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      Before going to sleep I did a Google search for top life coaches. I just wanted to get an idea of their online presence and platforms as I explore my own potential. I saw the numbers under followers for Facebook, Twitter, etc. While ones I was familiar with were in the 100,000's, there exists those in the 1,000,000/millions. What would THAT be like, I wondered. Would I still be me, doing what I am doing? This pure inner self awareness that brings up everything beautiful and valuable? Would I lose myself in becoming aware of others' states of being to cater to their needs? I read a man's post on needing to take on qualities of both predator of prey and could hardly resonate with it enough to fully hear his softness because I am leaving that paradigm all together. I did find it this morning after waking up and so responded:
     "I like your use of words such as "it seems" and "perhaps". I agree with your analysis that in this dualistic paradigm swapping qualities can be helpful in bringing us to center and wholeness. I've certainly spent enough time coming to be comfortable with my own physical power used in self defense/integrating my abundance of self awareness. I've definitely experienced death and resurrection again and again. The softness of your words allows choice to embrace or not, which shows a great respect which I can truly appreciate. It welcomes and invites. Definitely my preferred method and one I more readily respond to. I also like how it also leaves room for another paradigm; the one we find ourselves in when we have reached nearness to full embodiment. It is the one where we are shown in vision a self-sustaining being whose circle of energy breaths out life that goes out into their reality and returns to them only to continue to move fluidly through and out again. I, myself, was given such a vision of myself. Then I learned of breathairianism. I also learned that in the absence of fear and threat, wild animals do not procreate as often. If I look at population proportions, it is the predators who are less abundant. The world hasn't become over run by lions and tigers for they are dependent upon prey to exist (we could say man became the bigger predator, I know). The threat they present and resulting fear is what keeps the prey populations increasing. In their dependency, they are weak. Prey animals, on the other hand, can survive without the predator as their defecation serves as fertilizer, etc. And yes, the digestive process is it's own cycle of death. Sometimes we can take lessons from nature too far, lol. The point being; in sum, life can exist without predation and fear in complete balance within it's self. So, for those who are disturbed by perpetual predator/prey paradigm, I offer the knowledge that it IS only temporary, even in this physicality, so if we can allow ourselves to play it out within ourselves until we have come closer to wholeness, the process of integration becomes much more gentle and our potential exceeds the extremes of duality. We just can't get there from embodying the extreme of one or the other, predator or prey; we must integrate both of what we perceive are their qualities as you expressed here so eloquently."
     I remember being a child and setting up jumps just so I could run and leap over them. I did not imagine being chased or being in a race with another athlete. I rode my horse at full speed down trails through the woods without imagining we were being chased or racing. My dog runs in circles out of pure exuberance. I didn't like competition at all. I lost delight in being stimulated to create chase in my predator filled environment. I reckon maybe the inability to imagine physical vitality in expression to caused by the predominant belief that competition is good for us and that there is always an enemy. I DO know they are cultural implants. I didn't need them in order to stimulate physical agility. If anything I lost physical agility and quick instincts in the face of them as mine, which had been developed naturally, far surpassed those of those who developed under the influence of the implants. It was the meanness that took me by surprise and made the whole activity undesirable. Fact is, in sum of my experience, a life absent of competition and intimidation produces far superior experiences of one's self.
     Back to dream; I woke from a dream where I looked down at my Facebook followers number and it was 100,000. I cannot fathom it. I stand on the cusp where I cannot see what is before me. It is grey and dark for it's lack of clarity. I rejoice in knowing that it's lack of clearly being able to be seen by me does not denote a lack of clarity ahead of me. It denotes the increase of clarity ahead which my sense spectrum is not presently attuned to . I will have to hear the sounds dogs hear but people don't, so to speak. I will have to see beyond our color blindness. I will have to be able to smell what the dog smells and see what the eagle sees. I must be ready if that is what looms before me. 
   It also occurs to me why spring feels so much like winter; our winter personality, our mulch, our insulating cover of the old personality that got us through our present then resonant reality must be pushed through by the shoots of the new. Like a newborn, I spend a lot of time sleeping.
  I know that this morning I am allowing something in. There's tenderness and crying and an inability to pinpoint it. Whatever it is, it's a shoot coming up through me for embodying. It may have to do with watching a video yesterday of a young woman blindfolding herself in a public lace with scissors in one hand and electric shaver in another, inviting people to cut her hair in an effort to downplay the importance of physical attractiveness to others. The response was revealing to me, though not in the same way as others or what was expected. People were gentle, did it for her because she was asking. They did it gently because she was so vulnerable. When they finally approached, there was consciousness of styling to their cutting rather than chopping for the sake of chopping. Finally, when it was all pretty short, beyond styling, a man came in and shaved it clean. He wasn't going to leave her distorted. Instead of "I'm O.K. with an 'ugly' chop job", her soul was graced with"it is important to me" from life. I wonder if she grasped it? Vanity isn't necessarily a vain thing. The big lesson lately in the realms of consciousness I exist in are about appreciating the human experience, seeing it's value and loving it. "saving face" was a lesson Mary taught Jesus at the wedding feast in Cana. To 'sin' is 'to miss the point of what it means to be human'. Darkness is condensed light, white the absence of color that creates the contrast that we may see the colors that make up black. "Love and Light" consciousness is that white, that absence of color to provide contrast we need to see the universe, to see source. Ha! Therein is today's understanding reached. Blessed be!

