Leadership and the Love Story

      I went with the older man who has been helping me to Calipatria for his mail run so I could stop at Dollar General to pick up dog food. We had made no previous plans to do this. He just came marching across the road in anger. I took a deep breath and got into playful mode in preparation for this encounter. He had messaged me two hours previously to see if I wanted to go. "Oh, hell no; we are not putting this on me!", I decided. I was writing non-stop all morning right here and my phone was inside where I couldn't hear it. After asserting a no fault perspective, he puts in(unwittingly) that he was busy fiddling with his neighbor's batteries all that time anyways. Toxic masculine can't approach a woman in anything other than self righteous anger, even if he has to make something up. A sad state of affairs I'm feeling I have to deal with before I can move along. 

      On the ride there, I was reflecting on my response to a Slab City community leader. This mashed together with my reflections on community earlier and it came to me; "To take a leadership role in a community, is to accept responsibility for our creation". Little voice piped in; "Even if it's a community of 2!". I initiated the community of the old man and myself when I asked for his help. I took the lead, he consented. I'm responsible for setting the energy. I'm the one in control. No wonder I get so put off by his controlling, abusive ways towards me! It's totally askew! I'm totally askew when I allow fear of deprivation and retaliation if I defend myself/right to determination. 

    No wonder our world is so upside down! Feminine (desire is an emotion/feeling) and generally the initiator. Feminine is thus responsible for the energy and thus it's results. 

     As I am doing all this reflecting, I am observing which body parts are resisting and not resisting to what. Wow😲 Thoughts come from brain and heart, feeling/intuition is associated with the stomach and womb. That means in a twin flame scenario when the masculine is male, he DOES literally think with the "other head" and emotionally responds with the brain! 

    No wonder the reminder of a past reflection and corresponding understanding about; "Why is it OK if you do it but not if I do?" came out of a baby daddy's mouth. It's the energy it's done in that makes a difference. In that case he was talking about someone else in an energy that created enmity towards that person. I was using someone's experience as an example to build up a situation. The problem comes in because a toxic masculine will only ever talk about a negative experience in relation to someone out of anger born of insecurity. He cannot fathom any other reason for doing so. Similarly toxic feminine wouldn't be able to fathom doing certain things for any other reason than their anger born of insecurities. Thus; they perceive the opposite sex as inevitably evil. 

      Thus, leadership in imbalance/toxicity of either masculine or feminine involves control by abuse rather than conscious choosing of energy expressions are made in. The old man was abusively taking control inappropriately. Upon understanding and realizing this; I assumed responsibility and consciously chose to embody energy more conducive to cooperation, understanding, compassion, etc as I took the lead in exchanging expressions. It ended well, if I do say so myself.

     During all this, I am picking up intuitively how mother and father energies are working out, how they are coming back into alignment within me thus "incarnating" in their original selves expanded in myself (daughter physical expression) and a male (son physical expression). So, yeah; Jesus and Morningstar incarnations on Earth.+ Crimson Circle's  "Heaven's Cross"/Revelation= New Earth timeline in effect. 

     I figure, if I can embody my desired state of being in my present energetic environment, I'm absolutely going to be able to do it anywhere. Song prompt:

https://youtu.be/2u1zK8AaHic

Every good story/movie has to have a good soundtrack 😉 

        I also realized doing all this writing of incoming understandings equals: harvest! The fall season is upon MS. Autumn 🍁 already. My physical reality is changing in accordance already as well,bid typically a bit slower...

      💥💡that physical is slower is just another spiritual/ religious belief! I CAN let go of it! I DO sense how changes can be immediate and that I AM intentionally doing it slowly with slightly increasing momentum to avoid shock to my system as well as enjoying and getting the most out of the process (now understanding the perception of the masculine/male lagging behind). We've got an eternity!

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*Post by community leader on FB that I mentioned inspired my reflections above:

"BUILDER BILL SEZ: Special Series:

Slab City lives in a fragile, temporary bubble. In today's world, it's absolutely amazing that it still exists. Governments and Chambers of commerce have frowned upon us for decades.

 

So, twenty-some years ago when I built the Range, I built the whole thing in moveable modules so that if the day came (as I expected would only be a year or two), I could pack it up and move. 

Well, the day hasn't come.......But the bubble is as fragile as ever. Developers try and fail...but someday, one will succeed. A preacher wants to make Salvation Mountain his church. He'll fail... but someday, one will succeed. Town folks complain that we're a burden on society, not paying rent or taxes. they have failed... but someday they'll succeed.

About 10 years ago, State of California suggested that there might be a way for WE the People of Slab City to own the land we live on. A non-profit corporation was formed to preserve the land (Known as section 36) for all of us.

As always, fear rose above good intentions. "They're stealing or homes! They'll charge rent! They'll run us out!" were common cries. All bullshit but that's the way folks think of anything new.

Partners dropped out, fundraising failed, and the deal became less of a deal. The project stalled but it didn't die.

Last year, a new bidder appeared. Salvation Mountain Inc and Slab City Community Group Inc (Both are California registered non-profits formed by and of slabbers) made a new plan hoping to satisfy both Cal State Lands Commission and County of Imperial. Section 36 Community Land Trust was formed (of slabbers). 

Again the fear. Suspicion. Threats. Its not surprising that whenever a director or trustee quits because of threats, they'll be replaced by city folks living far away. Two quit already. ALL FOR TRYING TO SAVE YOUR ASSES."

*My response:

"If it was fragile and temporary it would not still be here. Hence; self deception leads to unconscious deception to others who would be so misled.

Something strong and long lasting doesn't need saving. Hence; more self deception which unconsciously leads to deceiving others who would so be misled.

We could all just make peace with our longevity and stop emotionally abusing one-another with our own fears."