coming, lol. No. Because I won't be speaking another belief and preaching it to others while doing this thing. I have simply gotten a deeper understanding of things which allows that certain things are evil, but when appropriately used the use of them is righteous in action and deed. So there ya have it. A journey I will be making. The people around me will be reflecting my inner journey. So men will be reflections of what is happening in my intellect, how it is treating the rest of me. If I do not like ho women are treating me, I must reflect on how they might be like me in some way and is it my perception of them that needs adjusting, are they presenting something upon which I must sharpen my teeth, a challenge I am facing to cement in my new beliefs or are they another who needs my newfound perspectives? I have been given all the tools and resources I need to accomplish whatever it is I need to accomplish. I do believe I have a full plate. While I suffer a chest and sinus cold that has become infected and stomach cancer eating away at me, I do feel invigorated, clean and refreshed in a way as if my etheric body is completely separate and unaffected by my physical body. Let's allow the etheric to heal the physical over the next few days, hopefully. I don't know how soon things will be coming in, come my way. Time IS speeding up because this kind of journeying, download of information doesn't usually happen until fall: October/November most years it seems. So, we have crammed a few years into one or two seasons. No wonder I am drained! And yeah, one would have to push to keep up with me. Feel sorry for them. Have set a pace few can handle. People traditionally mediate for 40 years to get to where I was in my early thirties. And now I am only 43 accomplishing what most don't even begin to achieve until they are 80 and dying. Not a bad job cleaning. It will suffice for today. On to other things and other areas that need attention.....
  But no. I realize suddenly I am on a threshold, in the "in-betweens" where I have a pulse on more than one "dimension" and am using it to my benefit. So the work of dealing with that which is unpleasant is being done in a "parallel dimension", with me orchestrating it. The positive results can them be brought into this dimension seemingly "miraculously" as if by magic. For I feel the laboring of doing great battle and the fighting of a child with her new found understanding. I am in at leat three, orchestrating and nurturing, reminding of principles we all are learning. And I feel relief. Relief that it does not have to all happen to me personally in a single human being. To others I appear to be doing nothing but thinking and reflecting and meditating, but in reality it is worlds I am conquering. I appear to speaking to myself only, but in fact I AM speaking to everybody and everybody IS hearing me. I have called down vengeance upon this system. A setting of my children free to be with me. A bringing in of resources and all that I need. Even the bringing of a lover to me. Apparently effortlessly but with great efforts indeed. Spirits all serving me through multiple realities. Interesting indeed.
   In one dimension I am doing a bit of ritual designing and performing; men need visual illustration to demonstrate what they are doing spiritually. And I realize it is by my spirit I accomplish this thing, for a spirit can work in the other dimensions simultaneously and I applaud her for she IS mighty. And she is a part of me. Look at her orchestrate these things under my direction.....an incredible thing, an incredible system. A wonder to "see" and perceive fearlessly. It is like sitting and watching a movie, being the "peanut gallery", the movie becoming interactive with me. It's quite exciting. And this is how authors like Tolkien brought about their own levels of enlightenment, by "creating stories", living in parallel dimensions, allowing for it to happen by being writers of "stories", authors of their own states of being. And they bring others along with them if the reader becomes engrossed in it and allows things to happen to them in their own "parallel realities". Though some simply add their consciousness to another, never achieving their own enlightenment. The same with actors and poets....channelers of other potential realities and whether or not they bring those consiousnesses to live in them, to bring them to life in them here in this reality. And Ellen makes fun of the little girls who claim they were mermaids who took off their fins to come into this reality, lol. Ridicule away.....it is all really happening but she is home to "demons", being gay and everything. The biggest scoffers are those who know exactly what is happening. And truly they are now powerless against me for their spirits are known and being taken in all the various dimensions that affect me. And I cheer on my spirit that is working mightily and seemingly effortlessly. So climatic! THIS is where miracles being to happen. We are no longer limited to one perception. In various levels, various beliefs are appropriate. There IS one ultimate truth and one ultimate reality, however it is sometimes