What life is showing me about me; owning my own energy instead of someone else owning me with their energy

       Yeah; the old man again. I'm not allowing him to own my energy! As a being highly aware of the empathic connection, I used to own it/embody/believe anyone else's insecurities and judgement projected at me. I absorbed the low self esteem. I took on their disgust with me, their embarrassment, the degrading. Not so anymore.               

This was the last one I am going to have to deal with. We forget in the moment that we get that one last "gatekeeper" experience after we expand out of a state of being. 

     I was wondering why TF, after months of drawing nothing but feel good people in my experience, I get saddled with this shit again. It's so I could see, acknowledge, fully realize how I have changed. I no longer get that gut clenching self doubt and temptation to feel guilty when men react to things like me not returning their "Good morning" or feel I might be doing something I should be disgusted with myself for. 

    Time to celebrate 🥂 I not only put self esteem boosts into practice, I embodied them, began experiencing the fruit of it, see the difference in myself, fully realize it, cry release of all self doubt at the realization and pass through the portal I created. Freedom🎉

Affirmation; "Only I own my emotions and self perceptions".

     No one can make me feel embarrassed. No one can make me feel disgust. No one can make me feel ashamed. No one can make me feel stupid. No one can make me feel self-conscious. No one can make me feel hurt.

     Bad feeling emotions are as much an inside job as good feeling emotions. 

     I choose to stay in my self realization energy.