What life is showing me about me; finishing touches

      I feel I am at an end of arriving at a new state of being. On Facebook, I had gotten into the habit of making posts I called "What life is showing me about me" in the spirit of "life isn't happening TO you; it's happening FOR you". We do not realize a state of being unless we realize how we're responding differently. We must notice it. Thus, life sends us a repeat experience for us to respond differently to so that we notice we are responding differently.

      In this most recent case, an old man is helping me with being the character I can notice I am responding differently to while appearing to be the only way I can get my physical needs met. Our daily interactions irritate the fuck out of me until I remind myself; he's here in my experience to manifest the personality needed to draw my attention to what is happening within me. So, I pop into observer mode instead of reactive. 

      I no longer accept the perspective that just because someone is helping me, it does not mean they are responsible for me or the results of my energy. Nor does it give them the right to make choices for me. I stand or fall in my own energy, of my own accord. 

     I don't need someone correcting my interactions with others. I do so quite effectively, respectfully and compassionately. 

      Example 1) I was walking my dogs. The old man stopped me to talk to me. While doing so, someone whose dogs are generally problematic because she doesn't mind to them at all appeared in the path I intended to take home. So, I asked him and his neighbor if they minded me cutting through their camps with my dogs. Later the old man instructed me repeatedly that I already had his permission to cut through and he had let his neighbor know it was OK if I cut through,so I didn't need to ask. Yes, I did, according to my sensibilities because I knew I had permission to cut through myself (I had obtained it from his neighbor before even getting involved with the old man), however I had not obtained permission to cut through with my dogs. The old man I first began interacting with because he was on the hunt for and then waging war against two little dogs and their human because they'd go into his camp and shit on his rug.

     Example 2) I headed for the checkout line at Dollar General. The older woman before me stood back and looked at how much she had in her hand and how much I had in my cart. I affirmed for her; "you have fewer items, go ahead". There are those of us who always check if someone else has fewer items behind us. We just happen to be extra polite that way; time is energy, energy can be money or getting to other things urgently needing attention(we don't actually reason all that out, it's just understood intuitively and I can only put it into words because I had to learn the why I do as I do so I felt I could defend it and thus not feel insecure about my choices and actions). Those of us this extra polite don't expect it of others because it takes a more intuitive consciousness to be this polite. We know not everyone intuits like us. Anyways; the old man informed me laughing at what appeared to him to be ignorance on my part, that she had been first anyways within the hearing of the older woman. Even after the woman explained that she always checks and lets people with less go first, as if she didn't say it or know what she was saying, he repeated the "lesson" to me. I didn't bother to explain it to him. Obviously, he's manifesting the "women don't know what they're doing" personality unfailingly in devout service to me🤣 (No, he really is living that state of being, the "higher self" knew this, knew it's exactly what I don't need and so will serve perfectly in demonstrating to me how I am no longer insecure in the face of less intuitive consciousness). 

     In going through these "finishing touches", I realize I don't need to explain myself. I'm just fine. That means I can let go of needing the words to defend myself. Hence; I don't even need to understand why I do what I do or say what I say. Which means; I truly don't need to answer to/explain myself to anyone else. It's no one's right to know or understand. They can get that themselves for themselves. However, I can and will if it's sincere inquisition for learning or understanding purposes. Then it would be a gift I would find great joy in extending. I do so love to share🤗

     Sink in realization, sleep to reset me and my reality. Mission complete.