#Leavingsurvivalmode

        I had to explain to someone that the homeless person they gave something to likely wasn't as appreciative as the giver perceived them to be. The homeless person was probably already worrying about how they were going to fulfill they're next need, such as where their next meal was going to come from. That's survival mode's symptom; lack of demonstrable appreciation. 

      The proud survivor must have an experience to barely be survivable. They must repeat the story of the experience to justify their label of survivor if they want to remain thusly entitled. If they perceive a need to continue to be titled "survivor" but don't feel like a survivor, they need another experience to hold the title. 

      There's also the Law of Attraction that draws experiences to be survived as long as we are in survival mode, resonating with the story of survivor. 

       Most are born into an environment in survival mode and are thus conditioned to it. I had a doctor who was still practicing well after the age of retirement tell me that 99% of our society (American) suffers from PTSD. If it's not poor man's worries,fears, and feelings of insecurity, it's the rich man's worries, fears and feelings of insecurity. We have community leaders taking the lead in demonstrating survival mode by the conflicts they engage in. Even the Presidents play the blame game, a sure sign of survival mode. 

     Thus, leaving survival mode is challenging. One must experience a sense of security in all aspects of life. It requires the rewiring of neuropathways, which literally changes our DNA. We must master our powers of things like perception, self awareness, emotional intelligence, understanding, etc. and be fluid enough in them to change beliefs about ourselves and the world around us. 

      People die trying: literally. I did a lot of research on cult recovery when I left a religious group. When faced with an undeniable truth that conflicts with  life-long religiously associated "truth" upon which physically healthy people made all their life choices, it is not unusual for those people to die suddenly. 

     There is, what they call RTS; Religious Trauma Syndrome. Emotionally, those experiencing RTS are emotionally in survival mode. Our education is a religion, our politics, our culture, etc are all ingrained belief systems increasingly meeting up with very different beliefs. 

     In the face of all that, I have an inherent need to thrive. So, I choose the "path of least resistance", as Abraham-Hicks would say. I choose the better feeling perceptions of myself, my world and my experiences of both. I protect my sense of security and well-being, nurture it, feed it with information via media, socialization, etc that supports an experience of thriving. 

    I have been rewiring my neuropathways bit by bit over the past 30 years by first exploring other religions than the Roman Catholic one I was raised in. Then, I became determined to find the source of all abuse/suffering and break the cycle/chain of it in both sides of my family. That meant examining all educational systems, religions, political belief systems, forms of government, psychology, etc. I turned inward upon introduction to information like the book; "Women Who Run With Wolves".

    I feel more joy, excitement and an ever increasing sense of security the more I go within myself in search of answers. I truly am #Leavingsurvivalmode