This afternoon I experienced jealousy while talking to my neighbor. Woa. I never feel jealousy. There was no thought attached to it and nothing going on that would normally trigger it. My inner self was jealous that I had been spending too much energy and focus on someone else. They had been contributing to my experience greatly, validating my amped up self worth. They were suddenly intent on looking elsewhere for guidance when guidance from me had been working wonders, spot-on, and exciting for her. The person she had spoken to hadn't told her any different than I had. But, like my teenage daughter, she wasn't believing it until she heard it from someone else without acknowledging that she had heard it from me already. It occurs to me that because she doesn't trust herself, and she saw results from me; she can't fully trust what was happening. So, she'll keep seeking other people after other people not believing wholeheartedly what they're saying, even if they all say the same thing and it rings bells over and over again. The normal response to hearing something after already realizing it is; synchronicity! Love it! No doubting the message for me!
So, it turns out that when we're jealous of another's car; our inner self is jealous that our brain does not think the inner self is worthy enough to elicit the allowance of such a nice car in our experience. The inner self gets angry when we covet things it is not receiving from us. The inner self is jealous the monkey brain is even thinking such magnificent thoughts granted another human being and their car. The normal person would see a fine car and wonder if owning such a car would feel as good as it looks. They feel inward and sense the answer.
Same goes for jealousy when our lover 'flirts' with another. Our inner self is angry we aren't giving it all the attention and value as we do to our lover and so worried about what they're doing instead of directing all that worthiness to it. The normal person sees attention being given another and is happy they are being blessed with the attention you so cherish. there's no worries about the other person having better qualities. If our lover decides to choose the other, that's their lack of appreciation for me. If one cannot fully appreciate me and cannot be so self fulfilled they couldn't bother to leave themselves plus a lover; they can go with my blessing. Don't let the door hit you in the ass on the way out, I guess. It really isn't a problem.
Yeah: jealousy is the sign that we need more inner-self appreciation time. The inner self takes feelings of lack personally. "You are feeling like I am lacking! Watch me make a fool of you that you feel just like I do!". Off we may go, if not knowing better, being mean to the person with the better car or the lover who we perceive is flirting with intent, the one we think they're flirting with, a dear friend, the friend of that friend. We end up looking stupid in the end. The inner self just sits back with an "I showed you!" and gives us the silent treatment. Guidance system is down. We're left floundering and confused.
wooo, not fucking with my inner self any time soon!
And now the healing of relationship with my inner self begins. We're happy again, proud of ourselves. We're full of gratitude and mutual appreciation. "I heard you".
wooo, not fucking with my inner self any time soon!
And now the healing of relationship with my inner self begins. We're happy again, proud of ourselves. We're full of gratitude and mutual appreciation. "I heard you".
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