Dancing the spiral through social stuff

Message to self today:
Live life slowly
to feel every feeling, good or bad
neither will hurt me....
and then choose where to focus
to bring in the more good feelings.
We have all the time in the world
we are eternal
So yes,live life slowly
Let the manifestations come quickly.


Synchronistically........
Needed this reminder of the goal I made here.
Why such a goal? Why such open, raw authenticity?
Because I discovered something: it is true we create our reality. The world around us, the Universe as a whole, it takes it's cues from us....how we are responding to what rises from within us. I discovered it becomes, kinder, softer, more generous the more loving and accepting we are of our own aspects. If we resist ourselves, the world around us becomes tight-fisted. The more honestly we flow, the more fluid our manifestations, the easier things come to us physically.
And I needed this reminder today as I really just wanted to spend the next two days in bed coddling my inner kingdom as the energetic spiral brings me back to all those moments where I learned control in reference to social interactions. The time the elder teaching me to be a minister told me "Stacey, you don't have to tell everyone everything". Discretion: an attempt to control the world around us, who knows what about us.Even if it's because "they can't handle it", knowing something. How will they ever learn to handle it if they are never exposed to it? Can we not trust we are given to share what we are a given to share when it is given to us to share for a damn good reason. No, not all of us can follow the energy to see where it is going, exposing the reason. That does not mean we cannot trust it. Maybe the greatest gift we can give people is the opportunity to "get over it". It'd make them a whole lot more mature, emotionally and easier to be with.
Another reason for controlling what someone might know about me: People can hurt us with what they know about us, use it against us. Why would anyone want to hurt me? I would think. The only naive thing about that is that we just didn't know people who have been hurt hurt other people. So,we learn that and we understand it's not about us then. We haven't done anything that needs hiding, to be ashamed of, given anyone reason not to embrace us. It's their arms that are crippled,not ours when we are open and honest with everyone.
Then there's the mourning and sense of loss of the 'naive' little one we shut down along the road. The one who never wanted to hurt anyone, who was so open and honest.
Yet, when we are young, we do hurt one another immensely because we are so judgmental.Even if our mind does not say so, we are still aware of our sense of divine origins, that our perspective is divinely given. The great variety of perspectives we're exposed to is so overwhelming, we feel a need to cling to and assert ours passionately, desperately and seek to make black and white distinctions to simplify things. When we are young and fresh, other perspectives are legitimately a threat to us simply because we have not mastered embodying our own completely and that cannot even happen until we've gone through our stages of development. We haven't completed our spiral. We haven't worked in our teen aspect, then our parent aspect and then our sage aspect.....and so we are so fragile at times and in places. We don't have the capacity to realize our judgmental defense mechanism does hurt other people. I always think of the two year old biting phase: a child bites while not even being able to fathom their bite is causing pain while they themselves are experiencing the pain of being bitten by another two year old. We just don't get it. And so when the world hurts us back for a hurt we can't comprehend we have caused it...well, we begin to fear the world, see it as some unreasoning evil. It isn't. It never was. It was simply just like us. It's only when we begin to take down the walls and blinders, begin to feel safe in it that we are able to see this. And those are the sages that are able to laugh at it and be unconcerned with what they see happening around them. I'm becoming one of those sages. Walking through feelings of guilt for not being miserable, caught up in the dramatic happenings of the world that arrive in this section of my inner spiral. Love the one that feels guilty because they fear they are not being empathetic, compassionate, might be behaving as if one is "better than" everyone around them. Dancing the whirlwind of emotion, knowing it must come, we must walk back through it, going the way we have come.as it lays it's self down before us again and again until it ceases to exist for us. Knowing, all of it cannot be avoided. We could not have lived a life any different. We begin life small and grow up, the growing stages and pains must happen. Through it all we cannot even hear the sages, blinded by the necessary to us blindness of judgement. They can only plant the seeds that will one day take root in us when our stage of development is entered where our brains and consciousness are capable of opening up to it. The sages know this and so forgiveness is never an option-for it was never a necessity to begin with. We just want to get on with the loving and embracing, the seeing and being seen, the art of accepting and appreciating the beauty that is each and every one of us.
And I can't just stay in bed to get this done.....my heater is on the fritz and the property manager has to come, lol I got myself out of bed with "This is your day. It wants to see you and you to see it".