Memory snippets

      I used Facebook as a journal while wandering the national forests during my exploration of my inner dark forests. Binders full of writings couldn't be carried in a backpack😉 (aka rucksack)

     Facebook likes to suggest memories on the daily and I finally got a phone I can tend to this blog again on. So, here are some of those insightful (for that time) posts that came up in FB memories of late.

 -    When we are young our heartfelt requests expressed by the question "why?" are the childhood prayers answered by our adulthood. When we find ourselves acting like our parents or ill like someone we saw during childhood, etc. we are walking in another's shoes....... for that which we call God knows understanding only comes when we walk in another's shoes. Once we realize this, we can remind ourselves the shoes we are walking in are not ours, we placed them upon our feet so we could understand those who wore them before us, and we can begin walking in our own shoes again, creating a life walking on our own unique path of purpose and personal joy. -

-Of course, it had to get worse beg it could get better, 🤣 Love them highs, though and love remembering what a good mom I am.(today's comment on the following memory)

When you're a 45 year old woman who has seen and experienced it all in a worldly way, with a body that shows it and you're walking down the road joining the song your children made up in the moment: "we love walking down the road holding hands, I love my mommy and she loves me".....and hot younger men stop in their tracks to wave at  you until you wave back.....you know you've hit your spiritual stride and the face of this world is changing to match it. And as you experience this perfection of experience with deep abiding appreciation, it can only get better than this.-

    -True; not disturbing it, just triggering the awareness of the ignoring of the disturbance😉 (Today's comment on the following memory)

One cannot be guilty of disturbing the peace of an occupied area of consciousness if the area is not at peace within it's occupying consciousnesses. (Whether it be a home, community, state, country, etc)-

     -Fuck, yeah... getting blunt🤣

People used to comment on my patience in admiration. I told them it wasn't patience at all, it was a talent for distracting myself, self entertaining. I do not want to be admired for how much suffering I can endure. I would rather be admired about the ease and grace with which I create a life of vibrant abundance of love, joy, health, well-being, wisdom, perception, etc. 

Wow, I do so love me🤗 (Today's comment on the following memory)

Patience is another word for endurance.

Does our self-proclaimed "strong", "grown" ass have the strength and maturity to endure our perceived suffering supposedly caused by awaiting an answer, result, end?-

    -Holy crap! The subconscious has been trying to tell me we're in a virtual reality rpg for years now and it's my purpose to discover how we got here! 🤣 (Yesterday's comment on following memory)

How strange:

From my sleep I brought with me a series of letters I thought I should look up when I woke.

They were: "eresi".

Upon doing a search, it turns out to be the name of a reverse engineering software interface.

Also is one letter shy of a word or name associated with an apocalyptic movie series.-

-Back in June, 2015

"I no longer choose righteousness, I choose "rightness", as in "this feels so right". "-