 Oh, my now the implications and fullness of this come for realization and embodiment. White is the absence of light. It only exists in the realm of form. When we retreat inward, we retreat into The Dance, into Source. That is why we can cut ourselves off from "love and light", from the heavens. It is why we can hide from them. It is why they are our servants, our pallet. The heavens are not a part of Source. They were created by source. They are the only true, purely created aspects.They are not supposed to take up permanent residence. They are not a part of oneness. They are the contrast of Source. They are the contrast of adoration. That is why they are not deserving of it. The feelings of undeserving come from it because we have projected our worship upon it inappropriately. Empathicly we pick up the message of it's expressing it's undeserving and internalize it wrongly. It is not saddened by it's not being worthy of it, it is saddened by our projecting worship upon it. So, sadness and unworthiness we feel are a result of improper worship and attributing of qualities where they do not exist. We wrong our pallet when we give it all the credit. We corrupt it by forcing it into a role it cannot fit or fathom. It was never meant to control or shape us and yet we have forced it into that role for which it is inadequate, of which it is impossible for our nature is formlessness and fluidness. And it comes crashing into my consciousness, parts of me tearing, the crying, oh, it's happening. I've just found a platform never before heard of by me. launching me into a new experience of reality. We don't neeeeed the heavens to perceive ourselves, we can more acutely and accurately do it with the intuitive senses. We simply like and enjoy the painting on a pallet. And I used be comfortable with simply being irreverent. I about to place myself above the heavens comfortably. It explains why I would inwardly rebel at the persistence that we are all one and there is no separation, that separation is an illusion. Ha! I knew it, lol I just didn't have the intellect to grasp it yet as that was forming influenced by this system of things. It was never our enemy. We made it our enemy when we internalized/owned it as self when it wasn't and so it had to fight back as effectively and cruelly as it could to alienate us, separate us and restore us both to our healthy roles. Now it becomes friend and 'pet', family and whole.
    We created a mirror. We look in the mirror and see "Creator", so in our naivete we call the mirror Creator. BOL That is how it is that God created man in his image and that he had to give them/allow them into flesh/animal skin to protect them! Adam and Eve were spirit to begin with, sheesh, it's all been forming within me, bit by bit! We cut ourselves off from Source when we spend too much time in the contrast/heaven/spirit realms. 
That is why our time there, our thoughts benefit us most when they are consciously interacted with. Oh, that means telling the Puppet Master cleaning up it's own mess is it's job was wrong. It IS mine. oops!
    I can suddenly feel "in love" within me-without the need for another to trigger it! Ticklish all over, too! My manifesting skills are coming into "mad manifesting".  Gonna nap and reset into alignment with this shit. It's AAAAwwwesome!
     Woke from that nap leaving a dream in which a man asked if I knew someone. "Yeah, he runs in the circles I run in, I've seen him". The guy starts giving me handfuls upon handfuls of coins. He wanted me to speak well of him when I ran into the one he asked whether I knew, so he hooked me up real good. I brought the first handfuls down to my friend so I could go back and get the rest. We noticed the exotic locations of where the coins had come from and alot of them were of African American history.  I DO feel the abundance train is coming. All I can think of right now is Africa is the seat of 'civilization', the origins of mankind. I am indeed accessing our origins, the truth of our history, of creation, the seat of the soul, the nature of all things.
    Shortly after waking up from that nap, I wanted to look for good ol' Tempus Fugit the Druid. Bah! Nothing there for me, I'm sure. What I'm seeking is that high vibe interconnected intuitive feeling within myself. So, i give myself permission.
A few hours later and a huge etheric energy came from my right. woa

Memes for today:
     "Shape shifting is our nature."
 "Yes, I was once a victim who survived, but my true nature as a Thriver is what kept me alive."
"When we ascend into our own skin."
"No one broke rules for me. They adapted. That adaptation facilitated the increase in my potentials. No longer in the thousands, it's in the millions'.
"God is spirit created by source, made Adam and Eve in his image and thus the need for animal skin/flesh to enter physical earth; to reunite and become one with Source".
"We created mirror. In mirror we saw Creator. So, we called the mirror Creator. How simple! A child's honest mistake." 
"Always give credit where credit is due"
"God is my pallet. I AM it's Source.Knowing this brings all into balance".