necessary to traverse "alien terrain", exist within other beliefs to move through and beyond and be released from other perceptual realities and belief systems. And we have learned ot navigate all of them finally with awareness of all our various aspects. And we can do this for and with anyone and anything whom we choose to do it to or with. But first, we must do me. We must complete me. Me and my family. O.K., so I've decided to take along a few others I am fond of. Shrug. What's a journey without a fellowship, eh? I choose my fellowship, those allowed to make this journey with me. We are packing for our journey, a very great company of spirits and me. Taking the lead. A real life spirit "Dungeon and Dragons" adventure where all are guaranteed to come out unscathed. Now we're cooking. And dang it, I am not even allowed to try to affect things in this reality, lol. I am to just sit back and allow the magic o happen...time for spirit to be proven. Interesting turn of events in this here....... And some insight as to why the enlightened are up all night and sleep during the day. While they are up at night, all the other spirits aren't using people to interfere: their people are sleeping. Then during the day, spirits can roam free, running interference and things while their people are sleeping. A way to bag the enemy who is occupied not only on spiritual but trying to manipulate physical as well, so our spirit has the upper hand, having it's body tucked away safely. Interesting prospect, isn't it? And you can't do any of it if you're engrossed in TV and entertainment, getting drunk and partying, or working a typical work week. Focus HAS to be on the kingdom 24/7. O.K. so you're allowed
"lunch breaks", but it is very serious. No part of this world or this system. Which is why so many advanced spirits are out of work homeless in their bodies.
   I am so not used to sitting around a letting thing happen, trying not to affect anything. But my spirit knows and has experienced human limitations. It is time for her to prove something to me. I am to sit around and allow her to make things happen for me. Be the big fat fat husband sitting at the town gate bragging of how his wife is so capable, lol. (Book of proverbs about capable wife ilustration). But at least I understand what is happening so I don't get all frustrated that things aren't working for me. Roadblocks aren't anything working against me, but reminders to allow things to happen, to come, to be brought to me. Allow for 'magic' and miracles to happen. Seems so unnatural, lol.
   The interesting thing to me is that we have been previously instructed to get our human consciousness up to speed on these things. So, I am wondering just how much the people around me are and will become fully aware of what is really happening. Who will share a knowing smile and who is left in complete darkness/imprisonment around me. Like the four points of a pyramid, we all have four faces: the spirit, the intellect, the body, and the human personality and four for each of these....making up the merkaba and the tree. And I do not know how I know about these things because I have never studied them, taken courses or read anything on them. Spirit has led me correctly, I do believe ;)
  After the thud of last night and the return of an old familiar feeling this morning, I thought I was destined for a rather mundane day today. And look what I had coming! lol Not what I was expecting, but once again very happy to be living. And once we travel through this phase of spirit being proven, we become one magical, miraculous being working in unison on everything and we shall see what THAT means for me.
 Napping became deep, hard sleeping.
 Evening: the tests are now coming. Do I believe I have no choice for a bad spirit to be with me, has been given authority over me or am I a sovereign being? Do I believe I have been misled about today's adventures, and even if I am, what harm did it do to me? They have shown me a potential I can be and thus have empowered me to be that exactly. Oh, yes, the tests are coming. Glad I got some sleep.
    So that spirit of today has to become me. Like a child who has always relied on parents to fulfill certain responsibilities, it is my turn as a spirit walking into adulthood and sovereignty to take upon myself a few things I would view as unpleasant. What are the types of things God does? He puts things in the hearts of men, he holds courts and attends hearings, all those types of things. And who am I to do those things? Is it not a father's responsibility? Only until we grow big, only until we grow big. So, we overcome a childish reluctance, some insecurity, immature judgment about doing such things, fear we may not do them appropriately, expecting resistance to such things, more testing, waiting for things to become firmly rooted inner knowings. Ah, the little girl easily overwhelmed by the thought of tackling new things. Here in me, reluctant to enter adulthood, wanting all the freedoms but none of the responsibilities.....we believe we can act like adults, be free and take on only certain responsibilities. We are mistaken. This is where hard love comes in.